And here I was again. His house ... my house ...and I’m at his front door again. I raise my hand to knock on the glass as I don’t want to disturb his roommate with the doorbell. The door opens before I even have a chance to meet knuckle with glass.
“Hi Yalina, I’m so glad you could make it.” Jason says as he opens the door with a smirk on his face. This man seems to have the super power to make me puddle just by looking at me. It’s so damn sexy, like he has a constant secret that he’s dying to share with me. He’s standing opening the door, baggy Nike sweatpants on, shirt already off, abs tight as he’s bracing against the wind. He’s freshly showered and I can smell the Dove men’s soap on his moist, chocolate skin. He’s like a Jamaican-version of a Greek god standing in front of me. At twenty-eight years old, he looks like a cool drink of water. Ripe for the mounting, my inner-self notes.
I remain standing on the porch, part hoping for the cold, arctic winds to blow me away and make the choice for me. The other part wishing he’d pull me into his strong, muscular, well-tattooed arms to keep me from blowing away. Neither of my scenarios happens, of course.
“Are you going to come in, or shall I have my way with you out there for the neighbours to see?” he asks me, still with that damn smirk. I shake my head as my imagination begins to take flight with that image.
I finally find my voice, “Hi to you, too, Jason. No one will be having their way with anyone today, sir. And besides, you know I’m not that kind of girl.”
“Whatever you say, sexy. But you know you’re going to be mine.” It’s a statement he’s used so often in our conversations that I’m actually starting to believe it. He’s even held me by the chin, looked me in the eyes, and repeated this statement, making sure I understood every word he enunciated. As a communications major, I definitely understood what he was saying. There goes another puddle. Maybe it’s some sort of reverse psychology he’s using on me. But damn him, it’s working.
I step into the foyer, remove my boots, jacket, and trapper hat. Underneath, I’m wearing navy wide-leg jeans and a tight black t-shirt. My breasts were definitely made to be shown in this shirt and now that my jacket is off the nipples are standing at full attention. With the black lace bra I have on, everything is on full display. Jason stands back and admires me as I undress my arctic couture, letting out a soft whistle.
I ignore him and make my way to the living room, a room I’ve gotten very familiar with over the past few days. “No, not in there,” Jason says as he puts his arm around my waist to stop my movements. “Upstairs.”
Another statement. As our eyes meet and linger for longer than normal the electricity is charged between us. It’s like he’s told me everything he’s ever wanted to say to me in those few moments where nothing was said. Our eyes said it all. And just as I was about to break the minuscule embrace, that’s when he leaned down and gently brushed his lips on mine. Whoa, more electricity! It’s the lightest of kisses, one reserved for couples who have been together for decades instead of just a few days. Hell, we weren’t even officially a couple yet. His lips are so soft, especially for such a muscular man who is in construction. He’s not super built, but his chiseled stomach and strong arms are evidence that he works out a bit. I, on the other hand, am not in the greatest of shape. Granted, I do swim and play soccer and volleyball at the community centre, but that’s about the extent of my physical activity. From those activities, my legs are fairly toned and you can see the muscle flinch when I stand a certain way. Yes, my legs are definitely my best asset. But if you ask any man, they’d say it’s my chest as my breasts are extremely large.
Jason still has his hand around my waist and he’s pulling me into his embrace to deepen the kiss. I have to place my hands on his chest so that my breasts are not pushed into his pecks. He’s all man: solid, warm, and wanting me. He feels me push against him and lifts his head to stop the kiss. Still looking down at me, our faces mere inches apart, lids slightly closed, he whispers, “Upstairs, please.”
I look in his eyes and I can see he’s pleading with me. From our phone conversations, he knows I’m a stubborn, head-strong, independent woman. But right now he’s got me puddling in my most sensitive of areas. I tear myself away from his gaze and look up the winding staircase. Obviously it’ll only lead to his bedroom and I’m not sure I’m ready for such an intimate space. I look back at his chocolate liquid pools for eyes and I see he can tell I’m struggling with the decision. He waits patiently for me to come to my senses; waits for me to give in to him.
I take three or four steps back from him, almost toward the foyer where my winter gear is safely stashed. All the while I’m watching him watch me and the look on his face turns to shame and hurt as he realizes that he’s scared me off already. Then it turns I stop and realize what I’m doing. What I always do: I’m running away ... again.
No, Yalina, not this time, not again! I scream inside my head. I don’t want to be alone forever, and I certainly don’t want to live without knowing a man’s touch. And here was a fine specimen of a man waiting patiently for me to come to him.
With my internal battle over, I slowly gesture for him to lead the way upstairs. His face couldn’t have broken into a bigger smile as he realizes that I’m accepting his invitation to follow him upstairs. He stretches out his hand for me to take it, the final act of my obedience. I take it slowly, but it’s so warm and inviting when we connect. He threads our fingers together, a slight symbol of what he has planned. I feel like a timid mare being led to the stable of the waiting stallion.
We reach his room and I look around, silently comparing it to my own bedroom. It’s lightly furnished, but what did I expect of a man living with roommates. There is a dresser with a TV facing the lonely bed in the middle of the wall. A rich brown wardrobe dominates the other side of the wall, accompanied by a single ottoman (the only available seat) covered with shoe boxes. Note to self, he likes shoes.
He does a quick flip onto the bed, lies down in his usual spot as it’s indented there, and lightly pats the spot beside him, gesturing for me to join him. As I see no other option unless I want to stand by the door, I join him on the bed. He flicks on the TV to the sports channel. I don’t mind as we originally bonded over our love for sports.
After ten minutes of us discussing the latest sports stats and voicing our opinions of who we think will win the Super Bowl, I say, “This pillow isn’t doing a thing for my back. It’s too damn flat!”
Jason looks at me and says, “Come lie in my arms. It’ll elevate your neck and relieve the pressure on your back. Plus, you’ll be closer to me.” There’s that smirk again. But I can’t resist that smirk or his latest invitation to get closer. I snuggle up to him and place my hand on his chest to brace myself as I’m now on my side leaning into him. He closes his arm around me, drawing me closer to his naked torso, practically on top of him. Instant body warmth, and of course, another puddle for me.
He removes my hand from his chest and brings it slowly to his mouth. He starts sucking each finger, one by one, then moves to the centre of my hand. I must say, this man is skilled at making me wet. But as a construction worker by day and a club promoter by night, what did I expect? He’s obviously had some practice with women. He’s watching me as he lavishes my hand with attention. I can’t help but close my eyes and feel the warmth spread from between my thighs all throughout my body.