My duty in the cramped confessional all changed when she stepped in. Her scent was the first thing that struck me as I slid back the wooden partition between us. Sweet, fragrant, distinctly floral and expensive, she exuded radiance. I stirred involuntarily as I took in the limited vista through the privacy screen, glimpses of creamy chest bulging the ivory blouse over which brunette tresses tumbled.
Wincing, I shifted in the unforgiving seat, catching her eyes through the diamond pattern cut into the screen, sepia irises flashing wild in the dim bulb light.
"Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned."
There was urgency about her. Breathlessness that put me on edge, heart thumping. I adjusted my clerical collar and made the sign of the cross as she did; whether for her or my own benefit, I wasn't entirely sure.
She gripped the sill below the divider and began in low, throaty tones. "It's been so long since my last confession. Been living an ordinary life in the parish. Husband of nearly ten years. Kids. Nothing to report. But then…" A sharp inhalation, perhaps a stifled sob. "And then…"
I waited, but nothing more was forthcoming. "Take your time. Breathe." I heard her do so. "Now, step by step. Maybe start from the beginning?"
She nodded fast. Took a deep breath. "I love my husband dearly. He's great with the kids. We go out. Walks in the park. Normal things like that. But lately he's been… distant."
My cheek was close enough to the screen to feel her sigh before she continued.
"Maybe it's his new job. Maybe it's me. Maybe my imagination, but he's been spending more time at the office. A lot more. And we haven't… had relations in a while and he's changed his phone unlock code and I swear he's been using it more. Maybe I’m paranoid." She let out a sharp laugh that was swallowed by the dark wood panelling. "I'm not crazy, Father. At least, I don't think I'm crazy, but I can't help imagining what if… what if…"
I paused to see if she was intending to offer more. "You suspect he's having an affair?"
She blew out through pursed lips. "I don't know. Perhaps. But I can't unlove him without proof. I still want to believe in him. In us."
Stroking my chin, I proffered, "Have you talked with him?"
"Yes… of sorts. Of course he denies it, but there are little signs. He's wearing aftershave. Likes different music. Hasn't hugged me in months." Her voice hollowed. "I have… urges."
"Ahhh, temptation."
Her nod was firm. "This goes way beyond temptation. It started innocently. A few touches. Coffee in the kitchen. Chit-chat the way neighbours do. But under it all there's a tension I can't fight. I can see it in his eyes too and it makes my blood fizz when I'm near him. His power."
"When the path is unclear, confession is right."
Manicured fingers of one hand raked through her hair and she drew breath before leaning in to whisper, "I crossed the line."