About Metilda

I live to write. I have a wide variety of interests and at some point they'll all surface in my stories.

I have removed a large number of stories from Lush in order to set up distribution of such works through publication channels for ebooks. Sorry Or not sorry. My active Erotica pen name is Lilith Lo. I also write as Sirin Love (for Romance Erotica).

If you are a Lust Gold member you will have access to my fuller pieces in The Vault.

Answers to Questions I'm often asked:
*Yes, my avatar is me
*I started writing because I became frustrated with a lack of erotica stories I wanted to read.
*I continue to write because I get a thrill out of penning my sexually charged thoughts on paper and sharing them with others.
*No, I'm not interested in real life relationships. (No webcam or cellphone)
*Nothing puts me off or disgusts me, some things just interest me more than others. I favor hardcore and fetish elements the most when I read.

Relationship Status:
Writing, reading erotica. Crafting jewelry, attending college and a whole bunch of other Jill of all Trades stuff.
Favorite Books:
Erotica: Addicted, Power Play, Restraint, Control (all by Stein), Otherwise Alone, Surviving Rain (Shay Savage). Non erotica: For the Love of Stones (Tobias Hill), The Art of War (by Machiavelli).
Favorite Authors:
Charlotte Stein, Tobias Hill, Machiavelli, Shay Savage
Favorite Music:
I listen to everything from Aerosmith to Enya and Puscifer to Rob Zombie. . .I'm not picky about genres - it just depends on what mood I'm in at the moment. I do passionately love Type O Negative, though. RIP Peter. Lately music from The Devil's Carnival has been in my changer.
Date Joined:
10 Mar 2013
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Topic: What's your take on this article: The thing all women do that you (men) don't know about
Posted: 23 Sep 2016 15:31

Clip from the article

We are acutely aware of our vulnerability. Aware that if he wanted to? That guy in the Home Depot parking lot could overpower us and do whatever he wants.

Guys, this is what it means to be a woman. We are sexualized before we even understand what that means. We develop into women while our minds are still innocent. We get stares and comments before we can even drive. From adult men. We feel uncomfortable but don’t know what to do, so we go about our lives. We learn at an early age, that to confront every situation that makes us squirm is to possibly put ourselves in danger. We are aware that we are the smaller, physically weaker sex. That boys and men are capable of overpowering us if they choose to. So we minimize and we de-escalate.

So, the next time a woman talks about being cat-called and how it makes her uncomfortable, don’t dismiss her. Listen.

The next time your wife complains about being called “Sweetheart” at work, don’t shrug in apathy. Listen.

The next time you read about or hear a woman call out sexist language, don’t belittle her for doing so. Listen.

The next time your girlfriend tells you that the way a guy talked to her made her feel uncomfortable, don’t shrug it off. Listen.

Listen because your reality is not the same as hers.

Listen because her concerns are valid and not exaggerated or inflated.

Listen because the reality is that she or someone she knows personally has at some point been abused, assaulted, or raped. And she knows that it’s always a danger of happening to her.

Listen because even a simple comment from a strange man can send ripples of fear through her.

Listen because she may be trying to make her experience not be the experience of her daughters.

Listen because nothing bad can ever come from listening.

Just. Listen.

i ran across this article, when i was looking for some information on how to deal with a similar situation that happened to me just recently. While at work, and then again out in the parking lot later after work from the same guy waiting around for me to come out.

i had to get a handle on what i did, how i felt, and get over the oppressive cloud i was under afterwards.

Anyhow, i was just wondering - can guys relate to this, how we have to deal with these issues all the time...

I don't fully agree with the article. In fact, I read this yesterday and was just going to ignore it and give no response. But now I'm giving a response and it's because this article came to mind earlier today.

This morning I was walking through campus (it was about 9:30 am - during class period - so very few students were walking around. I was ALMOST alone). A guy approached me (mind you, I live in the South). "Hey girl..." he jogged up to me. I smiled and said hi. He asked where a building was. I jokingly told him 'all buildings are down the path to the right...'. Anyway, we walked and talked and made a few jokes about the heat and course loads being too heavy. Casual banter.

I wasn't afraid.
I wasn't concerned.
I wasn't questioning anything about the situation - a guy walked and talked with me about college.

Meaningless pleasantries.

But, this article did come to mind while we walked and talked. Because in that situation some other woman might have been paranoid as fuck... and that made me a little sad to think that a guy just trying to find a campus building would have been looked at like a pariah just because he approach a girl instead of a guy.

So my view of the article yesterday still stands: I don't fully agree with her or her concept, here.


For one, all people - all people (men and women) - must immediately assess situations on a subconscious level and determine the potential dangers and risks. This is how we stay safe in life. Everything from going to an abandoned house because it was on our potential 'buy' list to someone knocking on our car window while we're stopped at a street light.

This is a normal, healthy level of self and external awareness. Without it, we'd all die rather quickly.'


Not all women think the way the woman in the article says all women think. Having been a victim of sexual violence, molestation, etc, doesn't necessarily mean a female assesses interaction with all males in such a way.


The level of concern this woman has - how she describes her mind set with every male-female interaction and moment of her life - is worrisome. That is in fact unhealthy. You should not fear everyone unnecessarily. Being cautious (like how we're always looking around while we drive) is healthy. Being fearful of other vehicles because 'someone had an accident' or 'I had an accident 5 years ago' is unhealthy.


If any woman - having been a victim of sexual assault or NOT - feels that extreme in the paranoia / fear department toward EVERY MAN she encounters, she needs therapy.



Topic: Fuck or Pass
Posted: 22 Sep 2016 16:30

Whatever he wants.

Topic: A thing called college
Posted: 19 Sep 2016 11:46

Good luck to you, too :)

I was thinking of that phrase just the other day (spread thin over bread...) because for the first 2 weeks my brain honestly felt like it has been pureed. I couldn't even see straight.

I'm feeling more focused adn mentally alert, now. Just taking some getting used to. But I've done school work every day for the last 3 weeks. I keep trying to give myself a day of but it doesn't seem to be happening. lol

Topic: A thing called college
Posted: 18 Sep 2016 11:03

I did this thing to myself called 'going back to college'.

I had the opportunity to go back and I debated it (for about 2 years) before committing to it. I realized how stupid I was being for NOT going. Not often that a mum with kids can head back to the old brick and mortar place of tutelage.

But holy crap - it's been a while. Now while being an author has taught me an incredible amount of self discipline, focus, and organizational skills... I'm suffering in the writing department itself. My revenue has been cut in half. It was expected, I saw it coming. But having it happen is OUCH regardless.

Anyway - this is why my involvement on Lush has been snipped and trimmed down to nothing and why I haven't had time to write, let alone read, anything new.

However! I'm nothing if not stubborn. I went back to college to earn a degree in Marketing (with a minor in Writing and Business) and I have big erotica-industry related plans.

I shall divide and conquer!

Viva la Erotique

Topic: How long does your sex last ? (with Foreplay)
Posted: 03 Sep 2016 16:16

Minutes to hours - it all depends on what mood we're both in, how much time we have, etc.

Topic: penis pics vs breast pics
Posted: 02 Sep 2016 20:24

It's only hypocritical if the same person has issues about receiving and also sends them.

But others don't speak for me. Vise versa. There's no universal standard.

Topic: Be honest here, who doesn't like to give blow jobs?
Posted: 12 Aug 2016 22:12

I didn't like giving oral until I met my husband - and my feelings for him are what made pleasuring him in any way I could such a turn on. Now I find it to be sexy (in porn, in fiction, in bed) - and I just don't know why it took him to change that part of me.

Topic: Are you girls/women more of a moaner or grunter
Posted: 12 Aug 2016 22:05

Especially when you are close to climaxing or when playing with yourself.

When I get off I tend to hold my breath - making very little noise. I end up gasping for air if that goes on for too long, but I prefer not to breathe if I can avoid it because it might throw off the amazing vibes I'm getting. And then if I have no choice, I prefer gasping into a pillow or something like his closed fist against my mouth.

But just during sex - I'm a fun hearted gasping, grinning, playful fool at times. Othertimes I'm intensely serious and this is when my moaning might get deep. But my orgasms are always the same.

Topic: How good does it feel to have a penis inside of you?
Posted: 12 Aug 2016 21:54

Sometimes it's a whole-body reaction. Like when you have a damn intense craving and you MUST have a drink or a hit or a puff NOW - RIGHT FUCKING NOW BEFORE I DIE! Then that bliss hits you . . . like a mercy from an understanding dealer who knows what you need and has just the right stuff to make you feel good and keep you there. And you don't want that bliss to end - ever - and it might last for only a short while but, damn, in your whole body it just feel like an eternity of fucking heaven. And you'll never wake up from it and that's okay because this is all you know and all there is to feel - ever.

Othertimes, you want it - but it's not as intense. It's a desire, an interest, a preferable pursuit. Maybe the more appealing part of everything is being in physical contact - inside and out. It's less rushed, less mindlessness. But still incredibly satisfying. Sometimes being able to be close head to toe with nothing in between is the perfect answer for a question you didn't ask. Like you had a problem all week and now here's the solution - why didn't you think of that sooner? So satisfying! Ahhhh yes!

Topic: Is your sexual activity affected by the seasons ...
Posted: 12 Aug 2016 21:37

...my partner claims that I'm more frisky during the day in summer.

How do you feel in the different seasons?

Please share, thank you.

Yes! The moment it gets cold outside I was to drink loads of coffee and strip his sweater off and fuck him like crazy ALL THE TIME. I'm such a cold weather sex addict. I can't wait - school is starting again and chilly nights better follow quick!

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Stories Published By Metilda
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All he had to do was ask her to consent and she would be his . . . and she hated herself for it. Passion, affection—she shouldn’t crave such things. But yet, on her hands and knees, fingers raw from vigorous scrubbing, her body ached to be touched. She was aware of every movement he made, every breath he took, his eyes on her as she worked. “Viette?” Her heart stuttered at the sound of...

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There's Something

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On the first day of Latin Class Lara finds herself quickly entangled with her professor. A relationship blooms, spirals and spins with secret rendezvous under the cover of little white lies. It's his voice, his good looks, and that commanding presence that draws her in deeper. What Lara doesn't...

Viette: A Story of Love and Hate
Viette: A Story of Love and Hate

Stripped of her nobility and taken as a war prize, Viette is determined to take control of her life at all costs even if it means dominating a King to do so. As a servant, however, she's in no such position . . . or is she? King Leonin of Whitmore has his sights set on Viette for things beyond...

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