Topic Recreational Drugs
03 Apr 2015 13:16
I've tried many recreational drugs, to varying degrees. I spent a lot of my harder partying days playing with ecstasy, MDMA and cocaine... typically dancing through the night, past dawn, into the next afternoon at various Afterhours clubs. Did the EDM scene quite a bit. I've tried GHB a few times - which I liked to a certain degree, although it's so easy to overdo it and the consequences are being out cold for about 4 hrs - very dangerous. I've seen many people 'G-out' so I was exceptionally cautious. I've tried 'K' twice (not my thing, and really only a bump at that). I've had magic mushroom tea (fun yet still fairly mild) and of course - weed - like most people, although I was never really a heavy user.
The only thing I do now is take a few tokes of weed now and then. I've given all the rest up. I don't regret it, but it was just around too often and became too much a part of the social scene I was on. I can't say I was ever chemically addicted, but there was an element of it slowly becoming an overly regular thing.
Did I have fun? Ohhh yeah. Ecstasy and cocaine were definitely my drugs of choice. The rush, the energy, the the way you can be totally vulnerable with complete strangers, the long non-stop weekend parties. Some of those conversations were pure therapy, others were purely fun. The sex was always off the hook. Every experience was like a little adventure - I've had too many crazy stories to recount (should've kept a drug journal! lol). There were musicians, celebs, hardcore gangsters and criminals, models, multi-millionaire CEOs, strippers, meatheads, and of course - the requisite sketchballs.
I was always more into the uppers than downers. I actually don't like the feeling of not being in control or being 'out of it' and I was also mildly paranoid about hallucinogens, which is why I avoided LSD/acid or any of the harder stuff. I always preferred feeling like me - but just a more euphoric version of me.
Have I had bad trips? Yeah,.. maybe a couple. More so that the effects where stronger than I wanted them to be, so until they levelled out, I wasn't totally comfortable. I did have a bad trip on weed once - I was convinced the balcony of the apartment I was in was destined to break off that night and smash onto the street below, so I was scared to go near it. I wanted to be on ground level but I was convinced the elevators were rigged to suffer the same fate. I sort of just sat in one place for hours, not speaking to anyone and just totally tripping out inside my own head. I've never had anything like that happen before or since.
I did have an experience once where I was basically going in and out of a black-out at a huge club party but unfortunately this was the result of a 'friend' having put something in my drink without my knowledge or consent. That was by far the scariest experience I've ever had on that whole scene. That can happen anywhere though - and sometimes it's difficult to know who you can trust and who isn't just an acquaintance that can turn predatory on a dime.
Recreational drug use is a fine line to walk. But alcohol is a drug too. So are prescription pills. Quite honestly, of the people I've seen go downhill - it's been about the alcohol/pills. No 'evil' drug dealers lurking in the wings... just liberal prescription-heavy doctors and your local liquor store.
Topic Announcing our "This is Hardcore" Story Competition, $200 First Prize!
03 Apr 2015 09:35
And I think I remember Ashley getting extra leeway on a competition once because she needed the extra words.
Uhmm... nope on this one. All my stuff here is under 10K. I was talking about word-count back when I thought West Coast Games was going to be a single story (no comp ties). But then I gave up on that and turned it into a 3-part series anyway.
I think stories for comps have to be judged very specifically by the set rules. I'm no judge though, so will have to defer to those in-the-know.
Topic Architecture, Interior Design and Style
30 Mar 2015 17:03
Some bedrooms I like. The first one is pretty amazing, I love how the colors of the bed match the exterior landscape. It would almost feel as if you're sleeping outside on a plain. Very soothing atmosphere:
Topic what is your favorite movie quote
28 Mar 2015 08:07
"Life is meant to be enjoyed. When death comes my way I want coke in my nose, pussy on my dick and a Cohiba in my mouth.”
... from the film, ' Three Days in Havana '
I always thought there was some nice bite to that movie quote.
Topic Who is your favorite movie character ever?
26 Mar 2015 11:53
One of my all time faves is 'Mavis Gary' (played by Charlize Theron) in Young Adult.
Mavis is so uncommonly funny, bitchy, dark and cynical and yet deeply vulnerable and tragic at the same time. A highly entertaining and complex character that you either love or hate.
Topic Flight 4U 9525 - Barcelona to Dusseldorf
26 Mar 2015 11:46
When I heard about the NYT news report last night about one of the pilots deliberately being locked out, I genuinely thought it had to be a false lead.. that in the morning, authorities were going to set everyone straight and all the back-and-forth reporting about this crazy scenario would have just been a matter of speculation and assumptions. I was shocked when they actually confirmed it.
They really do need to put live-stream video cameras in the cockpit. The technology is there - it should be put into action. It also would have helped solve the Malaysia Air mystery. They're lucky they were able to salvage the cockpit recording in this case to start putting the puzzle together this early.
Topic The Walking Dead
24 Mar 2015 08:07
I think the carved 'W' signs are signalling the new "Bad Guys" on the horizon... assumably some renegade psychos that will challenge the Alexandria Safe Zone and want to take it for themselves.
This would technically allow Rick to be 'right' about everything he screams about in the last episode (Alexandria is not secure, there are bad people who will want to take it from you, we have to prepare etc.). If they do punish Rick for his totally unhinged outburst, the arrival of a new threat would be what the show would need to allow Rick to redeem himself among the group... and pretty much come out as the 'I told you so' Hero.
Also - there was this foreboding graffiti written on the wall inside Noah's demolished community ('Wolves Not Far').... plus they found that truck of half-chopped 'W'-carved walkers just outside the broken walls there - so it seems like whoever wrecked that community likes to make their mark, maybe to intimidate and scare people first, and then take what they want. It would make sense that a relatively sheltered community like Noah's, and even Alexandria, would be seen as soft pickings filled with people that are easy to scare into submission.
Topic Photos in title headers on stories?
22 Mar 2015 12:19
Hope these instructions help!
Choose the cover image you want and upload it to your image gallery. You can choose to "Hide From Gallery" if you don't want the cover on display on your profile in your actual image gallery. This basically just makes it invisible to viewers, but it's still uploaded for your own personal use.
You can either create a full 'story poster' with your own title and author name, customized as you prefer, or you can just upload the photo you want and Lush will automatically add the header with your name/title over a shaded bar at the top of your cover photo.
Reminder: You have to upload the photo/cover before hitting 'Submit Story'.
When you go to 'Submit Story', you'll see the standard submission template.
Just above where you'd paste the body of your story, you'll see the following:
Cover Image and beneath it a scrollbar of all your uploaded images from your profile.
Click on the cover/photo you want to appear, so that it's highlighted in a blue frame (such as I've done with the pink cover photo in my screenshot, below).
If you've done your own customized addition of title/author name, you can click on the box that says: "Hide Title and Author From Cover Image". If it's just a plain photo, leave this box unchecked and the system will add it for you with a basic shaded title bar at the top of your photo automatically.
Topic The Walking Dead
21 Mar 2015 17:21
And I know you've got a thing for the bad boy, but no way was Shane a productive guy to keep around in a zombie apocalypse. The head rubbing aside, he left his best mate for dead, fucked his wife, and murdered one of his own group just so he could get away. He was toxic, and in retrospect, just someone to hate in the boring farm season.
Nope - let's break it down:
"He left his best mate for dead." - Technically what else could he have done. Rick was hooked up to machines in the hospital. Machines failed. He seemed pretty dead. And zombies were coming. At least he pushed the hospital bed in front of the door to block them out. If he was really evil, he wouldn't have bothered. He probably wouldn't have even bothered checking on his BFF either when the world was basically going to hell. So really - let's be honest here - he was a true friend against all odds. :)
"He fucked his wife." - Ok, yeah... sorta tacky. But he was obviously very in love with Lori. It wasn't just to get laid. As far as he was concerned her husband was dead and here he was - willing to take on a single mother with a kid (a total liability in an apocalypse). So really - he was essentially protecting Rick's family when Rick couldn't. :)
"He murdered one of his group so he could get away." - Technically he'd only just met Otis a few hours earlier - not like they had some longstanding relationship. And, if he hadn't done it, they both would have died. And then Carl would have died too - poor innocent little Carl, whom Otis had negligently shot earlier that day. So really - he saved a little boy. He's a bit of a hero, really. :)
I know there was that whole 'trying to kill Rick' bit later on at the farm, but love and PTSD will make ya do crazy things.
I do love wearing my rose-colored Shane Goggles sometimes.
Topic The Walking Dead
21 Mar 2015 06:14
LOL... This was cute. Kitty nailed that expression!
Topic The Walking Dead
21 Mar 2015 06:13
Amen, Sister, on the mercy shot! I couldn't believe they just left that first guy. I could kind of get how Glen would be too shocked to do the guy in the door, but still, he should be hard enough by now to just get it done.
Let's make a pact right here, Doll. If you and I are ever in a zombie apocalypse, we promise to do each other.
Ah-hem, anyway... If I was Glen, I wouldn't have just tuned him up. I would have killed him. Actually, I would have gone all Shane on his ass and put him down with a shot to the leg. These out-of-touch Alexandria softies are really starting to get up my nose.
I don't know about Rick, but Carol's character of late has really kept me guessing. I couldn't believe she went nuclear on that kid last week when she got caught nicking the guns. And she was so hard on him this week, which doesn't gel with the whole oh-shucks-Leave-it-to-Beaver thing she has going on. But I suppose it feeds nicely into the Dr Wifebeater scenario.
And I know! That fucking priest!
There's not enough time left... I can't wait another six months to see this play out...
I would have left him behind as well. Glen has kind of become the moral compass of the group now. And let's face it, some of the other characters are getting a little wobbly. Understandable in some ways, but damn - Carol is strong. I get that bullying the kid was a 'necessary evil' after she got caught but given Carol's recent history with children and her grief over it... being able to flip the switch like that was just ice cold chilly.
Funny thing if the show had started out from the beginning with the Alexandria people as the "main group" and then they'd let in Rick's gang as newbies with the hopes of 'strengthening them' and continuing on with running Pleasantville, imagine how viewers would be reacting to many of those characters... They're all becoming kind of unhinged, ready to 'take over' or lay down new laws. Technically Gabriel isn't all that far off - it's just that our longterm solidarity with the main characters and their backstory makes him the bad guy now.
It certainly makes you appreciate Shane a lot more. He was kind of Apocalypse-evolved beyond his years. I miss that character. :(
Topic HAPPY BIRTHDAY POSSIBLY
20 Mar 2015 07:16
Happy Birthday, Tamar! Hope you have a fun one!
Topic "I have a boyfriend!"
19 Mar 2015 16:21
I've used the line before, both when I've had a legit boyfriend as well as when I've been single and need to deter an over-aggressive guy (usually in a bar atmosphere or the gym) and can't be bothered explaining why I'm not interested. Sometimes guys take 'getting the girl' as a challenge and this is an easy way to just shut things down without any lingering maybes. Although, it usually requires the "and I don't cheat" bit in bars or clubs because many guys don't care if a girl has a BF, especially if he's not around at the moment.
In general though, I hate it... especially when a guy isn't being overly obvious and is just chatting or doing some light flirting. Saying "I have a BF" is kind of assuming a lot of things and I'm not one of those "if you're talking to me or we're casually flirting, it must mean you want to fuck/date me" types. So... yeah, if I'm enjoying the vibe, I probably won't bring it up until things take an obvious turn that way.
And unless I'm being outright propositioned, I'll probably just work it into the conversation (in a casual way) if I sense a guy is getting really invested in the pitch/play. After a while, I don't want to be responsible for wasting a guys time if it seems like he's on the prowl to find a hook up.
Topic The Walking Dead
15 Mar 2015 20:38
That seriously felt like one of the most traumatic episodes in a really long time. On so many different levels. Damn.
All I know is - Nicolas. Must. Die. Like was anyone else wishing Abraham had gone on that run so he could've let the fists fly longer than Glenn did? That scene. I actually had to look away.
And WTF with Gabriel???
Did he forget this moment when he was throwing the people that saved him under the bus?
There's been so much character evolution over the last few episodes. Even Rick and Carol are feeling a little more complicated than I gave them credit for.
Also - how come nobody ever gets a mercy shot on this show? Like I know it's less dramatic, but that would be the first thing I'd establish in the zombie apocalypse. If it looks like my number is up, do me like Dale before you run away. :p
Topic Announcing our "This is Hardcore" Story Competition, $200 First Prize!
11 Mar 2015 16:36
Gonna look something like this, Blondie.
Don't say I didn't warn your ass.
OK, ok, I'll concede... concede that you do look good in those blue shorts, Kittygirl.
And MrMartigan - "piss in your mouth" and "half ass"... there's your Hardcore storyline! Write it - no excuses!
Topic Elizabeth, you're a lazy bitch.
11 Mar 2015 13:47
I have to raise my hand as being a member of this group.
I read every single comment and PM I receive and it's purely due to time and my hectic scheduling as of late that I can't always do the proper thanks, 'likes' and wall postings. I have tried in the past, and sometimes I get on a roll, but I'm the first to admit I'm not always very consistent.
Those that know me are aware that I often have a list of PMs I need to respond to scheduled into my phone as appointents and I'm forever trying to catch up.
A huge and humble thank you to those that have taken the time to read and/or comment on one of my stories. You may never know how appreciative I am of receiving them or hearing a kind word about my writing, but sometimes I get one *exactly* when I need it most and it's truly a bright spot in my day.
Topic The Walking Dead
24 Feb 2015 15:38
Despite the first rain we've seen for five years in post-apocalyptic Georgia, that was another snoozer. Literally! I missed most of Rick's big monologue in the barn. Woke up for him saying the name of the show though. Roll credits.
This new stalker guy looks promising. A long time coming, but I'm gagging for next week. Hopefully they wring the most out of him.
Yeah, I'm guessing they've just set things up for the new 'long-term' living space. Looks promising! It's been a while since they've all been together in one place for longer than a night or two.
Hopefully it's as action-packed as the 'prison era' rather than the total slowdown during the 'farm era'.
Topic Google ramping up self-censorship
24 Feb 2015 12:57
I got the same message, probably in reference to an old Blog that I used to post on when I first started writing. I actually don't have any nudity on it, nor do I use it anymore since I moved everything to my own website, so I'm not particularly worried.
I assume they'll be cracking down on the blogs featuring obvious porn pics rather than 'sensual' non-hardcore pics (like your header photo). The message probably just went out to everyone that features adult content.
Topic Health, Fitness and Eco-Friendly Trends
23 Feb 2015 15:23
I went a little overboard and bought a selection of these Lunchbots items.
Made from stainless steel/glass/recycled materials. I think they're sleek, durable and great quality.
Just thinking this is more of a fitness thread and, of course, I've brought it back to food. Sorry folks!
Oooh... I like the look of these! Putting it on my list of things to check out. :)
Topic Have You Ever Insulted A Stranger Because of Their Looks?
23 Feb 2015 05:02
I've never done this and never would. And - even in all my club crawling, city living, university days, hanging out in all kinds of different social situations, surrounded by different types of people, I can honestly say - I've never seen someone do this to another person, outside of grade school. If I heard someone I knew openly insulting a stranger about their looks or name-calling, I'd probably smack them, then and there.
Daisy, I know you've said in the forums before that it's happened to you - seriously - maybe it's the town you live in and maybe people are more crass or off-the-cuff, but it should never happen. It's kind of the lowest of the low and speaks far more badly about them and how sad their own lives are that they'd go out of their way to hurt someone they've never met.
Topic Sports Illustrated swimsuit issue features its first-ever plus-size model
15 Feb 2015 09:23
Hmm I wonder if they are trying to expand their demographic or just wanted to create a little controversy?
Not sure. I think controversy helps for sure - it gets people talking and paying attention to the issue.
Right after talk about Ashley Graham started, Sports Illustrated announced that they were going to feature Robyn Lawley as a '2015 Swimsuit Rookie' and she's being classed as the first plus-size model to "officially pose for SI" (ie. not paid advertising like A.G.).
Robyn is listed as being anywhere from a size 12-16 when I looked her up online. She looks pretty healthy/fit to me. Especially in that first pic, I wouldn't even register that she was 'plus-sized' if I opened up the magazine.
And - not sure about the girls with tattoos being featured. Maybe some regular S.I. readers can weigh in on that one? I have a thing for sexy girls with full tatt-sleeves, but yeah, I'd be surprised if S.I. had ventured into that market. They seem to keep things pretty 'red-blooded American male' traditional calendar-girl style.
Topic Will you watch fifty shades of grey?
15 Feb 2015 09:10
I might - eventually. Like I would watch it on Netflix out of random curiosity on a lazy evening, just to see what some of the fuss was about. I haven't read the books, nor do I plan to. The storyline really isn't my thing.
Topic diet and weight loss tips
15 Feb 2015 08:46
Good advice has already been posted in here.
Some easy tips:
* Get rid of juices, Snapples or any kind of sugar-heavy liquids. It's shocking how many empty calories one can drink when they could be enjoying them in food-form and feel much more satisfied. Drink lots of water. Buy a cute glass water bottle if it helps get you motived to drink more (eg. a BKR). Also - before meals, drink a glass of water to help you feel more full when you start eating. It takes a while for the body to kick in that it's actually full, so we often tend to overdo food portions unnecessarily.
* When you go out at night or are kicking back, substitute clean low-cal liquor for the margaritas or fruity martinis. Sipping on something like vodka on ice with water (or clear soda) and a big twist of lime is always preferable to cola-mixers. Water/soda is calorie free. Tonic looks clear and benign but actually contains quite a bit of sugar and is something like 80 cals.
* Drink black coffee or green tea (Matcha) to boost metabolism. Avoid Starbucks-fare or sugary lattes and 'dessert coffee'.
* Keep raw veggies cut up and ready to eat in your fridge when you want to snack or need something to crunch on. If they're ready and available, you're more likely to reach for them more often without having to do the cutting/cleaning bit.
* While on the veggie kick, it's worthwhile to have cooked veggies stocked in your fridge at all times. Years ago, I went through a health issue where I had to take a horrible medication (at a very high dose) for about 6 months that causes extreme weight gain. My hunger was off the charts and the way I got through it was keeping tons of cooked veggies, brussel sprouts, broccoli and spinach salad in the fridge. I also ruthlessly cut out sugar and salt and forced myself to stay active, even when I was feeling low and depressed. I found that this helped a lot.
* Eat before you grocery shop, even if it's a handful of unsalted almonds (which I actually tend to have on me at all times in my purse or gym bag). You're less likely to be tempted by unhealthy stuff if you're not hungry. I find that if you prevent yourself from ever getting to the point where you're *really* hungry, it's easier to portion-control at mealtime.
* Look up some interesting recipes from weight-loss books to get ideas about what to cook and how to cook it. There's lots of short-cuts you can learn from what kind of oils you cook with to how to cheat certain sauces and flavours. Think veggies and lean meats/fish and try to keep carbs to a minimum. I don't believe in cutting them out completely though - or any exclusionary diet because they can have a negative effect on the body in the long-term. Those diets are fine for quick short-term weight loss, but for the long run you just want to get used to eating differently but still having fun with it.
* If it's time for girl's night out dinners or going to a restaurant with your BF/hubby, try to hit a Sushi restaurant instead of Italian. You can have your splurge-nights so it's not the end of the world, but there are ways to learn how to order more 'cleanly' and avoid the hidden calories in many dishes.
* Work out/Cardio. It may be difficult to get motivated with this one, so maybe make a new playlist for your iPod or buy some cute new workout gear. Try something you've always wanted to - like yoga to start. If you don't want to go to a gym just yet, you can download tons of home workouts on Youtube or various sites. Anything to just get moving on a regular basis - even if that means extended cardio walks. If you're really motivated and ready to do this for the long-term with no excuses, think about getting a dog. It'll force you to make going out on walks several times a day part of your routine. If you're not sure yet, volunteer at your local animal shelter. They're always looking for help with dog walking.
* Set realistic goals. Take it all one step at a time. Slow but steady weight loss is typically easier to sustain over time than a sudden weight drop or yo-yo dieting. You want to slowly re-adjust your metabolism and eat enough that you're feeling satisfied so that you can do it over the long-term as a lifestyle change rather than just hitting that short-term goal.
Topic The Walking Dead
15 Feb 2015 08:06
I don't know what that torso pile was all about. If it is foreshadowing the next lot of bad guys, I really want them to spend some more time fleshing them out. The last few whipped through too quickly for mine. We've had the enemy within and the Governor, and now we need another meaty antagonist. Let's hope the torso pile gang delivers.
I know. I think the Governor was the best villain so far. He was very well developed and complex.
I was somewhat disappointed at how quickly the Terminus peeps were killed off.
Gareth, in particular, had the potential to be a really interesting character. As well ... despite being a ruthless cannibal, he was actually kind of sexy.
The hospital villains were just a total 'meh' for me. I didn't really care about any of them or find them particularly interesting.