365 Days

I would like to thank Stephanie for his insight and words of wisdom. Thank you.

Days pass; months go by, a year now I can't define.

Time passed so slowly, so swiftly, 365 days filled with self-imposed misery.

A heavy heart, a clouded mind, trying to move on from the passion that's left me behind.

I wake up lonely, there's an air of silence all around, I hear your voice and it takes me back to you and I.

Alone in my head, thoughts of you I can't escape, aching to be set free from this pain that consumes me.

Suppressing my feelings from the past, wanting to move forward not to look back.

Masking the pain, shielding my heart, silencing your name, yet holding onto what's now lost.

Emotional ties have caused me duress, holding on too tightly, like a noose around my neck.

Now I'm mourning the loss of someone I can't have, trying hard to let the memories pass.

Falling apart at the seams, trying to hold on knowing I'm denying myself to be me.

Paralyzed to move forward, not ready to let go, grieving in silence so no one else will know.

A smile on my face even though my heart is breaking, waves of despair have me trapped in tribulation.

Fighting against myself, unsure of my own thoughts, lonely, distant, completely lost.

Walking on the edge, close to falling, afraid of drowning in my own sorrow.

Eyes glazed over, tears streaming down my face, dropping to my knees, wondering what will it take?

Lost in the moments, my mind can't stop the "what if's" and "regrets," for fading memories are all I have left.

Telling myself I'll be stronger in time, but still reeling from the pain of being left behind.

It was never meant to last, I see that now, but letting go is far out of my control.

It was all I wanted but I lost it somehow, It was not meant to be I see that now.

Time seems to be standing still, waiting, wanting for the chance to heal.

There are no new memories to create, there is no more you and me, it's time I let you go so I can be free.

Watching you walk away, knowing I was not enough to make you stay, I never thought, I never knew, 365 hard days without you.