Thinking of You

I still think of you
As beautiful as you were
When I first met you
And didn't know of your flaws

I still think of you
When we went to the movies
And threw popcorn all over
What a great time we had

I still think of you
Calling me to talk
And telling me I'm great
And me telling you the same

I still think of you
And how I showed up to your house
To spend the weekend with you alone
But you left with someone else

I still think of you
When I found out your addictions
And the pain it caused your family
And the downfall of your life

I still think of you
When you called me crying
Wanting me to take you away
And that time I refused

I still think of you
Apologizing for using me
And promising you'd change
But hollow promises can't survive

I still think of you
Of how you needed me to help
And I refused and said I'm fed up
And we never talked again

I still think of you
After five long years
Regretting turning you away
Because I loved you so much

I still think of you
But not the pain you caused me
But the beauty you were
Underneath your slimy shell

I still think of you
As the best time of my life
And the worst time of my life
And the love of my life

I still think of you
And think of how I forgive you
And I can't forget you
Oh so much I love you

I'll still think of you
When I'm growing too old to think
And I'll always wish I kept you close
And helped you realize your greatness

For Nicole, I miss you and I love you.