About Metilda

I live to write. I have a wide variety of interests and at some point they'll all surface in my stories.

I have removed a large number of stories from Lush in order to set up distribution of such works through publication channels for ebooks. Sorry Or not sorry. My active Erotica pen name is Lilith Lo. I also write as Sirin Love (for Romance Erotica).

If you are a Lust Gold member you will have access to my fuller pieces in The Vault.

Answers to Questions I'm often asked:
*Yes, my avatar is me
*I started writing because I became frustrated with a lack of erotica stories I wanted to read.
*I continue to write because I get a thrill out of penning my sexually charged thoughts on paper and sharing them with others.
*No, I'm not interested in real life relationships. (No webcam or cellphone)
*Nothing puts me off or disgusts me, some things just interest me more than others. I favor hardcore and fetish elements the most when I read.

Relationship Status:
Writing, reading erotica. Crafting jewelry, attending college and a whole bunch of other Jill of all Trades stuff.
Favorite Books:
Erotica: Addicted, Power Play, Restraint, Control (all by Stein), Otherwise Alone, Surviving Rain (Shay Savage). Non erotica: For the Love of Stones (Tobias Hill), The Art of War (by Machiavelli).
Favorite Authors:
Charlotte Stein, Tobias Hill, Machiavelli, Shay Savage
Favorite Music:
I listen to everything from Aerosmith to Enya and Puscifer to Rob Zombie. . .I'm not picky about genres - it just depends on what mood I'm in at the moment. I do passionately love Type O Negative, though. RIP Peter. Lately music from The Devil's Carnival has been in my changer.
Date Joined:
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Latest Forum Posts
Topic: Why do guys like sex in morning so much?
Posted: 30 Sep 2015 06:49

My husband hasn't really liked morning anything.
Oh he's told me he'd like a morning blowjob on his birthday - but every time I've taken him up on the suggestion it leads to nowhere but me irritated with his refusal after he's the one who suggested I try something.

Topic: The Badge System . . . Bug Report (?)
Posted: 29 Sep 2015 07:16

I was just awarded the 'Electorate' badge (twice in the last few months) - though I know I've not voted on that many stories, here.

How wonky is the badge system? Does it ever get corrected? How important is it to admins? I'm not sure - but thught I'd throw it out there as a potential bug.

Topic: How to deal with sub-drop when you're NOT in a bdsm relationship?
Posted: 28 Sep 2015 19:10

First, congratulations on achieving highs great enough to result in "sub drop". Many people never realize that level of pleasure. As to how to deal with it, communication. Talk to your partner and explain what you need following an intense experience. May be you need to be held, or caressed, or just kissed as you come down. It's still part of the experience and it can be a valuable bonding time for you both. He may not realize your need and just thinks when you cum, you're done. If you communicate your needs to him, it gives him the chance to take care of them. This, I believe, is the best place to start in any type of relationship.

Is it a predictable pattern? Meaning do you experience a post coital low each and every time?

Do you receive or have you discussed aftercare as babys_safe_harbor suggests?

What do you feel / yearn for in that low? Observations you have about that state and what makes it a low for you might provide additional clues as to how you might mitigate it.

Predictable - not really. Though it more so seems to happen when it's been a while since we've had sex. It's ridiculously random - and sometimes it's not so bad.

But yeah - what I need is the same each time - closeness. Spontaneous sex on the fly used to be just fine. Maybe it's age, but I'm not handling quickies very well more than anything.

And thanks, both of you, for responding. Sorry I didn't see your response sooner, Safe Harbor.

Topic: Pissing Inside My Pussy
Posted: 25 Sep 2015 09:36

And ... drum roll please ... Raulabbclover is gone. Deleted due to just that - plagiarism. Buhbye. Boo hoo!

Gone - officially? Oh good . . . because Raul was full of shit with every post he/she (they) wrote and on my last nerve. I think a lot of people didn't see half of what went on with that account . . . probably a good thing. angry7

Topic: Windows 10!!
Posted: 22 Sep 2015 18:28

So in order to own a PC that will last you as long as a Macbook Pro you have to be a total geek?

That's like having to be a mechanic to own a certain type of car and then claiming it's better because you know how to fix it every time it breaks down.


And why I will not upgrade until forced to (when my computer dies in some smoky plume of fuck you metilda).

Topic: While having sex, have you ever forced a guy to cum, when he didn't want to, or wasn't ready?
Posted: 22 Sep 2015 18:21

Okay I pride myself in a measure of control, while having sex ,holding myself on the edge without going over. In that way sex can last quite a while.

Sensing a guy that you are making love to is close have you ever deliberately made him cum, by fucking him back, squeezing your pussy muscles or other?

If so why did you do it? Was it fun making him cum when he didn't plan on it?

Yes - all the time.

Usually it's because I'm sucking his cock and want to swallow - and he imagines sex is in the future - when really I'm just a cum slut.


Topic: What is the dividing line between literature (storytelling), erotica, and good old smut?
Posted: 22 Sep 2015 17:39

I just read one of your stories and I would agree. Your blend is extremely well crafted.

Thank you :)

But not to say I don't read other people's stuff that might be seen as 'roughly written smut' - I do. I see it all as differences in writing style for the most part - and I love it all.

Literary Fiction explores human psychology and emotion in relatively commonplace situations - and there's really no reason why explicit sex can't pair neatly with it. And I love styles that flow, word wise. Words are often given social and emotional connotations. I like learning what these connotations are and plying to the ones that are all on the appealing side of things and avoiding ones that quirk a brow or put people off.

Perhaps the only limitation I've run into is when people want erotica to serve as a masturbatory aide - and while I write this often and love it quite a bit, some of my erotica just isn't that. Some of it is too emotional (in a harsh-sentiment sort of way) - though written with just as much detail and explicitness as all my erotica, sometimes the story content will plant it firmly with Literary Erotica (Soft, Sweet Clarice and Between Midnight and Noon are two examples of that).

Is it smut if it's not written this way all the time ?

It's smut when I'm being a dirty girl with a trashy mouth and want the Nun to have her pupil recite Bible Verses while being punished ;)

For pure fun - people who read my smut often get an education at the same time. LOL - one of my most popular pieces is a grammar lesson on 'loose' VS 'lose' (with a lesson on 'towards' VS 'toward' thrown in for good, deepthroating measure.)

Topic: What is the dividing line between literature (storytelling), erotica, and good old smut?
Posted: 19 Sep 2015 21:37

For me there IS NO dividing line.

If I want to write literary erotica that crosses all sorts of boundaries, is a story and lyrically sound almost like a poem and a hot fucking turn on I shall do so on a whim.

In fact, I've done exactly that quite often.

Topic: Lets talk about sex
Posted: 17 Sep 2015 11:21

How openly do you talk about sex or share your sexual activities with your circle of friends or family?

Online: all the time.

In real life: never.

Topic: Gurls, do you like guys who moan?
Posted: 17 Sep 2015 10:38

So the question is, girls do you like when guy moans from pleasure, or you prefer it when hes quiet?
Is this turn on or turn off?

I love the sound of a guy enjoying himself - rough grunts, hot moans, even whimpering and sighing and that strangled sound that comes from trying NOT to be loud but unable to keep quiet.


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Stories Published By Metilda
Recommended Read Dirty Girl Interrupted

Chapter 1 When it comes to objects of my affection what I truly lust for—my thing, my fetish I suppose I should say—is glass. Glass. Solid, smooth, textured, ribbed—cold or hot. Glass girl, all the way. Needless to say, when I go shopping for toys, I don’t got to the outrageously priced, hole in the wall adult store in the next town over. I’m a thrifty spender. There’s a twisted...

Added 21 Sep 2015 | Category College Sex | Votes 31 | Avg Score 4.97 | Views 15,546 | 22 Comments

Recommended Read Bambi's Up To Bat

Anxious to get on the road again, Bambi bounced on the balls of her feet, her lips pursing to blow another bubble. Two, three inches around—and then it suddenly popped, sticking to her chin. Tamela stood there, a finger poised where the pink bubble had been. “Bus is full. Coach says we have to ride with the boys.” Bambi flicked her tongue, swiping the gum back into her mouth. “Sounds...

Added 05 Aug 2015 | Category Fetish | Votes 18 | Avg Score 4.94 | Views 5,211 | 9 Comments

Two Girls, One Bottle

Chapter 1 - A Movie Sipping a glass of white wine, Hailey skated across the kitchen floor. Wearing her favorite pair of knee-high socks, ones with black and white stripes, she made it to the other side of the room quickly. In the bathroom, she checked her hair in the mirror and picked at the frills of her blue cotton teddy. She was nervous without really knowing why. Brittany had...

Added 25 Jul 2015 | Category Hardcore | Votes 23 | Avg Score 4.95 | Views 9,582 | 13 Comments

Taboo Lust

Chapter 1 I stayed a few steps behind Mom as we trudged into Church. The wind had kicked up since we left the house and my ears had begun to burn, my knees had gone a bit numb quite some time ago. Twice she turned to gripe at me for going too slow but I ignored her—I was looking for Brian. Our parents married when I was only 10. Years later, much to my dismay, they divorced. Since...

Added 23 Jun 2015 | Category Taboo | Votes 25 | Avg Score 4.91 | Views 24,864 | 15 Comments

One, Five, Fifteen

Anxious jitters popped and sizzled inside me as I stood at my bedroom window—the only one with a decent view of our street—and waited for a candy apple Miata to pull around the corner. I would do it this time. I would . I told myself that countless times before but this time I was sure of it. It was November, after all, and time was running out. This time I had a plan. Better yet, I...

Added 09 Nov 2014 | Category Taboo | Votes 29 | Avg Score 4.89 | Views 17,423 | 16 Comments

Recommended Read The Devil's Undertones

I make my way to the Carnack Building with two minutes to spare. With ten minutes between classes I cannot fathom how this is going to work. First days are always stressful, and when I finally find room 294 I’m sweating and breathless. I barge in, hair a mangled mess, clothes disheveled, and the entire class looks at me. Why can’t the door be in the back of the room, I think to myself as I...

Added 22 May 2013 | Category Quickie Sex | Votes 26 | Avg Score 4.88 | Views 8,486 | 13 Comments


Dark purple satin ribbons contrasted on pale skin. Artwork. Living, breathing artwork. Hair flowing and tumbling in waves down her arched back. Hands tethered at the wrists with that striking purple against cream. The curve of her spine flows smoothly as if drawn with a single brushstroke from the shape of her shoulders to the round of her backside and the inviting cleft in between. Sarah,...

Added 14 Oct 2014 | Category Flash Erotica | Votes 23 | Avg Score 5 | Views 3,173 | 19 Comments

Between Midnight and Noon

Eight months. Seven days. Sixteen hours. It’s been so long since my wife last told me she loved me and then kissed me goodbye. How was I to know that one kiss would be the last kiss, the last caress? How many times would I think of her and seek her memory out in this way? “More coffee?” The waitress comes to stand in front of me, carafe in her hand. I consider that she...

Added 07 Jun 2014 | Category Straight Sex | Votes 16 | Avg Score 5 | Views 3,808 | 16 Comments

Recommended Read Charcoal Pinstripes

Chapter 1  The words on the screen began to bleed together, my eyes burned. Editing is my life but, damn, if it isn't one serious struggle sometimes. One saving grace for this particular science fiction end-of-the-world saga was that I rather enjoyed re-reading the sex scenes. I’m not an erotica editor, but the scenes crafted by this author's masterful fingers made my job a slight...

Added 24 Mar 2015 | Category Group Sex | Votes 25 | Avg Score 4.91 | Views 9,111 | 18 Comments

Recommended Read Soft, Sweet Clarice

I was fixated on her in ways most unbecoming. I desired her in ways I should not have desired. She was not mine for the taking, but I coveted her all the same. Her soft smile was a lustful invitation on her lips. Dimpled cheeks, curled red hair. Her body, slight and soft in contrast to mine. With shy coyness she taunted me. With each movement she beckoned me. With each sweet, innocent...

Added 23 Jun 2014 | Category First Time | Votes 29 | Avg Score 4.93 | Views 9,330 | 22 Comments

eBooks Published By Metilda
Soft, Sweet Clarice
Soft, Sweet Clarice

A Priest struggling with the demands of celibacy confesses his sins in this literary erotica piece. "I was her soul’s keeper, a leader of the church. A man of virtue and honor, not lust and sin. A man of the cloth with a dark secret within . . . But yet, each Sunday she walked through...


Stripped of her nobility and taken as a war prize, Viette is determined to take control of her life at all costs even if it means dominating a King to do so. As a servant, however, she's in no such position . . . or is she? King Leonin of Whitmore has his sights set on Viette for things beyond...

Lucky Strike: Blackmailing the Brat
Lucky Strike: Blackmailing the Brat

The Man of the House has been up to no good. He's fixated on his little brat. Born with the gift of clairvoyance, Emily uncovers his seedy secret and is certain her plan to blackmail The Man of the House will work. But George isn't swayed by Emily's ploy. In fact, he has his own agenda to see...

Finder's Keepers
Finder's Keepers

Trapped in a closet and hunted for thrills - safety mere feet away and yet so far out of reach - some kinky games are not for the weak of heart. Finders Keepers, Losers Weeper. Dare to...

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