I fear this feeling my heart has when I think of you,
I fear the shaking of my limbs when I speak to you,
Most of all I fear not knowing what this means.
Is it normal for my heart to speed up like this?
Is it normal to chew my lip,
Contemplating the thoughts of you whirling in my head?
I love most of you,
But what I hate of all is how small you make me feel.
It's not that you make me feel insignificant,
I just feel like I am not worthy of your light.
I try to keep clear of your stare,
For I fear that if I look into those eyes of yours,
You'll see all the secrets I hide from you.
Maybe it's a bad idea to write this and let you read it,
Maybe I should keep this to myself,
But will I ever get another chance to share this with you?
I fear the thought of rejection,
I fear the thought of this ruining a friendship I treasure so much.
I fear the thought of not talking to you;
Of not seeing you anymore;
Of you being gone from my life.
Maybe I should burn this...
So you'll never know,
So I can hope that the flames will also turn my feelings into ashes.