About Metilda


I live to write. I have a wide variety of interests and at some point they'll all surface in my stories.

I have removed a large number of stories from Lush in order to set up distribution of such works through publication channels for ebooks. Sorry Or not sorry. My active Erotica pen name is Lilith Lo. I also write as Sirin Love (for Romance Erotica).

If you are a Lust Gold member you will have access to my fuller pieces in The Vault.

Answers to Questions I'm often asked:
*Yes, my avatar is me
*I started writing because I became frustrated with a lack of erotica stories I wanted to read.
*I continue to write because I get a thrill out of penning my sexually charged thoughts on paper and sharing them with others.
*No, I'm not interested in real life relationships. (No webcam or cellphone)
*Nothing puts me off or disgusts me, some things just interest me more than others. I favor hardcore and fetish elements the most when I read.

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24 Mar 2018 15:11
Writing, reading erotica. Crafting jewelry, attending college and a whole bunch of other Jill of all Trades stuff.
Favorite Books:
Erotica: Addicted, Power Play, Restraint, Control (all by Stein), Otherwise Alone, Surviving Rain (Shay Savage). Non erotica: For the Love of Stones (Tobias Hill), The Art of War (by Machiavelli).
Favorite Authors:
Charlotte Stein, Tobias Hill, Machiavelli, Shay Savage
Favorite Music:
I listen to everything from Aerosmith to Enya and Puscifer to Rob Zombie. . .I'm not picky about genres - it just depends on what mood I'm in at the moment. I do passionately love Type O Negative, though. RIP Peter. Lately music from The Devil's Carnival has been in my changer.


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Topic: Can a marriage survive if...
Posted: 23 Mar 2018 22:54

Honestly speaking Chandler of course i do not find morally acceptable that my wife to be the incubator of this man child! In this case i know this African man goal is to create a strong life link with my wife!
What better than get her mother of child????!!!!
He says he cares a lot of her and so does she.
In other words my wife has developed strong feelings for this man!
I and my wife do not have our own children.
I am trying to dissuade my young wife from this plan but i fear she will comply with his will!!

It's hard to answer this with any sort of sincerity when you sound like a strange robot. You fear she'll comply with his will? African man? Who talks like that?

If this is real, and honest to god I hope it's not, it sounds like your marriage is already over and you're living a lie, no one's in love with anyone, this dude is out of his mind (and so is your wife) but that might just be the phrasing you're using making them sound more bizarre than they really are.

I hope you're just full of it - because if you're not this is straight from the pages of a shitty Maury Povich episode in which everyone cares about everything else but being responsible grown ups and raising children right.

Consider therapy instead of a cuckold fetish marriage.

If she REALLY wants to have a child and you two cannot - getting knocked up by her boss because they have some bdsm thing is NOT the way to go. Especially not if she isn't actually making decisions for herself (you make it sound like she's a mindless nitwit who can't decide anything for herself . . . but again, most likely that's just because of your word choice).

Topic: Erotica with a story behind it or jump into the sex.
Posted: 21 Mar 2018 16:14

I like everything - depends on my mood.
Sometimes I seek out the slow build-ups.
Sometimes I seek out the hot-starts.

But the sex must always be hot and detailed. I don't like it when the sex is glanced over as if it's a secondary story component.

Topic: Male orgasm - in videos
Posted: 08 Mar 2018 06:39

Do you wish more videos featured men "vocalizing" when they cum? Women seem to do all the moaning, but the guys are almost mute?

I rarely come across videos where the guy is quite. I love all those sexy male grunts, groans, and gasps of air . . . and there seems to be no shortage of them out there, thank god.

Topic: Have you ever done anything either sex with a partner or solo that has caused you to seek medical help?
Posted: 07 Mar 2018 14:18

I've never gone to a doctor...

But one time, after sex using a condom, I was so swollen and sore after I spent hours sitting with a bottle of ice cold water between my legs. LOL - The whole time I was like 'please stop stinging! I'm NOT going to tell anyone about this - you can't make me, pussy!' LOL - that was the end of my condom days.

Topic: How often do you check out your "Friends Activity" panel.
Posted: 28 Feb 2018 15:22

With many of us having more than a few friends how often do you check out what they have written lately through the "Friends Activity" panel? under your avatar picture in the menu line.
I do it every time I log on.

Never - don't care. (Sorry all - I just am not a social butterfly / stalker type) . . . I don't care who friended whom or who read what and all that clutter. (I don't have it visible on my timeline, either).

If I want to chat I go visible and I look at who's online.

Topic: Is 3D Entertainment Outdated?
Posted: 28 Feb 2018 15:21

I actually couldn't see 3D - ever in my life - until I went to the most recent Star Wars movie . . . they had different glasses that didn't rely on the traditional method of filtering and it actually worked for me.

If 3D tech was something that actually engaged me all this time I might have found it worth the extra.

however - I'm just just a single person nobbing off to the movies alone. I take my whole family (6 of us in total). Tickets for adults are over $15.00 . . . So for all of us a trip to the theater for a 2 hour movie runs over $100.00.

Honestly? It's not worth that - it's not even worth HALF that, in my opinion. However cool it was to see 3D for the first time in my life, I just don't enjoy the theater experience (the people - the lines - the endless coughing and inability to pause to go to the bathroom).

Movie theaters in general AREN'T novel or exciting no matter what gimmick they throw out there.

Topic: Undo the bra
Posted: 25 Feb 2018 15:01

Honestly - I can't recall. I'm sure it came off at some point but it wasn't something to log into memory. Too hot and horny to catalog order of events. I guess perhaps that means it was less dramatic for me than it is for you, op (?)

lol - now that I think about it, I don't know if I was ever fully naked or not at any given time. Cock in Pussy . . . who needs thoughts beyond that?

Topic: Silence About Gun Violence In Chicago.
Posted: 25 Feb 2018 12:26

Something that strikes me as curious is the disparity of treatment in the press, in government, in social media, and yes, here on Lush's Think Tank Forum between the sporadic mass shootings in the USA and the non stop bloody weekends in Chicago. Pick any of the recent mass shootings. It doesn't matter much if you pick one that happened in a church, or one that happened in a school, or in a movie theater. Shortly after the news breaks it triggers a firestorm of media coverage, political posturing, and social media discussion here in the USA and across the globe. A government controlled newspaper in China of all places suggested that the USA copy China's gun control policies to protect human rights like China does. The article obviously did not mention the massacre of protesters by government troops in Tiananmen Square in 1989. Go figure! Meanwhile, each and every weekend there are tens of horrific shootings in Chicago. The toll of dead and wounded in Chicago during one of these now typical weekends often rivals the mass shootings that get all the attention. Yet the same individuals and groups that seem fascinated with the infrequent mass shootings seem to pay no attention to the steady yet greater number of deaths in Chicago.

I'd like to see some attempt by Lush readers to explore and explain their thoughts on why this obvious disparity exists. If at all possible, please try to limit the name calling and finger pointing. We've all seen and done quite enough of that on other threads.



Before 9-11 happened, the government spent a lot of time, money, and energy on trying to understand things like gang violence and the anti-trust mentality that encapsulates a lot of inner city areas which are prone to violence and secrecy.

9-11 took a lot of that funding away from those working programs and funneled it into this ongoing bullshit mess we have in the Middle East.

I'm not quite in any defined and labeled 'group' - but for me it's all been a problem that hasn't received the proper amount of attention for decades and it will remain so as long as everyone keeps hiding behind political lines and bailing on one problem in exchange for focusing on another.

Topic: Mental Illness and Guns
Posted: 23 Feb 2018 16:54

Every time there is one of these mass shootings, the same topics come up.

People on the left and right, go to their corners and make the same arguments...

The most common argument from Republicans is that "It's a mental health issue."

Now I think any person with half a brain can realize pretty quick that this is a diversionary tactic to try and take the emphasis off the fact that people are allowed to own weapons that serve no other purpose than to kill human beings...

But yet... I'm going to play along here.

I'm going to ignore the obvious fact that Republicans have made it perfectly clear that they don't give a shit about health care, let alone mental health care...

But for arguments sake, let's focus on mental health.

How would you go about addressing mental health concerns and how would that translate to preventing mass murders?

I know a lot of people support laws that would prevent "mentally ill people from owning firearms. But what is your definition of a mentally ill person?

The current law that has been batted around congress concerns "Social Security Recipients who lack the mental capacity to manage their own finances."

This concerns adults with conditions like Down Syndrome and minors under the age of 18 who have been treated for depression."

How many people with Down Syndrome are killing people?

Both the ACLU and the NRA are opposed to this legislation...

The ACLU thinks that it's not the right thing to have people's medical info put into a government database that views them as "criminal."

The NRA is opposed to this because... well we all know why they oppose it, don't we?


So if you think this increasingly occurring trend of mass murder in the USA is a mental health issue... I have two questions...

1. What is your definition of "mental health issue?"
2. What would you propose be done about it?
3. Why is it that this mental health issue is only manifesting itself in the USA?

And as a side note... why is it that the only time Republicans mention mental health, is when they are trying to deflect attention from gun violence?


The pisspoor state of our mental healthcare system is in PART a factor in the entire issue of mass murder in institutions . . . whether the Democrats or Republicans do or don't recognize that or take any action one way or another doesn't alter the fact that that is a SIGNIFICANT issue in the US and is a part of the cultural dissolve we're going through.

I've been struggling through the system with my son who's mentally ill and, yes, he's a danger to others.

I'm not sure how much I should go into on Lush, but long story short, my son has been institutionalized long-term recently. He's on various anti-psychotic medications and struggles with paranoia, anxiety, unconstrained anger, self-crucifying tendencies and so many other problems. He sees doctors several times a month, takes numerous medications, and has done so for years.

Being a parent of a mentally ill child has shown me every shit hole doctor's office and understaffed mental healthcare facility my state has to offer. I've seen areas where there's a strong care presence, but those are few and far between. My state has one of the FEW long-term care facilities throughout the US. When my son was there for an extended period of time, there were kids from all over the country - usually court ordered - to go there.

I think people are afraid that if they address the fact that there are teens (and adults) out there who aren't mentally balanced, they'll ADD to the problem. That by labeling it, they'll bring around some bad karma . . . or something. Regardless of whether people want it recognized, my son is mentally imbalanced and should not EVER be put in the same area as a weapon.

Everything along the way to trying to get him the help he needs has been plagued with problems...
1) The schools are ill equipped to even recognize when a student isn't 'right'.
2) People don't want to call it anything (his counselor insists on saying my son just has 'uniquenesses' and many others just don't report his behavior at all. Things have changed in the last year or so - but for a long time, he wasn't in public school at all).
3) When you finally get a kid into the system, the odds of them receiving adequate care is hit-or-miss. Depends on if the doctor is flaky or predisposed to a set type of diagnoses - many I've dealt with are the brush-off types that tend to ignore my efforts and my input.
4) Pharmacies are often understocked on the medication, as a result my son's had a lot of gaps between refills that are beyond my control.

And on and on and on I can go.

And of COURSE it's about many other things . . . I don't believe for one second my son should ever have the 'right' to obtain a firearm. I'm his mother, not a fucking idiot.

A lot of people don't deal with any of this stuff and so they simply don't know what's really going on in the system and with these types of issues.

Topic: guys profiles that have an avaturs with a female body etc
Posted: 19 Feb 2018 08:53

hey lush ladies,
having been browsing around be it on the who's online or forum posts etc, I personally am interested in the ladies of Lush, yet I continually click on a profile with a female body etc. only to find out it's really a guy.

Just wondered what you girlies think of this? as I'm a guy with a pic of a guy ( me as it happens)!...... ps I'm don't mean the guys that dress, I get that! :-)
Robert xx

Maybe they're like me, though process wise?
Sometimes I just put up a profile picture that I like looking at - no idea of self-representation goes into it, sometimes. It just strikes me as something I'd like to see and have up there, and there it goes.

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Seducing Sarah

The trip had been on the calendar for months. Each time Vivian looked at that bright red circle, her pussy would ache for the day to arrive when Sarah would go away for the weekend to the National Tech Competition. Vivian had paid good money, not just for the trip, but to cover the cost for her best friend, George, to be the chaperone that took Sarah in, cared for her, and showed her...

Added 28 Jun 2017 | Category Taboo | Votes 21 | Avg Score 5 | Views 17,342 | 13 Comments


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Added 11 Mar 2013 | Category Anal | Votes 21 | Avg Score 5 | Views 15,376 | 16 Comments

Two Girls, One Bottle

Chapter 1 - A Movie Sipping a glass of white wine, Hailey skated across the kitchen floor. Wearing her favorite pair of knee-high socks, ones with black and white stripes, she made it to the other side of the room quickly. In the bathroom, she checked her hair in the mirror and picked at the frills of her blue cotton teddy. She was nervous without really knowing why. Brittany had...

Added 25 Jul 2015 | Category Hardcore | Votes 21 | Avg Score 4.95 | Views 17,679 | 13 Comments

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Suckled: Nature's Bounty

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Chapter 1 When it comes to objects of my affection what I truly lust for—my thing, my fetish I suppose I should say—is glass. Glass. Solid, smooth, textured, ribbed—cold or hot. Glass girl, all the way. Needless to say, when I go shopping for toys, I don’t go to the outrageously priced, hole in the wall adult store in the next town over. I’m a thrifty spender. There’s a twisted thrill...

Added 21 Sep 2015 | Category College Sex | Votes 33 | Avg Score 4.97 | Views 32,639 | 24 Comments

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Anxious to get on the road again, Bambi bounced on the balls of her feet, her lips pursing to blow another bubble. Two, three inches around—and then it suddenly popped, sticking to her chin. Tamela stood there, a finger poised where the pink bubble had been. “Bus is full. Coach says we have to ride with the boys.” Bambi flicked her tongue, swiping the gum back into her mouth. “Sounds...

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I make my way to the Carnack Building with two minutes to spare. With ten minutes between classes I cannot fathom how this is going to work. First days are always stressful, and when I finally find room 294 I’m sweating and breathless. I barge in, hair a mangled mess, clothes disheveled, and the entire class looks at me. Why can’t the door be in the back of the room, I think to myself as I...

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Taboo Lust

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Suckled: Nature's Bounty
Suckled: Nature's Bounty

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The Devil's Undertones: An Unholy Love Story
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On the first day of Latin Class Lara finds herself quickly entangled with her professor. A relationship blooms, spirals and spins with secret rendezvous under the cover of little white lies. It's his voice, his good looks, and that commanding presence that draws her in deeper. What Lara doesn't...

Viette: A Story of Love and Hate
Viette: A Story of Love and Hate

Stripped of her nobility and taken as a war prize, Viette is determined to take control of her life at all costs even if it means dominating a King to do so. As a servant, however, she's in no such position . . . or is she? King Leonin of Whitmore has his sights set on Viette for things beyond...

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Merry Christmas, Metilda!

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As I entered the master suite, I could hear the shower... feeling the extra humidity building from the steamy water.... Moving closer, I took time to take in the contrast of her tanned body against the dark slate color of the walk-in shower.... remembering the last time I joined her there.... the time I held her in my arms.... her tears becoming lost within the course of water running down her face.... it was the first time for us and the day I shipped out for what I thought would be a three year tour. And now, hear I am, finally home after all those extra months laying in a far away hospital to mend..... not knowing if I'd ever see her.... only my dreams and hopes to carry me... not knowing if she waited or if she still would want what was left of me.... But I gaze now at the smoothness of her skin.... her womanly lady charms..so swollen and I know so sweet.... "God, thank you for seeing past my doubts and giving me what life I have... And for this I'm about to eat...."
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Thinking of you dearest lady xxx

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So good to meet you and I look forward to seeing you again soon x
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Thinking of you babe

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