I just had a weekend I can't explain to myself. I've been with this partner once or twice a year since about 2003. We're both married and live relatively straight lives, but once in a while go to the lake or camping for the weekend and have a fuckfest together. We've never kissed. Frankly, it has nothing to do with the gayness of it, but rather, it's the scruffiness of a male face that I don't like the feel of. But this weekend was odd because there was no oral at all, not even a little bit and frankly I was pretty grossed out by his precum. The sex was ok, but not quite up to its usual stellar level.
So, I'm having this internal debate. I've always loved receiving anal play, even with my first girlfriend in high school. Most of my ex's were cool with strap on play. Now I'm wondering if my male on male play has really been bisexual activity or just some form of objectifying men for their equipment and what it can do for me. I've never lusted after a guy, but I have been caught up in the moment and sucked, handled and played in various ways with dicks. I've enjoyed giving full body massages, but that's something I enjoy so much that I get hard giving a massage to my wife every single time. My internal debate is whether this is really a sexual orientation issue (heaven forbid, I might be straight with an anal fetish) or if maybe it was more about my partner and he just doesn't do it for me any more (put on a few pounds, the age gap is significant, etc).
Any thoughts or insights?
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