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First, I should place an amendment to my original statement to help avoid confusion amongst those who linked to my profile from the forums. I will talk a little more about what it is to be non-op trans than other aspects, but since I'm bio-male, I checked male at the creation stage of this profile. In terms of Lush (but not the internet in general) I tend to identify as female about 70% of the time. It's a bit of an abstract flux with me, but it occurs in reality amongst those who are close to me. I guess what I'm suggesting is that you should try not to get weirded out by my posting from the perspective of either gender identification, or even sexual identification. Thanks for those of you who understand, and my understanding to those of you who find it hard to wrap your minds around. It is.

Sadly, another addition has become necessary. I hate to have a disclaimer like this, but I apparently I must. I do NOT accept friend requests that are blank. You don't necessarily have to have a long standing relationship on Lush with me - though it doesn't hurt to have commented on the same threads I have, or read my stories or bio - but you do have to introduce yourself. I'm not after a long list of friends, but I'll totally add you if you seem interesting. I won't add you if you send a blank FR. If you don't have a lot of info on your profile, your introduction needs to have a little something about you. There's a lot about me for you to read, and so it's important to me that I get to know you a little also. That said, I welcome anybody who finds me interesting - I probably find you interesting.

I've really never known where to start with these types of things, but in this case, I suspect the most important things for anyone to know is that I am not simply bisexual. I'm actually pansexual, and MTF-non-op transsexual. In theory I'm also polyamorous, but I'm currently in a monogamous relationship which I anticipate lasting forever- I don't necessarily anticipate us remaining monogamous forever. This reminds me of one more note about my online preferences. I don't cyber. If we're chatting, that's fine as long as you speak in complete sentences and can demonstrate a clear grasp of the English language (unfortunately I'm not fluent in any others). I'm here to meet other writers, readers, and enthusiasts for erotic fiction and any other interests we share.

I'm non-operative because I've got an exceptionally masculine frame and frankly, look ridiculous without a beard. Lots of other reasons too, but you'll have to ask if you want to know more about that. I'm as open as it gets about being pan or poly, but my trans-sexuality doesn't belong to the world. It's not just for me, either, so feel free to ask about it, particularly if you'd like to hear about what it's like to be trans from what is (as far as I can tell) a unique perspective.

I'm always happy to talk about pansexuality and polyamory from a fairly academic standpoint. As you might imagine, since I have such a complex orientation and identification, combined with the fact that I'm in a long-term, monogamous relationship that seems to the casual observer as heterosexual, I'm still exploring a lot about myself, and talking helps, but listening helps just as much.

Name:
Alex Bell
Date Joined:
19 Jul 2012
Last Visit:
25 May 2013 (29 minutes ago)
Sex:
Male 
Age:
25
Sign:
Virgo
Relationship Status:
In a Relationship
Orientation
Bisexual
Location:
A Cave, Oregon, United States
Interests:
I've always really enjoyed erotic fiction, and I've written quite a bit of it, but until recently I've not been that comfortable sharing it with the world. It feels nice, now that I finally have. Ironically, I don't write a lot of trans or gay fiction, but a lot of bi and pan themes come out in what usually seems like hetero fiction until you get a couple of chapters in.

Really I'm more of a non-erotic writer, having written several plays (few of which have ever been produced), a screenplay (not produced) and numerous short stories/novellas and one novel (in progress) all of which are currently unpublished, though, to be fair, I've not made any effort in that direction really.
Favorite Books:
As is so common, this has no order of priority or preference. Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte; The River Why - David James Duncan; The Poisonwood Bible - Barbara Kingsolver; American Gods - Neil Gaiman; Sense and Sensibilty, Emma - Jane Austen; Harry Potters 3,4,6 and 7 - J.K. Rowling; and of course a wide variety of others.
Favorite Authors:
Aaron Sorkin is easily my favorite writer of any kind, ever. Don't know what it says about me that my favorite writer is primarily a screen writer and stage writer, but whatever... beyond that there is no order, as usual. Charles Dickens, Charlotte Bronte, Jane Austen, David James Duncan, Neil Gaiman, Jane Espenson, Joss Whedon (not as big a fan of him as others are, but he's fine), Oscar Wilde, William Shakespeare, Christopher Marlowe and many others.
Favorite Movies:
No order. The American President, Charlie Wilson's War, Almost Famous, Stardust, Pleasantville, Good Will Hunting... many, many more.
Favorite Music:
This is totally dependent upon my mood, and right now, as I write this, I'm in the mood for silence. That said, a brief list might include in no order of any kind, Tom Petty, Lene Marlin, Bob Dylan, Tallest Man on Earth, Lucinda Williams, Leonard Cohen, etc.
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Topic: Do Women Like To Suck Cock In Public?
Posted: 23 May 2013 15:27

Damn.

I also almost ignored this thread as well, and indeed it has been hilarious. Surprisingly informative also. I thought there was going to be a small handful of us who said yes and the rest would act like it was a ridiculous question... though, before anything else, the way it's phrased does beg for some small ridicule. I know I say ALL women or ALL men aren't one way quite a bit - probably every second or third post of mine at least includes it - but apparently it still bears repeating.

Now, in response to the OP, I do, I suspect my partner does, and to DazzlingLove, I love eating pussy in public, which is both easier and somewhat more challenging to do in public. We both enjoy the thrill of being in public whilst making love, fucking, banging or otherwise engaging in intercourse, non-penetrative sex, or other intimate acts. I also enjoy a change of surrounding, even if there's nobody around. I suspect that has to do with our initial sex-having circumstances earlier in life. For example, I used to live in a four-hundred square-foot studio apartment in the middle of the woods way outside of town with a friend of mine and there were... parties. At these parties there was often foolish behavior regarding substances, sex, and swordplay. By the end of the night at most of these, somebody got drunker than they meant to, somebody drunkenly got in a duel (or full fledged sword fight), and somebody wound up having sex in front of the crowd, or at least in a room full of their "sleeping" friends. While certainly a weird time in my life which I'm more or less glad is over, I certainly miss the sexual energy and erotic tension of those days, and having sex where you can be ferreted out by random folk is one of the ways I recapture that.

For anybody looking for a good time and place to try out some public fun with a partner or new friend, outdoor festivals are a fantastic way to go. You basically never get in trouble, and most of the people around you won't be offended as long as you get a feel for the timing and placement of it all.

Topic: what were your thoughts right before you gave oral for the first time?
Posted: 24 Apr 2013 00:41

I thought, "Huh. This guy is disappointingly small...".

Looking back on it, he wasn't so small, but not much of a challenge, either.

Topic: Difference between vaginal and anal sex
Posted: 24 Apr 2013 00:39

I guess that's one difference. Currently having only one part of the specified anatomy, but I have a number of friends who all describe it differently. An important thing to remember is that while anal sex can be pleasurable for women, they don't have the same anatomy in there that men do, and so getting fucked in the ass is (almost certainly) a radically different experience for men and women.

I might also point out that vaginal sex can be painful too, if done incorrectly.

Topic: Blowjobs: Guys, do you like to suck cock as well as having your cock sucked?
Posted: 17 Mar 2013 13:45

I just fucking love oral sex. Getting it. Giving it to guys and girls.

Topic: LPQT...?
Posted: 17 Mar 2013 13:31

First, I'd like to say thanks for those who finally got this section of the forums off the ground. I was lobbying hard for a while to get a trans section in the forums, but I disappeared from the internet for quite a while. I do still feel that we could eventually use a trans specific forum, but this is a phenomenal start, so thank you so much to everybody who worked on it.

Now, to my question. Actually, some background first.

For anybody who has advice or commentary, it's important to understand a little about the nature of me. I'm very, very different from the norm. I'm essentially as queer as it gets, and definitely the queerest person I know. Not to say that my way of being queer is better, there's just a lot of it. I've known from as early as I can remember, that my life as an adult would not be like those of anybody else I know. As time wore on I came out as gay, dove back in the closet after a bad experience, then was bi, then flip-flopped some more throughout middle and high school, and finally realized that I'm actually Pansexual, once I learned and understood the term. About a year after that (when I was twenty-two) I discovered - in an intense rush of understanding during a PFLAG meeting I was helping out with - that I was actually Trans. One of the parents there was describing her nineteen year old trans daughter (MTF) and it all clicked inside my head. Since then it has continued to get more complicated.

Since that time, however, it's been difficult for me to remain in a male body, but I've more or less come to terms with it. A bit of an emphasis on the "less" part, though. With all that in mind, a little more than a year ago, I moved in with my girlfriend, who I love so much it makes me cry and giggle simultaneously without any warning sometimes, but, I'm now in what appears to be an extremely straightforward, simple, heterosexual, even heteronormative relationship without a good outlet. I know that she loves me intensely, but she is a straight female, which is the other major problem.

The title of this post was actually my nickname for a little while. The Q is for (undefined) "queer", and the L was for "lesbian", because there was a string of one-night incidents where I was told quite separately by a number of women that having sex me was much more like doing so with a lesbian than with a man. This was not terribly surprising, considering my recent realization. I now feel a little trapped, but for a short period I was able to express myself in a meaningful way until it started being received as a bit of a joke. Also, keeping it from my parents started to become a hassle, though that isn't a huge priority, really just a courtesy to them.


My actual question is, given my circumstance does anybody have any advice on ways to express this side of myself? I have developed reasonably severe Panic Disorder and exacerbated my PTSD as a result of my attempts to live only as a man. In the time since I came out as trans, I have come to understand that I really am some of both, which is why I thought I could handle living this way. Anyway, if anybody has anything to say, I would love to hear it. I wish I had a little more time to work on this, but I'm sure I'll be back to this thread to update it anyway.

Topic: Say something nice about the profile of the person above you
Posted: 17 Mar 2013 12:46

Love your poetry. Amused by your .gifs.

Topic: Too Slutty
Posted: 17 Mar 2013 12:43

Only when those actions are a turn off because they relate to something I'm simply not into.

Topic: Ladies do you being on top or bottom
Posted: 17 Mar 2013 12:42

Variation.

Topic: Do u guys enjoy kissing? or just straight to the action?
Posted: 17 Mar 2013 12:40

There are people who don't like to kiss their partner? That seems curious to me... Oh well. In answer to the question, kissing and foreplay are extremely important to me. There are times when it's relevant to skip it (i.e. when having a quickie somewhere public), but in general it's very important to me.

Topic: How Dirty Are You
Posted: 17 Mar 2013 12:38

Huh. 84%. Who'd have thought?

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Candlelight and Belts - Part I - Dominant Storyteller

She takes me in her hand as she begins to tell the story. I was eighteen. Early in my sexual life- but not that early. She says. I smile as I listen to her. Changing the shape of my mouth actually seemed to help the work I was doing and she let out a little moan. I had an apartment off campus with a couple of friends. I'd had the same boyfriend in high school for such a long time, and...

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Posted: 23 May 2013 17:53
A pattern emerges... I just wanted to share some erotic chess sets with you all. Aren't they fantastic?

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Found this floating around. Love it. I want a set.
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