I looked very critically into the mirror at my bottom. I was wearing the briefest of boy shorts. It was a black and white zebra pattern. I had to wash it real good by hand, because of the load of cum my brother Alan had deposited inside it the night before. The fact I was wearing them at the time was a testament to the new relationship I had with my brother Alan. I was afraid my Mom would know what the stain was, or guess from the semen aroma, when she did the laundry. They were still not quite dry, but I was not going to take a chance, I would not be found out because of a pair of dirty panties. In fact, it was kind of exciting to wear Alan's cum stained panties on my ass and pussy.
The ass in the mirror seemed like it could make any cock rise and looked very sexy to me, but I knew I was biased.
I stole an ass plug from the mother of one of my girlfriends, when I was at their house. It was hidden in the bottom drawer of a cabinet in their bathroom along with a supply of different lubricants. She also had several dildos but I didn't touch them. Since then, I had been practicing with the ass plug to loosen my super tight ass hole up just a little. My Brother told me he wanted to ass fuck me so bad, he had to masturbate to get it out of his system. After that, I let him have his way with me because I did not want him to lose his masculine self confidence by masturbating alone.
I was happy to be his cum bucket because I knew he loved me in a very special way.
I knew I was different.
The knowledge that I was a Hermaphrodite was confusing at first, but now I was comfortable with it and did not feel any different about it. I knew that I was a girl. I wanted to be a girl. The fact that I had some extra equipment didn't change that in the least.
I think it was Nurse Betty who really showed me my inner self.
The first time I went to her house I was somewhat confused. I was a girl. She was a girl. I could see that I could be a girl and still want to fool around with Nurse Betty and that did not make me less of a girl. We did a great 69 on the couch and I even licked her tight little pucker hole. Something I had not even thought about before. She made me feel so very good. My tummy was jumping with desire and my ass was sticking straight up in the air.
Then, she played with "My Business" and I knew she wanted it all. It would be a first for me, but I wanted to please her so very badly. Her lips made me stick out and I was very hard. I had measured it after seeing the Doctor and it was a very disappointing 3 and 3/4 inches. I didn't see how any girl would want to have such a meager shaft inside her.
"OK, Henrietta. Do be a good girl and let me guide your little dickie right into my puss!"
I was a little mortified and kind of scared because I didn't know if I could make this beautiful Nurse happy with such a small thing.
Nurse Betty's wet slit opened quickly to take me in.
She was really wet from all our fooling around. I felt the walls of her vagina clasp me tightly and for the first time I felt what it was to slide in and out of a woman's wet pussy. She slid her hand around and began to play with my ass cheeks and my very tight little butt hole. That really made my little Dickie begin to push into her hard. I grabbed her ass cheeks and began to pound her really hard. Nurse Betty was groaning and holding onto me for dear life.
The sight of her moaning and accepting my humping made me go into a frenzy of action as I bounced her ass hard into the couch. I was quite surprised to discover that a quantity of creamy cum juice was suddenly shooting out of tiny cock and into her soaking wet pussy. I had done what a boy does to a girl. A girl that I wanted so very bad. But I still was a girl and I loved the dual feeling of being both a girl and boy at the same time.
I told her I wished she could do the same thing to me. Nurse Betty said,
"Don't worry. I will purchase a nice dildo that I can strap on real tight. Then I will hump you just as hard as I can. I will be a boy for you and you can lay back and take it all the way in and open your pussy wide for me too."
I kissed her hard. I mean with my mouth open and all. She seemed to love it. I kept it up until she laid back and opened even wider for my probing tongue. It was so nice, I wanted it to last forever. Nurse Betty showed me I could really feel like a girl and still enjoy the pleasure of shooting my cum into a girl's wet pussy.
I never had any desire to dress up in a man's clothes, but my brother thought it was real funny to dress me in his underwear and pants and I would sweep my hair up under a cap and we would go to a movie together. It was so hot for me to touch his cock in the dark movie and feel his fingers on my nipples. I am sure that some customers thought we were two gay guys together having fun. That made it even more exciting.
When I went to a movie with a boy, I was careful that they stayed only on my breasts or felt my ass all over. If they strayed close to "my business" I gently guided their fingers to my back hole and they didn't seem to mind very much. I usually whispered it was near my period or I wanted to feel their hands on my ass because it made me feel very naughty.
My parents sat me down and they both told me their plans for me to become a male. I looked at them and almost broke out in a laugh. Fortunately, this weekend, I would celebrate my 18th birthday and they could not force me to do anything. I just smiled at them and told them we have to discuss this further right after graduation. As expected, that was enough for them and they did not push the issue any further.
My best girlfriend, Angela, never suspected a thing even though we had done silly things like kissing in the closet, or licking each others nipples. She was so tiny, a really little petite brunette with the greatest smile you ever did see. Angela's older brother, Jason, was on the swim team and he would walk around in her house wearing these super tight speedo swim trunks. I would lie on Angela's bed face down and look up right into his huge bulging swim suit right in my face. I think he did it on purpose, but I didn't mind at all. I wanted so much to just reach my face out and plant a kiss right on that fantastic bulge.
When Angela went into the bathroom, Jason and I were alone. He quickly hopped up on the bed and straddled my ass with his legs, his bulge pushed into my crack real hard. I gasped and giggled as he ground himself on top of me and pressed me into the mattress. When we heard Angela flush the toilet, he jumped off me and we both acted real disinterested in each other when she came back in. He had made me so hot, that as soon as I got home, I ran into the bathroom and rubbed out a real screamer of an orgasm.
All that week, I filled out application forms for different colleges. I was sure to write in FEMALE on every single one.
Yes, I think Henrietta will be Henrietta for the rest of her life.
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