PART 1 -
My life was never planned this way. I always thought I would grow up, get a job and become something great.
I had a very sheltered childhood.
It was only once I’d been through the lowest point in my life, did I consider trying to pick up the pieces of myself and try to make a shell of what I once was. That was my problem though; I was always trying to be something and not someone.
But, I’m rambling.
Today started out like any other, but if I had of known what was to happen I would have stayed in bed.
“Your ex called,” said Nick.
Nick was the most stuck up jerk I had ever met. Don’t get me wrong, I like him enough but having to hear constant moaning from his bedroom all night after the several parties he goes to… it really starts to get on your nerves. However, I could see why most girls liked him; he was tanned, muscly and Latino, his slight accent and dark tan made girls quiver on the spot.
Not me though.
“What did you tell her?” I asked, brushing my hair.
“To fuck off.” He replied.
I smiled. “Thanks.”
Rhianna; my ex. We had been dating for a year. But she was crazy, all she wanted from me was mindless wild sex, and when that got old she started looking for other people to do it with. Guys and girls.
I’d been out of the closet for a few years now, though I’d only been living with Nick for a month or so. I suspected I was kicked out of home for being gay, though it was probably all the stealing and drinking too. I do neither of those things anymore, but it still never made things right in anyone's eyes.
“Yo, did you hook up with Kate last night?” said Angus brawling past me and knocking me out of my thoughts.
Oh yeah, Angus. He was repulsive; overweight, constantly eating and always smelling like chicken and eggs. It was a wonder how he even got laid but somehow he managed it. I stared at his hair, like I normally did, wishing I could cut it off burn it. He didn’t too much care for his looks; his hair was longer than mine and a really gross looking dark brown.
“You know I did,” said Nick and he highfived Angus.
“Are you gonna leave some ladies for the rest of us?” Brad shouted from the kitchen.
Brad was nice. Though he needed to get out more. The guy was tall and skinny. He wore huge thick glasses that practically shouted at every woman that he was a virgin. At first I pitied him, but he could be so much more if he went outside even just a little.
One time somehow, I managed to convince him to get some sunlight. He was outside all day until I found him, in a deck chair, with his laptop.
Sometimes I wonder if there actually was a record for how much time spent on a computer game, he would win it no questions.
But anyway, we were all roommates and we were all college students too. I was only in my first year; the guys were in their second.
“So are you going to come out tonight sweet thing?” Angus asked me with a wink, his multiple chins wagging as he spoke.
I shrugged, “Maybe. I don’t really have anything nice to wear though.”
“You would,” Sierra said. “if you lost some weight.”
I rolled my eyes. Lastly, there was Sierra. She was really up herself in a patronising way. Don’t get me wrong, if I had a body and looks like hers I’d probably be the same way. Where she was curvy and beautifully looking in every way… I was the opposite. She had all the right curves in every place and as for me well… puberty was still chasing after me trying to smack me in the face with good looks and pound me with a bigger breast size. I wasn’t overweight, not in the slightest. In fact some people could call me lanky if I was taller.
I also wasn't bad looking, at least that's what I have been told. Long dark brown hair that was naturally wavy in such a way I didn't need to do anything with it. It would always look as though I'd spent hours in the bathroom styling it just right, when in fact I had only just gotten out of bed five minutes ago. My eyes were apiercingbright blue, people always seemed to notice my eyes first. Though my breasts weren't huge, people have said that they were perfect handfulls which didn't seem to bother me. I was bare, if you know what I mean. And I had severalpiercings which werein my nose, ears and bellybutton.
Sierra was four years older than me, at twenty one she was every guy’s fantasy. Being related to Nick though it didn’t really surprise me. Her accent wasn’t as strong as his, but some words were pronounced differently, which made all the guys chase after her with their tongues out and tails wagging.
At first, I thought Sierra hated me because I was another girl and she saw me as some kind of competition in this house full of guys. Now I’m not so sure, she knew I was gay… I was no competition at all.
But no, that was just Sierra. She was mean and cold and had every reason to be.
“Move.” She said to me and I just sighed.
I’d learned a while ago not to get on her bad side, if I thought bitchy Sierra was bad; pissed off Sierra was terrifying. I think I cried once.
I saw Angus shamelessly checking her out, I had a feeling she liked the attention. She loved to walk around in just a towel or a bra and panties. I guess it made her feel good knowing that people wanted her but she would never feel the same way.
I was jealous of her, but in no way was she my type and I had made that clear to everyone several times.