Topic New outlook on Cross dressing
07 Dec 2013 06:56
Marie - a very interesting post. I am 50 and have been a closet crossdresser for 40 years. I can SO identify with the purging even though I have never been intoxicated since I am allergic to alcohol. I have purged more times than I care to count. The embarrassment, shame and fear are hard to put into words. After all this time, I still struggle with thoughts, feelings, emotions and relationships.
It is as if I have a split personality where one is very non-compatible with the other. Very masculine features and a deep voice preclude me from ever 'passing' as female, combined with a mostly conservative political outlook, 'old fashioned' and being strictly heterosexual. The idea of homosexual or bisexual males is revolting to me, yet the idea of lesbian or bisexual females is actually a turn on. Perhaps it sounds like a cliche, but if I were born with a vagina instead of a penis, I would be lesbian. I have no desire to be female full time and could not be anyway since I do not know how to BE female. For me crossdressing is about the sexual feelings I get while doing it. I became addicted to it long ago. After ejaculation, the negatives mentioned above usually set in to one degree or another.
For as long as I can remember, I have been very eager to please. I do not argue well and try to avoid it when possible. I loathe being in leadership roles, though throughout my life I have been forced to assume them, even as a child.
I tend to fall in love easily, but sexual relationships are painful to me since I have been dropped like a rock every time as soon as my penchant for crossdressing has been revealed. As it is for many crossdressers I'm sure, having a lover with views like Lustyrose4u or lisad83 would be a dream come true. Alas, such ladies seem to be extremely rare and I have yet to meet one in real time. There are pretenders I have come across only to find out they are either addicted to drugs, and / or are only after the contents of my wallet, or for whatever reason seem to have a tough time getting laid. It tends to make one a little jaded.
Sorry for the rant, but thanks all who have taken the time to read.
Topic Men & Women.....cowgirl or reverse cowgirl....which do you prefer? why?
01 Nov 2013 19:13
I luv both,only prob with reverse is if my guy is small,it slip out more often which is not good,but ok. So just on top is cool because he can suck my nips at the same time and i can reach around and fondle his testicles.
Think I will like a reverse cowgirl alot if i have a guy who is longer,bigger down there.
I like it!
Topic Do you like to crossdress?
27 Oct 2013 07:35
For me it is not a matter of liking it. It is a matter of being addicted to it. I started crossdressing at a very early age and became hooked on it instantly.
Topic Ideal cup size
24 Jun 2013 18:09
A lot has already been said about band size in relation to cup size and yes it matters. My preference is smaller rather than larger, but it really depends on the lady.
Topic Thoughts on girls asking a guy out
16 Feb 2013 06:40
Being one of those "shy guys" myself, I would be extremely flattered if a girl asked me out. I find a confident woman to be very sexy!
Topic Advice (Guys only please): Need BF advice!
06 Jan 2013 21:21
There is something else to consider I have not seen here yet. Your guy may be bipolar. Sudden behavior changes are common in such people. Better to find it out now than later. If he does suffer from this, keep in mind he is in a sense, two or more different people in the same body. Be careful! The man you thought you knew may become extremely violent and aggressive toward you. Do some looking into this elsewhere besides here on lush.
Topic Ladies do you being on top or bottom
01 Jan 2013 13:49
Any position is good but I like top so I can control things and reverse cowgirl is one of my favorite positions.
Gotta love a girl that loves reverse cowgirl!
01 Jan 2013 13:17
Tried it once with a lager breasted girl because she asked me to and it did nothing for me really. I prefer smaller breasted ladies and can think of other places to put my junk.
Topic Would being with an older virgin stop you?
24 Nov 2012 08:32
Maybe I'm wierd too. Your virginity is to be celebrated! The guy you give it to should treasure you as a precious gift forever, especially since you wated so long. Just make sure he is THE one.
Topic Who do you attract?
18 Nov 2012 14:26
either on drugs and / or after the contents of my wallet
Topic Is it right to fall for somebody on this site?
10 Sep 2012 12:51
i've seen it happen and it's natural and it even works out sometimes... that said, i did once, and was burned VERY badly, enough so that i'm super gun shy about it these days, and tend to be very defensive at times, even with just casual friendships, and trusting anyone 100% is very difficult for me, even when i want to.
Amen Girl! And, I might add...
As a former longtime volunteer firefighter, If you are going to play in the fire, there is the possibility of getting burnt, but somehow I find it hard to stay out of the fire.
Topic Do guys like girls in corsets?
08 Sep 2012 10:06
From personal experience, it takes a bit to get cinched into a proper corset ...
and it can take a bit to remove it (hope you have patience) ...
(I'd never throw mine on the floor ... they are very expensive)
That is all part of the fun!
Topic Eating a girl???
08 Sep 2012 09:41
I have to be allowed to do it and do not expect anything in return! Poor hygene and and not being allowed are deal breakers.