About Metilda


I live to write. I have a wide variety of interests and at some point they'll all surface in my stories.

I have removed a large number of stories from Lush in order to set up distribution of such works through publication channels for ebooks. Sorry Or not sorry. My active Erotica pen name is Lilith Lo. I also write as Sirin Love (for Romance Erotica).

If you are a Lust Gold member you will have access to my fuller pieces in The Vault.

Answers to Questions I'm often asked:
*Yes, my avatar is me
*I started writing because I became frustrated with a lack of erotica stories I wanted to read.
*I continue to write because I get a thrill out of penning my sexually charged thoughts on paper and sharing them with others.
*No, I'm not interested in real life relationships. (No webcam or cellphone)
*Nothing puts me off or disgusts me, some things just interest me more than others. I favor hardcore and fetish elements the most when I read.

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22 Oct 2017 00:36
Writing, reading erotica. Crafting jewelry, attending college and a whole bunch of other Jill of all Trades stuff.
Favorite Books:
Erotica: Addicted, Power Play, Restraint, Control (all by Stein), Otherwise Alone, Surviving Rain (Shay Savage). Non erotica: For the Love of Stones (Tobias Hill), The Art of War (by Machiavelli).
Favorite Authors:
Charlotte Stein, Tobias Hill, Machiavelli, Shay Savage
Favorite Music:
I listen to everything from Aerosmith to Enya and Puscifer to Rob Zombie. . .I'm not picky about genres - it just depends on what mood I'm in at the moment. I do passionately love Type O Negative, though. RIP Peter. Lately music from The Devil's Carnival has been in my changer.


Date Joined:
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Topic: Masterbating wife
Posted: 09 Oct 2017 06:28

My wife has been masturbating in bed at least 3 days a week ! The thing is she waits till she thinks I'm asleep and then she goes to town! The part I don't understand is when I confronted her and try to make a night out of it she flew off the handle! She denied doing it? Look we have a Queen size bed and I can feel the movement and hear the breathing and the sound of her being wet! Wetter than she has ever gotten with me! It sounds like someone's doing a cannonball in a pool! I was turned on at first but being denied any intimacy it's getting old! She has cheated before I don't know if that has anything to do with it? That's for a different question!

Do you tell her things like 'you sound like a cannonball in a pool'? That's quite off putting.

Maybe you should consider the words you're using with her when you try to talk about it. Check your vocabulary and consider the the impact that word choices have on someone - who's embarrassed - when their embarrassment is highlighted by talking about it. It can be meant to be sensitive or caring but come across as being ridiculed and insulted.

Further, sometimes masturbation is great BECAUSE the other person isn't in the picture. That might seem offensive, but I get myself off all the time (sometimes in bed while he's asleep) and in those situations the last things I would feel like doing is my husband. Sometimes I'm pissed with him and don't want him involved in my sexual satisfaction at all. sometimes I want to get myself off when he clearly doesn't want anything to do with me, either.

Perhaps it's the sign of a broken marriage in my case . . . or perhaps it's a sign that he's not the most satisfying and attentive sexual partner anymore. Either way, what I fantasize when I'm pleasuring myself isn't something I've ever really engaged (thought about, I mean) comfortably during sex. So the two will never really cross over for me. Being confronted by it would just make me keep it more of a secret.

Topic: Know any wives that got pregnant trying swinging once?
Posted: 02 Oct 2017 08:24

My husband wants to try swinging...I'm nervous

All the BC control - yep . . .

and get tested / require the other guys be tested.

Topic: 70 Yr old Wife left after celebrating 40 yr Anniversary
Posted: 28 Sep 2017 18:58

Storm... I think you need to go to a therapist.

Just talk it out with someone who has the capacity to give you solid insight both for yourself and on your full situation.

Topic: 70 Yr old Wife left after celebrating 40 yr Anniversary
Posted: 27 Sep 2017 21:09

A LIFETIME of 'being a dick'? Let me guess, you either didn't realize you were a total ass all that time or you thought she would just tolerate it forever?.

And to her a 'I'll change, I promise' is all you have to say for yourself?

People can't just believe in change after an extended period of difficult time has gone by. They have to see it. Change actually has to happen for it to be real .

From the looks of it, you need to reflect on all those 40 years and try to see your marriage and life from HER standpoint in order to begin to possibly understand why she broke free.


Personally - given my marriage bs situation . . . If I got to a point where I couldn't stand my husband any more after years of endless and unrelenting emotional bullshit and I finally broke free and left him I would as fucking hell not be giving up that newfound freedom to come the hell back. The longer I'm gone, the more I don't miss any of it.

Why the fuck would i want to go right back to it?

Freedom - once you taste it - has all the pros.

Marriage - once you've suffered a shitty one - has all the cons.

It would take a miracle for that con festered marriage to suddenly start filling up with pro potential.

But my marriage is likely very different than your situation . . . but that would be my mindset ( will be , if I can't actually get things to turn around.)


So yeah - yeah you are being a bit selfish. If not selfish then blind.

Why don't you start your own life rather than clinging to the old one that clearly wasn't good for you or her?

And consider that if her leaving ultimately brought you the capacity to be happy then do either of you really need to be back in a serious marriage?

Topic: Easter Eggs in your stories?
Posted: 18 Sep 2017 16:43

Any other writers here ever slip "easter eggs" into their stories? Maybe a cameo by someone you know on Lush or a character from another story who has a walk-on or an event from one story appearing in the background of another. Do your readers ever notice? I did it in one recent story, having the characters from a past story appear in a small supporting role but it was more for my own fun. If anyone noticed, they didn't mention it.

Some of my stories are connected in a way that, maybe, very astute readers can figure out.

Mostly, though, I write a lot of allegory and symbolism (religious) into my stories. Colors, numbers, positions, directions . . . usually presenting a mercurial view of religion itself in which holy things are undone or turned into sexual vices.

Topic: Ladies, can sex be satisfying without an orgasm?
Posted: 18 Sep 2017 12:25

I’m not asking if orgasm sex is better than non-orgasm sex. The answer to that is obvious.

One woman that I have been with who previously had some long-term relationships told me that I was the first to give her an orgasm. We were in the middle of a soul-searching conversation that added veracity to all that she shared.

I never asked her if her non-orgasmic sex was satisfying. So, I’m asking you, the ladies of Lush, can sex without an orgasm still be satisfying?

It depends on why I don't get off, actually.

When I feel he cares about my experience and is attracted to me, if I don't get off it doesn't matter as much.

But if things change and I start to sense that I'm not being given the same amount of care, time, and energy I start to get a sense that sex is one-sided and I'm missing out for the sake of his pleasure. Then sex in general stops being appealing because I'm not there for the taking.

Topic: What Time is it for you and what do you usually do around that time
Posted: 16 Sep 2017 16:25

6:24 Saturday evening...

I'm studying Economics and waiting for dinner to finish cooking (a roast with potatoes and carrots).

This is pretty much how every evening goes. Dinner prep starts at 6, I study . . . the usual. Before I went back to college this would be my time for editing. I had a very stringent writing schedule.

Topic: Does quantity count ???
Posted: 14 Sep 2017 20:40

mostley for the ladies but any guys want answer thas ok. Does the quantity of semen matter.
It may sound like a strange or pointless question, but since i had a Vasectomy about 18 months ago i am paranoid that i am producing less, my partner say's it about the same, but i'm sure its not and she is just saying it is.

Vasectomies usually don't alter the quantity of ejaculate. Semen only makes up a very small percentage of ejaculate fluid (5% or less) so it's not enough to notice.

Topic: Anyone have a life-motto?
Posted: 14 Sep 2017 19:40

I think my college-focused motto is: I survived Astronomy 101. I an do anything.

Which I've been chanting repeatedly since the start of this semester (in Economics and Accounting this go around)

Topic: Name something that you learned about yourself since joining Lush.
Posted: 09 Sep 2017 15:54

Being on lush has allowed me to explore things that I would never have been brave enough to do in real life. What have you discovered since joining?

I've found that writing Erotica is something I'm good at - and I've become passionate (and successful enough) at it to take it seriously as part of my career future. I've gone back to college to pursue a marketing degree.

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Stories Published By Metilda All Stories »

Seducing Sarah

The trip had been on the calendar for months. Each time Vivian looked at that bright red circle, her pussy would ache for the day to arrive when Sarah would go away for the weekend to the National Tech Competition. Vivian had paid good money, not just for the trip, but to cover the cost for her best friend, George, to be the chaperone that took Sarah in, cared for her, and showed her...

Added 28 Jun 2017 | Category Taboo | Votes 20 | Avg Score 5 | Views 15,624 | 12 Comments


I've been ready for this. Ready and waiting anxiously allday. Since my lunch break when He said, “You up for it, tonight?” Planted smoothly after some drab political joke and comment on the weather. The warmth of His voice emanating that casual coolness. That laid back tone and easy going demeanor. A crisp, deep vocal hue that could put a rabid dog to sleep. Lulling and calm. Deceptive. ...

Added 11 Mar 2013 | Category Anal | Votes 21 | Avg Score 5 | Views 14,687 | 16 Comments

Two Girls, One Bottle

Chapter 1 - A Movie Sipping a glass of white wine, Hailey skated across the kitchen floor. Wearing her favorite pair of knee-high socks, ones with black and white stripes, she made it to the other side of the room quickly. In the bathroom, she checked her hair in the mirror and picked at the frills of her blue cotton teddy. She was nervous without really knowing why. Brittany had...

Added 25 Jul 2015 | Category Hardcore | Votes 22 | Avg Score 4.95 | Views 16,877 | 14 Comments

Recommended Read Charcoal Pinstripes

Chapter 1  The words on the screen began to bleed together, my eyes burned. Editing is my life but, damn, if it isn't one serious struggle sometimes. One saving grace for this particular science fiction end-of-the-world saga was that I rather enjoyed re-reading the sex scenes. I’m not an erotica editor, but the scenes crafted by this author's masterful fingers made my job a slight...

Added 24 Mar 2015 | Category Group Sex | Votes 26 | Avg Score 4.96 | Views 10,414 | 20 Comments

Suckled: Nature's Bounty

Chapter 1   I saw the advertisement in the classified section of the newspaper while I was riding the Metro. The page was folded at a strange angle, crumpled in the man's hand who sat oblivious to my prying eyes. It read: Wanted: adult wet nurse. It brought to mind things I hadn't thought of in years, long forgotten fantasies I used to entertain when I was far more inexperienced in life:...

Added 30 Jan 2016 | Category Fetish | Votes 21 | Avg Score 4.95 | Views 13,054 | 18 Comments

Recommended Read Dirty Girl Interrupted

Chapter 1 When it comes to objects of my affection what I truly lust for—my thing, my fetish I suppose I should say—is glass. Glass. Solid, smooth, textured, ribbed—cold or hot. Glass girl, all the way. Needless to say, when I go shopping for toys, I don’t go to the outrageously priced, hole in the wall adult store in the next town over. I’m a thrifty spender. There’s a twisted thrill...

Added 21 Sep 2015 | Category College Sex | Votes 32 | Avg Score 4.97 | Views 31,228 | 24 Comments

Recommended Read Bambi's Up To Bat

Anxious to get on the road again, Bambi bounced on the balls of her feet, her lips pursing to blow another bubble. Two, three inches around—and then it suddenly popped, sticking to her chin. Tamela stood there, a finger poised where the pink bubble had been. “Bus is full. Coach says we have to ride with the boys.” Bambi flicked her tongue, swiping the gum back into her mouth. “Sounds...

Added 05 Aug 2015 | Category Fetish | Votes 18 | Avg Score 4.94 | Views 11,834 | 12 Comments

Recommended Read The Devil's Undertones

I make my way to the Carnack Building with two minutes to spare. With ten minutes between classes I cannot fathom how this is going to work. First days are always stressful, and when I finally find room 294 I’m sweating and breathless. I barge in, hair a mangled mess, clothes disheveled, and the entire class looks at me. Why can’t the door be in the back of the room, I think to myself as I...

Added 22 May 2013 | Category Quickie Sex | Votes 30 | Avg Score 4.89 | Views 10,156 | 18 Comments

Taboo Lust

Chapter 1 I stayed a few steps behind Mom as we trudged into Church. The wind had kicked up since we left the house and my ears had begun to burn, my knees had gone a bit numb quite some time ago. Twice she turned to gripe at me for going too slow but I ignored her—I was looking for Brian. Our parents married when I was only 10. Years later, much to my dismay, they divorced. Since...

Added 23 Jun 2015 | Category Taboo | Votes 38 | Avg Score 4.94 | Views 43,918 | 22 Comments

Between Midnight and Noon

Eight months. Seven days. Sixteen hours. It’s been so long since my wife last told me she loved me and then kissed me goodbye. How was I to know that one kiss would be the last kiss, the last caress? How many times would I think of her and seek her memory out in this way? “More coffee?” The waitress comes to stand in front of me, carafe in her hand. I consider that she...

Added 07 Jun 2014 | Category Straight Sex | Votes 15 | Avg Score 4.93 | Views 4,893 | 15 Comments

Stories Coauthored By Metilda

A Run in With The Law

Randy and I have been dating for several months. Nearing the end of our college semester, Randy's parents took an impromptu trip out of town. With the house, and the weekend, free, we wasted no time getting together. Passion rises, as do other things, but then the lights from a car in the driveway streak through the Venetian blinds. With only a minute to spare, Randy and I gather our clothing...

Added 20 Jun 2014 | Category Humor | Votes 14 | Avg Score 5 | Views 10,265 | 10 Comments

eBooks Published By Metilda

Suckled: Nature's Bounty
Suckled: Nature's Bounty

Breanne lives a dull, single life working as an office clerk. That is until she sees a job listing in the newspaper as a Nature's Bounty Nurse. A phone call and an intimate doctor's appointment later, she's on her way to dedicating herself to a life of adult nursing for a wealthy Japanese...

The Devil's Undertones: An Unholy Love Story
The Devil's Undertones: An Unholy Love Story

On the first day of Latin Class Lara finds herself quickly entangled with her professor. A relationship blooms, spirals and spins with secret rendezvous under the cover of little white lies. It's his voice, his good looks, and that commanding presence that draws her in deeper. What Lara doesn't...

Viette: A Story of Love and Hate
Viette: A Story of Love and Hate

Stripped of her nobility and taken as a war prize, Viette is determined to take control of her life at all costs even if it means dominating a King to do so. As a servant, however, she's in no such position . . . or is she? King Leonin of Whitmore has his sights set on Viette for things beyond...

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Hi Metilda. Thanks for accepting my invite. Hugs, Dave xxx

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As I entered the master suite, I could hear the shower... feeling the extra humidity building from the steamy water.... Moving closer, I took time to take in the contrast of her tanned body against the dark slate color of the walk-in shower.... remembering the last time I joined her there.... the time I held her in my arms.... her tears becoming lost within the course of water running down her face.... it was the first time for us and the day I shipped out for what I thought would be a three year tour. And now, hear I am, finally home after all those extra months laying in a far away hospital to mend..... not knowing if I'd ever see her.... only my dreams and hopes to carry me... not knowing if she waited or if she still would want what was left of me.... But I gaze now at the smoothness of her skin.... her womanly lady charms..so swollen and I know so sweet.... "God, thank you for seeing past my doubts and giving me what life I have... And for this I'm about to eat...."

Posted: 28 Jul 2017 14:03
Thinking of you dearest lady xxx

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So good to meet you and I look forward to seeing you again soon x

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Thinking of you babe

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