I see you when you look at me,
I see it in your stare.
All the hours of silence between us,
it's as if something still lingers there.

Nervous and intimidated,
as this story from my lips is told.
Each and every time I feel you near,
more so now than ever before.

Sheepish and yet anxious,
just to look up and see you there.
I keep my mouth shut tight,
not to say anything you don't want to hear.

You had wanted and had cherished me,
I was petrified and eased myself away.
Now that your good and done with me,
I'm left with these confusing feelings of dismay.

Not only have I lost you once,
but there was another moment since; when fate was ours.
We walked the beach hand in hand,
the moon was full and from the ocean; shown the stars.

In that glimpse of time it felt so good to have you back.
Days followed and you never came...
I had lost you yet once again,
before I even got the chance to change...

Knowing that I lost you hurts,
but to know I let you go.
Caused myself to act foolishly,
and this you need to know...

It took three beers to talk to you,
before I knew it I'm cryin' in my shot glass.
Begging and pleading for your love again,
destroying any future and maybe even the past.

"I'm sorry." wasn't good enough,
"I screwed up." just didn't cut it.
Making scenes and not being myself,
what exactly, just what was it?

When did I get so clingy?
When you decided you'd had enough?
I've drowned you in my many emotions,
I didn't realize this would be so rough.

Its hard for you to understand,
how could I expect you to?
But when my lips touch yours,
all the feelings become renewed.

I pretend that I am better now,
I can joke back, and I don't cry.
I pretend that I am better now,
but I don't pretend that I know why.

Inside I'm screaming,
"Its me! Remember! You loved me!"
On the outside I say,
"I'm okay now. Wanna see?"

And I prove it by not showing it.
I've gotten close, but I wont allow it my friend...
Because if you think I don't love you anymore,
maybe you'll love me once again...