You’re the first thing I think of when I awake.
The last thing in my mind at night it’s a torturous state.

I don’t like at all the way that I left you.
I’ll never know if you know what is really true.

I was always so extremely protective of you.
Making sure there was no trouble with anything that you’d do.

I guess I’m a control freak that wanted what was best.
That’s why I always tried to keep you away from all the rest.

In doing so I pushed you so far away from me.
Because I was surrounded by dangers I just couldn’t let be.

I wanted you to have some direction in your life.
And make that sweet little girl your beloved wife.

It honestly was my goal from the very start.
That you always had someone to take care of your heart.

It all happened much faster than I ever thought it would.
Now I’d do anything to know for sure if I only could.

That you are alright and doing just fine.
I hope that I will hear from you after some time.

Till then you are constantly in my thoughts and my dreams.
Everyone tells me you’ll be back but I don’t think I know what they mean.

My dreams of you always used to be so erotic and hot.
Now praying for your happiness is all that I have got.

I would pay any price at all if I could only just know.
If you ever need what I have there is nowhere else you will go.

I will keep you safe in that respect for your entire life.
Because I want you to be so happy with your baby and your wife.

I’ve dreamed you’d have a beautiful family for so long.
And now that it’s happening so fast I hope you stay strong.

I guess I will always wonder about things that I will really never know.
But I will never ever forget you no matter where ever you should go.

Yes I used you it was so hot and I’d do it again.
If you ever need that it’s for me you should send.

Till I might hear from you someday.
I’ll bide my time and try to stay away.

Leave you alone to tend to you deeds.
You didn’t think so but you always pleased me.

Though I guided you in this direction and it was all along my plan.
But now the thought of never hearing from you again I simply can’t stand.

I know I’m being selfish and I should just walk away.
But I spent so long trying to make sure that you would stay.

I want your mind to stay at peace.
I know I need to stop, completely cease.

I need help I don’t think I know what I’m doing anymore.
I’m lost now I’m the one without any direction in store.

It’s not your problem I have done it to myself again.
Cared about someone too much till my will it did bend.

I’ll be dreaming of you once again tonight.
With a smile on my face thinking of your new life.