I really don't know what to write here. I've always been a very private person but I think it's time to change that, which is why I'm here. Something new and different. That's what keeps me young and beautiful. Right.I am a gentleman and I never lie. I pretty much just tell it all up front and let everyone make up there own minds. If you like what you read and you think you can trust me, contact me. ALL of this is based on trust. Of course the anonymity allowed here makes this possible and tends to soften the initial worries. I'm just an old dude still trying to figure out what life is all about. I've done everything I could afford or had time to do so I've got a lot of It down pretty good, but there are a few wrinkles I'm still working onI'm 71 and my wife is 76 but she lost ALL interest in sex 5 or more years ago. I'm not ready to give it up yet so I masturbate a couple times every day. I usually only cum once, but every now and again I hit it a couple of times, but that's all I get any more. I will never give it up though. Pretty much I'll be doing it at my funeral if I can manage it so I hope my 6 kids, 15 grand kids and 2 great grand kids can deal with it. Actually I don't want a funeral and will probably be buried at sea. I was in the US Navy for 6 years. I would REALLY like my ashes launched into the sun, but that's pretty expensive. Maybe one of my kids will win the lottery. I gave my youngest son 15,000 or so Science Fiction books from my collection, many signed and first edition stuff, so maybe he'll feel guilty enough to do that. Nah, spend it on their families and think of me while enjoying it, that's better.I want a Wake when I die. I want all of my family, friends and enemy's to get as drunk as they want and tell raucous and bawdy lies about me all night, even if they are true. I want my friends and family to cry and laugh and just sit and think. I want my enemies to scream whatever they want to about me and know that I am sorry about whatever made them enemies. Maybe that'll help them change their minds about me. if anyone objects I'll come back and haunt their asses.I want them to celebrate that I was here and, for whatever reason, remember me. I hope it's all good though.I've wanted to write for years but got so busy with making a living for the family I just never forced myself to take the time. I'm an electrical engineer and I designed computers for 35 year or so. I "Was" an engineer, but I'm not sure I could get back into it now, they forced me to retire about 8 years ago, and I'm not sure I even want to. I did really enjoy it though and was a Digital Simulation expert and taught it for many years too.In fact that's where the tag handle"LasarDaddy" comes from. The software I used for simulation was, still is actually, named LASAR which stands for "Logic Automated Stimulus And Response". A fancy way of saying, "Put ones and zeros in and read ones and zeros out". By analysis you can determine which of the millions of logic elements are not working correctly and fix it. I basically used a large computer to pretend to be another computer so it could be fixed if it failed. I did this mostly for military computers in airplanes, helicopters, tanks, ships, etc. This is a marvelous design tool too. The military wants to be able to fix it so when the design worked and was fixable the design was complete and they hard the fix solution too.Now I own a small store in a little town about 75 miles North of San Francisco and deal in mineral specimens, Grateful Dead memorabilia and jewelry. My big hobbies now are faceting gemstones (I'm quite good at it), reading erotica (I'm quite good at that too) and masturbating (I'm very good at that). Not necessarily in that order either. I am writing a couple stories now which I'll submit shortly and I really hope I'm good at that too. I'll write about our early years because for 30 years she pretty much screwed my brains out, 5 to 9 times a week. God, I miss that. A lot.I've always wanted to watch her with another woman and would have done anything to get her to do it. Of course I really wanted to join in too, but my main concern was her and I would have done exactly what they needed. An early boyfriend of hers tried to force her into swapping and when we first got together she told me, in VERY strong language, to forget even trying so I never pushed it. Once I figured what I had or, more accurately, what she was, I never wanted to lose her. That took about 2 weeks and I've spent the last 43 years filling in all the details.I always looked at it as a "Gift". Any woman that ever had anything to do with me sexually I viewed like that. She gave me herself 43 years ago and it's still the best gift I ever got. Oh well, it was a very good run for 35 years or so. I'll write a few stories about that.I traveled all over the world doing design work and I was sorely tempted to cheat many times, but I never did. That is just wrong in my book. Commitment has a very rigid meaning for me. I've been sorely tempted quite a few time in the last 6 or 7 years too. I get hit on in my store all the time and there are several that I'd absolutely love to climb into bed with, but I'm not ready to do it yet. Besides, they're my customers, repeat ones at that, and it's all about trust there too so that would be wrong unless they asked me. Until my wife just doesn't know what's happening around her I'll say "No, thank you though." Even if she's in a facility totally unaware, I don't know. This is very hard to think about. I'm 71 now and if this comes to be I'll probably be to old for anything but holding hands so I just live in my fantasies. Holding hands and kissing is nice though.I let social pressure prevent me from dating a Black girl when I was in high school and that has always made me feel disappointed in myself. Of course that was in 1968 in Wagoner, Oklahoma and they were all a bunch of redneck assholes, so I give myself a little break. I think I'll look for a Black woman if I decide to try, if any will have me. There is one who comes in the store a lot and sometimes I think she's interested, but I won't know for sure unless I ask and I wont do that. If she is interested in me I don't care about anything else, she's beautiful. Skin color is a very stupid thing to let get in the way.I have 8 bones in my lower back, T11 to L6, fused so I don't stand up well. I've also had Prostate Cancer and they killed it with radiation, but they damaged a nerve too and I don't get full erections any more. That REALLY pisses me off. I'm already talking to my Urologist about the inflatable implants and will do that in the next year or 2 if I decide it might perk her interest in sex. I am quite good with my hands and tongue , but I haven't had a lot of practice with it since I married. She never really liked oral so I pretty much just ignored that too. She liked it "IN" and that was always great. I do like oral though.I'm not bitching here either and I do not feel sorry for myself. I've had a wonderful life with a marvelous woman. I still adore her just like I did 43 years ago when we started being "Us" and she's still sexy as hell to me, but she has no interest in sex at all. That is incredibly frustrating. When I decide to start looking for a sexual encounter I think I'll try to find someone who is Black and wants to be watched. I would love to do that and will participate as much as she wants. I've wanted to get into mutual masturbation for a long time too. That's what many of my fantasies are built around. For me, she is always in charge of the details. It's all about trust and I'll do whatever it takes to make sure I gain hers.I had one gay experience (a hand job for me) about 1965 and I didn't like it and I still don't. Its not homophobia though because my oldest son is gay and I like being around him and most of his friends. There are a couple I don't like though because they grab at my butt.One of my daughters writes Steam Punk and has 3 books published already. If you read that she's quite good and I'll send her name if asked. I proof read for her and I love doing it. I don't think I'll ask her to proof my stories though.Thank you for reading.
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Summer, you are an awesome woman.And the best part of you, is you! All of you!Can't see your videos on my IPad so that's a bummer. I'm going to get the big IBM tablet though and I'll see them there. That ones about $1,00 so it won't be tomorrow.Stay strong.
Angry and uncaring people.I call them the "Doom and Gloomers" because they are always trying to make me feel bad. All I can figure is that when I feel worse they decide that maybe they aren't feeling that bad after all.
All in the Family!I've never really liked episodic shows and the laugh tracks really put me off. I call them "ShitComs" because I really don't need to be shown where to laugh or cry.About the only one I ever watched consistently was "All in the Family". I loved all of the characters and situations they got into. They made us think about social situations that were and still are destroying our society. I think The entire cast did wonderful and believable work. That's my criteria for a good actor. If you can suspend my disbelief then you're doing good work. Anything else sucks big time.Oh yeah, I was in lust with Sally Struthers too.
Good for you guys.Whatever it takes to beat back real life sometimes so we can create a new reality. I do it in my mind all the time and every one who fantasizes does too.Be happy!
What do you mean one day? I do that already. That one day is in my past.But, at 71, having 11 bones in my spine fused, 50 to 60% of the feeling in my legs gone and my hands crippled with arthritis it's difficult to keep the activity level to high.Now, here on this wonderful site, I get to sort through a lot of crap finding wonderful new ideas and thoughts, seeing through others eyes sometimes and offering my view. Meeting new people, talking and getting to know one another, learning all these new things. I am a knowledge sponge it's just that it's pretty full and some has dripped out.I grand father someone brother others and be other things for others, I love it. As long as the internet exists my views will be visible to anyone who looks for them. Of course so will all the other crap but I find amazing new stuff all the time so they can too.I'm writing most of this and a lot of other stuff because a couple of my kids asked me to. And, yeah, I might include the stories I write here. If I don't I'll tell at least 2'of them how to find them if anyone ever wants to know. They'll know which are real too.I'm having fun with it though so don't slam me to much.
The problem is though, who's common sense do we use? I won't accept yours and I seriously doubt you'd accept mine. In that country with only 2 citizens, no decision based on common sense is possible. That's the dilemma now.I'm right there with Highwayman and DLizze. I'm a Taoist and try to live the philosophy. Pretty much most all religions contain a great deal of Taoist philosophy. Live your life so you do as much good as possible and the least harm. Winnie the Pooh was a Taoist.I read, I listen to people's words, I ask questions and then I make up my own mind. I decide for me, no one else in the universe. That and the ability to let everyone else do the same thing should be our goal as a society. That's freedom. Churches and governments can not tolerate that
I like that idea. What gifts? I can offer some pretty sound advice and that's about it. Oh, with a little wit, anger and sorrow thrown in.
A Togo's large hot Pastrami on Parmesan cheese bread and a large root beer.Damn, I love Togo's.
God, I could not believe I was doing this. What was I doing on this airplane on my way to Tennessee? Planning to get my brains screwed out, I hoped. These last four months had been a nightmare and this was the first time it had started to brighten up. Those first two weeks I thought the world had ended, and it pretty much had for me. My wife of forty-three years finally got to the point...
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I was sitting contemplating my life the other night and making notes for the , "This Is Your Dads Life." That my kids have asked me to write. I remembered a very sexy event in my wife's and my early life as a couple which won't be in the book for my kids. Well, maybe it will be, I'll have to think about that. When my wife of 43 years now and I first started dating she hauled me around to...
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I don't know what I did. I was in my store and turned around and the next thing I knew I was here, in the hospital. When I woke up there was a nurse in the room with me and when she saw my eyes open she smiled and stood up. She took a washcloth out of a basin, wrung it out and sponged my face with it. I hadn't realized how hot I was. I looked up at her and she was beautiful. Black hair tied up,...
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