March 2021 - The Table
Here I am again. Almost completely naked, lying under a sheet waiting. Just waiting. This is the worst part, the waiting. My mind trips over itself talking myself in and out of what is about to happen. Or not happen. The most confusing part of this game.
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It really changed a few months ago. I had been seeing the same massage therapist for over three years to deal with my chronic back pain. She was amazing and I always left feeling relaxed and restored. When she made a career change I struggled through nearly a dozen new therapists at the same location and was going to give up. Until I was suggested to try Chris. I was hesitant of having a male therapist, but since I figured it wasn’t going to work out any way I decided to give him a try. Well, much to my shock, I was pleasantly surprised at both his skill and the way he helped me relax. He was very responsive and courteous to what I said about pressure or areas of discomfort. Plus he was easy to talk to. It really was such a relief.
I should’ve known that would cause trouble for me. It is always the mental part of someone that attracts me first. In the past few years I’ve been seeing him I slowly noticed our conversations getting more personal, more in-depth, more playful, slightly more suggestive. Knowing full well the nature of the profession I tried my hardest to be as respectful as possible and just keep hitting the “ignore” button in my brain.
Before the pandemic, it seemed easier to be casual, but something definitely felt different now and my nerves seemed to always be on high alert. I don’t know what changed over those several months of not having sessions but now they were increasingly challenging to get through. Even more concerning was that I was thinking about him leading up to the sessions instead of just when I was there. The real red flag should've been when I changed into a sexier outfit and double shaved my legs just for a Friday night appointment.
The last session was the worst. Our causal dialogue kept hitting catches and the gentle pressure went from feeling like a massage to feeling like foreplay. Even the way he massaged my hands felt more like they were being held by a lover than being massaged by a therapist. Every motion left my skin flushed and tingling. Everything just felt so intimate, like he was stroking places hidden under the soft sheet.
By the time he let me flip over onto my stomach, I almost wanted to make him stop. Navigating from aroused to relaxing was getting more and more difficult. The conversation moved back into safer territory and I tried to regain my composure. He asked me a question, and just as I tried to answer, his forearms ran down my back and I was rendered completely speechless. Dropped off completely mid-sentence. The sensation was overwhelming.
I felt him hesitate above me, “You okay?”
I mumbled something nonsensical and slammed my head against the headrest gently when I really wanted to bang it against a wall. I couldn’t believe it. As a professional myself and freshly out of my twenties, I was hardly a horny teenager. And this was such an innocent gesture nowhere near any place important. What the actual fuck. Definitely had to stop this.
“Ooook,” he said, kinda laughing to himself.
“I am going to have to ask you not to do that aga…” I mumbled out just as he did it again. Much to my embarrassment, I let out a small moan into the table as my hands clenched into fists. Pretty sure I drew blood from my nails against my palm. Thank god I still had my panties on or the table would’ve been wet.
I heard him chuckle darkly behind me. It had a very evil quality to it. “You were saying?”
I tried to repeat myself but I just kinda whimpered a bit. When I got my breathing back under control, I fumbled over my words as I tried to explain how turned on I was getting without actually saying it. I didn’t want to be that cliche from a bad porno.
“That, um, makes me think of different things so maybe not do that…”
I couldn’t see him, but I could swear he was smirking at me as he made a noncommittal “mmhmm” noise and moved on. Several times I could feel him lean his head close enough to mine that I registered how good he smelled. Was he getting close to me on purpose? If I looked at him, was he really as close as I thought? Clearly, there was something wrong with me. This was professional, I kept screaming at myself over and over again. Just one more body on a table making small talk. He has done this a million times to hundreds of people. This is the stuff of movies. Stop reading into it. Reminding myself that it was just in my head and coincidental seemed to keep me steady. Stop. Being. An. Idiot.
The session moved along, as did the conversation. Cooking, games, travel. All safe topics we enjoyed. Damn, I really did enjoy talking to him. All friendly…until we were nearing the end. I felt him lean over me, and just as I was about to ask a question I felt the pressure of his strong forearms run up my spine again and I felt my whole body shiver in response. I’d give damn near anything at that moment for him to get up on the table with me, grinding his hips against mine from behind, and do it again.
I felt him very close to my head as he whispered near my ear, “I don’t think you actually wanted me to stop doing that.”
It didn’t sound innocent at all. I definitely must have misheard that. I don’t know what I would have done, but when I lifted my head to respond he was gone. I was alone in the room. Pretty much the opposite of relaxed. I couldn’t wait to get out of there, run home, crawl under my own sheets, and give myself some much-needed relief. It didn't take long until I made myself scream into a pillow from three separate orgasms.
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Now I am here again. Facedown. Mostly naked. Vulnerable. Waiting. Not entirely sure if I have the courage to make the first move, or if the rising tension is all just in my mind. My mind has been exhausting the possibilities all week long. Playing out different scenarios that I know would never happen.
I could just be making up the tension between us. It could all be in my head, and this is what I am thinking as I hear the door open and he comes back in. Just ignore what I am thinking because I have clearly seen too many movies or read too many stories. Hell, I have written some of these bad stories myself. Repeating to myself over and over again that I am just another body. And he is a professional. Nothing is going to happen, you silly girl. Come back to reality. Just let your sad aching back be taken care of.
Much to my relief and dismay, the session starts just like any other, except that he asks me to start face down. Checking table temperature, moving the sheet to the appropriate position, and going through the motions. He is unusually quiet and I struggle to find something safe to talk about and end up settling for art.
The topic turns to tattoos and I mention that I have a new one on my upper thigh and ask if he has any. He promises to show me once the session is over and immediately am curious enough to almost demand he show me right now. As he works down my body I try to relax as much as I can, by focusing on the conversation over the sensations. I am so impressed by my focus, that I am taken by surprise when the edge of the sheet seems to be moving off my barely concealed ass. I feel him tug the edge of it back up and tuck it into the waistband of my panties, releasing the band with a forceful snap. To my horror, a tiny gasp escapes my mouth.