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LASARDaddy
Over 90 days ago
Straight Male, 81
United States

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FLASH REPORT:

I explain below what my Avatar name means but some people are to ignorant to read. I got an email from one of them. He tells me I should give up on young girls and just, "...stick it up your own ass...". Ignorance at this level should not be allowed to breed back into our society.

The "Daddy" part has NOTHING to do with being a "Dom". I am not and never will be one. I'm am a Taoist and very much into not hurting anyone.

Sorry!

This is one of my favorite quotes. It expresses exactly how I feel about all women.

"To have her here in bed with me, breathing on me, her hair in my mouth — I count that something of a miracle."

Henry Miller

I really don't know what to write here. I've always been a very private person but I think it's time to change that, which is why I'm here. Something new and different. That's what keeps me young and beautiful. Right?

I am a gentleman and I never lie. I pretty much just tell it all up front and let everyone make up there own minds. If you like what you read and you think you can trust me, contact me. ALL of this is based on trust. Of course the anonymity allowed here makes this possible and tends to soften the initial worries. I'm just an old dude still trying to figure out what life is all about. I've done everything I could afford or had time to do so I've got a lot of It down pretty good, but there are a few wrinkles I'm still working on

I'm 74 now and my wife died the 9th of January 2015 and I was pretty crazy for months. I finally listened to my family and a close friend whose already been through losing her husband after 3 years together. I looked at my gun collection for a long time, but I finally decided leaving that mess for my kids would be absolutely wrong.

I don't want a funeral and may decide to be buried at sea. I was in the US Navy for 6 years. I would REALLY like my ashes launched into the sun, but that's pretty expensive. Maybe one of my kids will win the lottery. I gave my youngest son 15,000 or so Science Fiction books from my collection, many signed and first edition stuff, so maybe he'll feel guilty enough to do that. Nah, spend it on their families and think of me while enjoying it, that's much better.

I want a Wake when I die. I want all of my family, friends and enemy's to get as drunk as they want and tell raucous and bawdy lies about me all night, even if they are true. I want my friends and family to cry and laugh and just sit and think. I want my enemies to scream whatever they want to about me and know that I am sorry about whatever made them enemies. Maybe that'll help them change their minds about me. if anyone objects I'll come back and haunt their asses.

I want them to celebrate that I was here and, for whatever reason, remember me. I hope it's all good thoughts though.

I've wanted to write for years but got so busy with making a living for the family I just never forced myself to take the time. I'm an electrical engineer and I designed computers for 35 year or so. I "Was" an engineer, but I'm not sure I could get back into it now, they forced me to retire about 10 years ago, and I'm not sure I even want to. I did really enjoy it though and was a Digital Simulation expert and taught it for many years too.

In fact that's where the tag handle "LASARDaddy" comes from. The software I used for simulation was, still is actually, named LASAR which stands for "Logic Automated Stimulus And Response". A fancy way of saying, "Put ones and zeros in and read ones and zeros out". By analysis you can determine which of the millions of logic elements are not working correctly and fix it. I basically used a large computer to pretend to be another computer so it could be fixed if it failed.

I did this mostly for military computers in airplanes, helicopters, tanks, ships, etc But I did do several designs for commercial airplanes for Boeing and others. Used it to design telecom for several large suppliers of electronics to telephone companies. This is a marvelous design tool too because it told me where all of the bitchy little areas where the timing was off so that it wouldn't work. The military wants to be able to fix it so when the design worked and was fixable the design was complete and they had the tests to tell them what to fix.

I hard a store in a little town about 70 miles North of San Francisco and dealt in mineral specimens, Grateful Dead memorabilia and jewelry. My big hobbies now are faceting gemstones (I'm quite good at it), reading erotica (I'm quite good at that too) and writing, but I'm not very good at hat yet. I am writing a couple stories now which I'll submit shortly and I really hope I'm good at that too. I'll write about our early years because for 36 years she pretty much screwed my brains out, 5 to 9 times a week. God, I miss that. A lot.

I've always wanted to watch her with another woman and would have done anything to get her to do it. Of course I really wanted to join in too, but my main concern was her and I would have done exactly what they needed or wanted. An early boyfriend of hers tried to force her into swapping and when we first got together she told me, in VERY strong language, to forget even trying so I never pushed it. Once I figured what I had or, more accurately, what she was, I never wanted to lose her. That took about 2 weeks and I spent 44 years filling in all the details.

I've always been very interested in strong women. Not dominate, just strong. My cutesy way of saying it is, "Every woman should be able to stand toe to toe with God in a screaming go to hell fight, and not back down." My wife was like that and we've tried to raise our children like that. We succeeded at that and also with our grand children. Most women in the world are raised to be subservient.

I always looked at any interest a woman gave me as a "Gift". Any woman that ever had anything to do with me sexually I viewed like that. My wife gave me herself for 44 years and it's still the best gift I ever got. I'll write a few stories about that.

I traveled all over the world doing design work and I was sorely tempted to cheat many times, but I never did. That is just wrong in my book. Commitment has a very rigid meaning for me. I've been sorely tempted quite a few time in the last 6 or 7 years too. I got hit on in my store all the time and there were several that I'd absolutely love to climb into bed with, but I'm not ready to do it yet. I've written one story about one of my favorite customers which I will post and I'll probably do others but I have to make sure they will never recognize themselves if they ever see it.

Besides, they're my customers, repeat ones at that, and it's all about trust there too so that would be wrong unless they asked me. I'm 74 now so mostly I just live in my fantasies. I have an incredible female friend now and holding hands and kissing, just touching, is incredible.

I let social pressure prevent me from dating a black girl when I was in high school and that has always made me feel disappointed in myself. Of course that was in 1968 in Wagoner, Oklahoma and they were all a bunch of redneck assholes, so I give myself a little break. I did have a Chinese girlfriend when I was in the navy and have always had a very healthy interest in Asian women too. Actually I don't really care about things like skin color and hair, it's what's inside the package that's important. Hypertrichosis might be hard to deal with though.

I have 8 bones in my lower back, T11 to L6, fused so I don't stand up well and 3 in my neck, C3, C4 and C5. I've also had Prostate Cancer and they killed it with radiation, but they damaged a nerve too and I don't get full erections any more. That REALLY pisses me off. I'm already talking to my Urologist about the inflatable implants and will do that in the next year or 2 if I decide to try and recover my sex life. I am quite good with my hands and tongue , but I haven't had a lot of practice with it since I married. She never really liked receiving oral so I pretty much just ignored that too. She liked it "IN" and that was always great. I do like oral though and she loved giving it so that made up for a lot.

I'm not bitching here either and I do not feel sorry for myself. I've had a wonderful life with a marvelous woman. I still adore her just like I did 44 years ago when we started being "Us" and she was still sexy as hell to me when she died. I still see her in my mind just like she was when I decided I was in love with her.

I had one gay experience (a hand job for me) about 1965 and I didn't like it then and I still don't. Its not homophobia though because my oldest son is gay and I like being around him and most of his friends. There are a couple I don't like though because they grab at my butt.

One of my daughters writes Steam Punk and has 5 books published already. If you read that genre she is Heather Blackwood on Amazon. I proof read for her and I love doing it. I don't think I'll ask her to proof my stories though. At least not yet.

Thank you for reading this.

Interests
Women! Strong women that can stand toe to toe with God in a screaming, go to hell match and not back down. Not dominate, just strong. Like Zoe Saldana, Hillary Swank, Anne Bancroft and several others. I don't see women like most guys do because I feel that strength like a bright light and the stronger it is the more I like it.

Faceting gemstones, making jewelry, reading, talking with customers and more.

Favorite Books
Pretty much any science fiction, all the Lincoln Rhyme, all the Dr. Kay Scarpetta, all the "In Death" series (J. D. Robb), and more than I can mention here. I collect.books, some signed originals and gave about 15,000 of them to my youngest son (shit, he's 42 now) because I can't take care of them any more.

Favorite Authors
About a hundred or so. Jeffery Deaver, Stephen King, Jonathan Kellerman, J. D. Robb, Isaac Asimov, Robert Heinlein, Patricia Cornwell, and many more.

Favorite Movies
Avatar (Zoe Saldana), Agnes of God (Anne Bancroft), Full Metal Jacket (I was there), Mash, Harry potter, and many, many more. If the actors are good and I can suspend my disbelief I like it. If I can't it really sucks. Think about your favorites.

Favorite TV Shows
Educational mostly, all of those shows that discuss science, the universe, our bodies, construction, mechanical things, the mind/brain mix....

Favorite Music
Celtic, I love pretty much anything with Pipes (I am a Scott, clan Gordon), good country (Johnny Cash, Willie Nelson and a lot more), folk music (Gordon Lightfoot, James Taylor, Serendipity Singers, Peter, Paul and Mary, Harry Chapin, etc.), Classical, and early rock and roll (Everly Brothers, Simon and Garfunkel, Neil Diamond, etc).

I don't like acid rock, hip hop, rap and others that are mostly cacophony to me.
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