Laying here in bed, I listen to my wife’s breathing. I know the sounds she makes as she drifts off to sleep. Each breath ends in a different sigh: hmm, hmm, hymm, hympt. The final note signals her departure from a conscious state.
I am sure I will join her soon, but for the moment, my thoughts are on other bedroom activities. We have been married almost ten years; we have two boys; 3 and 7 years old. My wife and I each have jobs with different schedules, it's an effort to keep child care needs to a minimum. To complicate matters we are in the process of building a new house, with me as the general contractor. The project, regarding the house, was never for me to tackle the huge tasks but to watch and keep things moving, keep everyone paid. Also with our funds stretched when I am offered overtime at work, it is hard to ignore.
The oldest son does go to school, but a three year old is a full time project himself. We are very busy, we find down time scarce, together time only a memory.
That brings us to tonight. I’m young, when our orbits do cross, the stars are aligned and the kids are asleep, my thoughts are not about rest. My spouse has been very clear “nothing is going to happen”. My flirting, expressive facial badger, exploring touches or tender massaging have earned no reconsideration. I’m pushed aside, feeling like a perverted, begging groper.
Laying in bed, she has her back to me, her butt is pushed my way, reinforcing her point, “nothing is going to happen”. I try to remember the last time something did happen and I come up blank!
I move closer, there is a magnetic pull to her warm, soft flesh. My chest is against her back and my groin is pushed into her protruding ass. I reach around slowly moving my hand under her light top and cup her bare breast. I move like a thief in the night, aware of every sound, every movement. I tenderly grip the hanging globe; mentally noting it’s weight, firmness and smoothness. I massage and lift it in time with each of her breathes, holding the nub firmly between my fingers.