I close my eyes but I can't fall asleep

how can I sleep next to him

when I despise him

thinking of the right way to tell him

that I do not love him anymore

even though he’s the reason for my tears

it still pains me to know that my love for him has faded away

I tried to hold onto his love

but it slipped away from me

if only he was there when I needed him the most

to hold me

to kiss me

to love

but as time went by 

he slowly pushed me aside

my heart broke into many pieces 

when I saw him with another girl

the day that I stopped loving him

was the day I was finally free