So, if, as you say, during the 20 years of marriage, you've "already sucked a few", then you've cheated on her and THAT is way different from just a developing fantasy in your head or an "exploration/experiment". What will be very difficult is you hiding this from her for so long. Cravings don't just pop up out of nowhere, so you must have been harboring these "cravings" for longer than you admit or somehow putting yourself in a mode of wanting to do it. Acting on the cravings, as you say you've done a few times already is evidence of 1) bi-sexuality or 2) you're gay but have been hiding/denying it all along. Neither is a bad thing necessarily, but the cheating and hiding it instead of communicating with your wife about is. Come clean with her. Why exactly, do you want to keep it from her? Because you don't want to lose the relationship with her? You can't always have your cock and eat it, too. Commit to one or the other and have the balls to stay committed to one or the other.

Good advice from most here, living with the guilt of not being honest with your wife and yourself will eventually destroy both of you.
Being filled with the fear of loosing what you have in your relationship with your wife is not worth it to either of you.
Be open and honest, but gentle, real relationships are built on friendships first and committing to each other.
Good luck, hope everything works out for you both.

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