As I lay on my bedThe night is here againMemories of you in my mindYour fingers aimlessly wanderingCaressing my naked skinMy spirit hungry for youNeeding your touchTo the core of my soulAs my eyes openThe morning smiles at meLingering dreams of you and IW...
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Curiousoldcowboy
Over 90 days ago
Heteroflexible Male, 76
0 miles · Los Angeles
About
Who am I? Hard one to answer, as I never quite know what to say.
A gentle person with a caring heart, a bit tarnished and wrinkled from time spent on this earth.
A non-judgmental, honest bent, and kinked older guy who enjoys all aspects of the woman form.
The beauty of their souls, as I peer into their eyes. Their shape be it thin, tall, short, or wholesome. The softness of their skin and hair, the scents that fill the air when they are present in a room. The gentleness felt when their fingertips and minds caress mine.
I have also been curious most of my life and wonder what it would be like to be sexual with another man.
I use to have an account here under a different name, but felt I needed a break so I deleted my account, one of the many mistakes and their are many that I have made. Probably won't be the last, but hey, if I hadn't made so many, I would never have learned so many life lessons.
I have come back from time to time to read stories and enjoy many of the authors offerings. Some are still here, some have left, or changed their names, or have decided they need a break.
Thought it was time to join again so I could comment and let them know how much I enjoy reading their works. Though I haven't the time to spend that I did before, but I am sure in time I will reconnect with past friends and make some new.
Writing yes I do a bit sometimes, to give others a glimpse of the alters that hide within this old guys head. I generally hide these from the public's eye.
Allowing the darker side of my past and present out to play, only through my writing or to special people I become comfortable with. Things that have shaped the unique kinky being that I am.
I am blessed with a curious mind that knows the difference between fantasy and reality.
I am a work in progress, trying each day to become a better person. A person of integrity, who believes in treating other as I would like to be treated, until they give me reason to treat them differently.
Not one to collect friends just to have numbers. I like to share my writing and theirs if they are authors, talking, learning and interacting with my friends. So if you think we could be friends, let me know why and a bit about yourself. I seldom ask, but sometimes I do. I like giving smiles and hugs and sharing laughs.
In short a curious, bent, twisted, tarnished silly old man, who has lived mostly a good life, but still searching for answers, to many unanswered questions that still haunt me.
Someone who tries to see and bring out the best in others, by trying to make them feel better about themselves and the situations they find themselves in.
Enjoy all of the blessings the universe grants you, as you make this journey called life it is far to short and often bumpy. There are so many good things and good people. Don't let the negativities keep you from seeing the positive beauty that surrounds us.
Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. -Oscar Wilde
A real relationship has fights, tears, pain, arguments, faith, patience, trust, love, jealousy and forgiveness!
If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.
If I could give you a gift it would be to find the glory inside yourself, beyond the roles and the drama, so you can dance the dance of the game of life with a little more rhythm, a little more abandon, a little more shaking-those-hips. ~ Billy Fingers Cohen
I love and cherish who and what you are RuNe.
" It's almost like I've never seen the light
And you are my first sunrise...
You're perfectly simple and
Everything that's beautiful to me
Don't you ever change a damn thing
Don't you ever change a thing
I wanna see the secrets you hide
Right behind your smile
So far beyond all my desires
Is only just to hold you"
~ Jason Reeves ~
I apologize for being unable to express myself in a manor that doesn't make you feel that I have implied something totally different than I really meant.
Interests
~The Invitation ~
by Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know
if you will risk
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me
what planets are
squaring your moon...
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.
It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.
I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”
It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know
if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.
"I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human."
If you want to know more, just send me a message and ask.
Favorite Books
The After Life of Billy Fingers ~ By Annie Kagan
Favorite Authors
Many of the talented authors here on lush.
Favorite Movies
Cool Hand Luke
Favorite Music
Classic Rock from the 50's 60's and 70's. Classic Country, Blue Grass, New country. Soul, Blues and some new Rock. All depends on my mood.
I enjoy listening to most music, but it must have a good beat and an understandable lyric.
A gentle person with a caring heart, a bit tarnished and wrinkled from time spent on this earth.
A non-judgmental, honest bent, and kinked older guy who enjoys all aspects of the woman form.
The beauty of their souls, as I peer into their eyes. Their shape be it thin, tall, short, or wholesome. The softness of their skin and hair, the scents that fill the air when they are present in a room. The gentleness felt when their fingertips and minds caress mine.
I have also been curious most of my life and wonder what it would be like to be sexual with another man.
I use to have an account here under a different name, but felt I needed a break so I deleted my account, one of the many mistakes and their are many that I have made. Probably won't be the last, but hey, if I hadn't made so many, I would never have learned so many life lessons.
I have come back from time to time to read stories and enjoy many of the authors offerings. Some are still here, some have left, or changed their names, or have decided they need a break.
Thought it was time to join again so I could comment and let them know how much I enjoy reading their works. Though I haven't the time to spend that I did before, but I am sure in time I will reconnect with past friends and make some new.
Writing yes I do a bit sometimes, to give others a glimpse of the alters that hide within this old guys head. I generally hide these from the public's eye.
Allowing the darker side of my past and present out to play, only through my writing or to special people I become comfortable with. Things that have shaped the unique kinky being that I am.
I am blessed with a curious mind that knows the difference between fantasy and reality.
I am a work in progress, trying each day to become a better person. A person of integrity, who believes in treating other as I would like to be treated, until they give me reason to treat them differently.
Not one to collect friends just to have numbers. I like to share my writing and theirs if they are authors, talking, learning and interacting with my friends. So if you think we could be friends, let me know why and a bit about yourself. I seldom ask, but sometimes I do. I like giving smiles and hugs and sharing laughs.
In short a curious, bent, twisted, tarnished silly old man, who has lived mostly a good life, but still searching for answers, to many unanswered questions that still haunt me.
Someone who tries to see and bring out the best in others, by trying to make them feel better about themselves and the situations they find themselves in.
Enjoy all of the blessings the universe grants you, as you make this journey called life it is far to short and often bumpy. There are so many good things and good people. Don't let the negativities keep you from seeing the positive beauty that surrounds us.
Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. -Oscar Wilde
A real relationship has fights, tears, pain, arguments, faith, patience, trust, love, jealousy and forgiveness!
If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.
If I could give you a gift it would be to find the glory inside yourself, beyond the roles and the drama, so you can dance the dance of the game of life with a little more rhythm, a little more abandon, a little more shaking-those-hips. ~ Billy Fingers Cohen
I love and cherish who and what you are RuNe.
" It's almost like I've never seen the light
And you are my first sunrise...
You're perfectly simple and
Everything that's beautiful to me
Don't you ever change a damn thing
Don't you ever change a thing
I wanna see the secrets you hide
Right behind your smile
So far beyond all my desires
Is only just to hold you"
~ Jason Reeves ~
I apologize for being unable to express myself in a manor that doesn't make you feel that I have implied something totally different than I really meant.
Interests
~The Invitation ~
by Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know
if you will risk
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me
what planets are
squaring your moon...
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.
It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.
I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”
It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know
if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.
"I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human."
If you want to know more, just send me a message and ask.
Favorite Books
The After Life of Billy Fingers ~ By Annie Kagan
Favorite Authors
Many of the talented authors here on lush.
Favorite Movies
Cool Hand Luke
Favorite Music
Classic Rock from the 50's 60's and 70's. Classic Country, Blue Grass, New country. Soul, Blues and some new Rock. All depends on my mood.
I enjoy listening to most music, but it must have a good beat and an understandable lyric.
Interests
Erotic Reading
Erotic writing
Forums
Making Friends
Music
Poetry