About Metilda

I live to write. I have a wide variety of interests and at some point they'll all surface in my stories.

I have removed a large number of stories from Lush in order to set up distribution of such works through publication channels for ebooks. Sorry Or not sorry. My active Erotica pen name is Lilith Lo. I also write as Sirin Love (for Romance Erotica).

If you are a Lust Gold member you will have access to my fuller pieces in The Vault.

Answers to Questions I'm often asked:
*Yes, my avatar is me
*I started writing because I became frustrated with a lack of erotica stories I wanted to read.
*I continue to write because I get a thrill out of penning my sexually charged thoughts on paper and sharing them with others.
*No, I'm not interested in real life relationships. (No webcam or cellphone)
*Nothing puts me off or disgusts me, some things just interest me more than others. I favor hardcore and fetish elements the most when I read.

Relationship Status:
Writing, reading erotica. Crafting jewelry, attending college and a whole bunch of other Jill of all Trades stuff.
Favorite Books:
Erotica: Addicted, Power Play, Restraint, Control (all by Stein), Otherwise Alone, Surviving Rain (Shay Savage). Non erotica: For the Love of Stones (Tobias Hill), The Art of War (by Machiavelli).
Favorite Authors:
Charlotte Stein, Tobias Hill, Machiavelli, Shay Savage
Favorite Music:
I listen to everything from Aerosmith to Enya and Puscifer to Rob Zombie. . .I'm not picky about genres - it just depends on what mood I'm in at the moment. I do passionately love Type O Negative, though. RIP Peter. Lately music from The Devil's Carnival has been in my changer.
Date Joined:
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Latest Forum Posts
Topic: Your guy's pubic style
Posted: 10 Oct 2016 04:30

I read your dumbass statement more than once. Tomorrow when you read about the debates, which are going on right now, and the term "locker room talk" becomes clear to you, you'll realize what an idiot you are. It's a thread about pubes. I made a joke about pubes. Wow how serious. If you want to actually get serious make a post in a serious thread.

And to be honest, your outrage makes it seem like you do give a flying fuck... over my rockabilly pubes of all things. Pelvis Presley.

Actually, grab her pussy aficionado, i knew exactly what you were referring to right when you said it.

Why are you such a big fucking dick around here?

You open your mouth, make all sorts of noise, but don't like what's shoved in it - well swallow your mouthful like a good little boy and fuck off.

Topic: Your guy's pubic style
Posted: 09 Oct 2016 19:20

Take your sarcasm meter to the shop for a checkup. I said my pubes were styled in a rockabilly style. What about that screams seriousness? Holy fuck indeed.

Reread my statement.

Nevermind, I'll spare you the agony and just restate: if you started in this thread with a joke then don't turn and start getting pissy over the fallout.

Topic: Your guy's pubic style
Posted: 09 Oct 2016 18:45

What you're saying is locker room talk. It's uninvited. And not acceptable. Just because I am man doesn't make it okay.

Holy fuck? Seriously? <img src="/forum/images/emoticons/binkybaby.gif" alt="binky">

You came into the 'Ask the Gals' thread and then made a joke about it as if we all here give a flying fuck about your cock and bush, and now you're trying to be Mr. Pissy Pants over the fall out?

Topic: Letting pubic hair grow by request of boyfriend/husband
Posted: 09 Oct 2016 18:31

What do you mean by 'grow out'?

Full bush? No way.

It's not just about *looks* (which, I think, most men assume - they assume it's all done for looks AND it's all done for them). But there's also routine maintenance, like all other body hair. For some it's hygiene meant to keep down odors and unsavory things like 'pubis cling due to vaginal / menstrual secretions' . . . being female, I find these things to be absolutely disgusting - yet a fact of life if you grow any little bit of it too long (even with showering once or twice a day). Tolerate THAT just because he might want it longer? Nope.

Further, I like the sensation of being trimmed during sex - and when both people are ungroomed there's a really icky 'sound' that two full wet bushes make. Seriously - it's laughable and silly and I couldn't stand that, either.

Topic: camel toe.. turn on or turn off?
Posted: 09 Oct 2016 15:43

I tend to have issues with the terms used for various things, rather than the thing itself.

Camel Toe - the term is gross. Camels are gross animals and I don't want my vaginal lips and anything else described using gross-animal terminology. The term itself was designed to shame, not promote or encourage, and I think it does a pretty good job of being 'ew gross' right off the bat.

But the look - not a turn on, not necessarily a turn off... I'm just indifferent. I think I really just don't get turned on by SEEING anything. A guy's cock and balls through clothing? I'll notice but it won't excite me. A woman wearing a tight fitted shirt with hard nipples? Nice to see but doesn't turn me on. Same thing for when a woman's labial V is showing. Indifferent.

Topic: Your guy's pubic style
Posted: 09 Oct 2016 12:51


I really don't like it when guys fuss with it at all.

Topic: Regular movies but XXX sex scenes
Posted: 09 Oct 2016 06:28

Since you first asked this question, two movies have been released that might be exactly what the OP is looking for. Safe Landings and Babysitting the Baumgartners. Produced by Kay Brandt, they're movie production works based on novels (one written by Kay herself, and the other by Selena Kitt).

I've watched them both - well directed, well acted, well written. Fully story lines, not just cheesy porn set ups.

Topic: Standing for the National Anthem
Posted: 07 Oct 2016 17:27

The national anthem's forgotten lyrics:

The Star-Spangled Banner" was written by Francis Scott Key in 1814 about the American victory at the Battle of Fort McHenry. The third verse is not song in the National Anthem:

And where is that band who so vauntingly swore,
That the havoc of war and the battle's confusion
A home and a Country should leave us no more?
Their blood has wash'd out their foul footstep's pollution.
No refuge could save the hireling and slave
From the terror of flight or the gloom of the grave,
And the star-spangled banner in triumph doth wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave.

The mere mention of "slave" is not entirely remarkable; slavery was alive and well in the United States in 1814. Key himself owned slaves, was an anti-abolitionist and once called his African brethren "a distinct and inferior race of people."

Some interpretations of these lyrics contend Key was in fact taking pleasure in the deaths of freed black slaves who had decided to fight with the British against the United States.

In order to bolster their numbers, British forces offered slaves their freedom in British territories if they would join their cause during the war. These black recruits formed the Colonial Marines, and were looked down upon by people like Key who saw their actions as treasonous.

As an anthem, "The Star-Spangled Banner" has never been a unanimous fit. Since it was officially designated as the national anthem in 1931, Americans have debated the suitability of its militaristic lyrics and difficult tune. (Some have offered up "God Bless America" and "America the Beautiful" as alternatives.)

Athletes often make their stand:

What do you think of this latest .... omg he didn't, oh yay, he did!



Though we're a military family (husband's retired now), and I have my own personal view of our country and patriotism, I fully support individuality and our First Amendment Rights.

I honestly am not bothered, concerned, or in any way, shape, or form influence or affected by anyone choosing not to stand for the Pledge (etc).

So I don't get why everyone's so upset, why it's become a mass-hysteria thing, and why people all over are emulating it or requiring kids to emulate it. To me patriotism is a very personal thing, just like religion. You don't PUSH it on other people. Because then it's not genuine, it's just an empty requirement (like how religion was for me BECAUSE my father was a minister - church was just something we did, it was't something i FELT).

Topic: Cumming at the same time
Posted: 07 Oct 2016 16:19

Better Together...and sometimes mine triggers hers...

This . . . absolutely this!

My husband's ejaculate makes me come. If I can't get there all he needs to do is come and I'm over the moon.

Topic: Communication question
Posted: 07 Oct 2016 16:17

As a relative newcomer to Lush, I am still trying to figure things out. It appears as if many people keep their status as "Away - Unavailable to chat", even if they are in fact online. If you always show your status as "away", how would a friend know you were online to begin a conversation?

That seems very confusing to me....you make friends here to have someone to chat with, yet they seem to always be away, even when you can see them posting in the forums, etc.

Newbie Becky

The 'online' ability for people to drop you a black box can get annoying. And being 'away' when you really aren't wanting to chat is polite. I love to chat, though, so I'm often not away. however, i've had browser issues in the past that made me go 'away' just because I couldn't adequately chat with people. (in this case, I set an away message so people couldn't actually send me anything, they'd just get the message)

However, there's actually a feature in lush (not sure how many even know about it). You can select who can see you online and who cannot. You can only do it through the 'Friends' listing. (hover your mouse over your 'avatar' above, then hover over 'settings' and go to 'friends' in the next menu that drops down). Once there, you can click to select which friends can see you online NO MATTER WHAT. Such a person shows up as a green box. Even so, if you're away, they'll see you're away.

Otherwise, there is another feature when you click the 'online' option (next to 'mail') that lets only friends see you online. It's generalized.

Regardless of whether you're 'online - all' or 'online - friends only' . . . your green boxed friends will always be able to see you online.

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Stories Published By Metilda
Suckled: Nature's Bounty

Chapter 1   I saw the advertisement in the classified section of the newspaper while I was riding the Metro. The page was folded at a strange angle, crumpled in the man's hand who sat oblivious to my prying eyes. It read: Wanted: adult wet nurse. It brought to mind things I hadn't thought of in years, long forgotten fantasies I used to entertain when I was far more inexperienced in life:...

Added 30 Jan 2016 | Category Fetish | Votes 20 | Avg Score 5 | Views 8,719 | 16 Comments

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Chapter 1 When it comes to objects of my affection what I truly lust for—my thing, my fetish I suppose I should say—is glass. Glass. Solid, smooth, textured, ribbed—cold or hot. Glass girl, all the way. Needless to say, when I go shopping for toys, I don’t got to the outrageously priced, hole in the wall adult store in the next town over. I’m a thrifty spender. There’s a twisted...

Added 21 Sep 2015 | Category College Sex | Votes 31 | Avg Score 4.97 | Views 27,245 | 24 Comments

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Anxious to get on the road again, Bambi bounced on the balls of her feet, her lips pursing to blow another bubble. Two, three inches around—and then it suddenly popped, sticking to her chin. Tamela stood there, a finger poised where the pink bubble had been. “Bus is full. Coach says we have to ride with the boys.” Bambi flicked her tongue, swiping the gum back into her mouth. “Sounds...

Added 05 Aug 2015 | Category Fetish | Votes 17 | Avg Score 4.94 | Views 8,990 | 11 Comments

Taboo Lust

Chapter 1 I stayed a few steps behind Mom as we trudged into Church. The wind had kicked up since we left the house and my ears had begun to burn, my knees had gone a bit numb quite some time ago. Twice she turned to gripe at me for going too slow but I ignored her—I was looking for Brian. Our parents married when I was only 10. Years later, much to my dismay, they divorced. Since...

Added 23 Jun 2015 | Category Taboo | Votes 31 | Avg Score 4.93 | Views 37,526 | 15 Comments

Recommended Read The Devil's Undertones

I make my way to the Carnack Building with two minutes to spare. With ten minutes between classes I cannot fathom how this is going to work. First days are always stressful, and when I finally find room 294 I’m sweating and breathless. I barge in, hair a mangled mess, clothes disheveled, and the entire class looks at me. Why can’t the door be in the back of the room, I think to myself as I...

Added 22 May 2013 | Category Quickie Sex | Votes 27 | Avg Score 4.88 | Views 9,310 | 15 Comments

Between Midnight and Noon

Eight months. Seven days. Sixteen hours. It’s been so long since my wife last told me she loved me and then kissed me goodbye. How was I to know that one kiss would be the last kiss, the last caress? How many times would I think of her and seek her memory out in this way? “More coffee?” The waitress comes to stand in front of me, carafe in her hand. I consider that she...

Added 07 Jun 2014 | Category Straight Sex | Votes 14 | Avg Score 5 | Views 4,406 | 15 Comments

Viette - Chapter 1

All he had to do was ask her to consent and she would be his . . . and she hated herself for it. Passion, affection—she shouldn’t crave such things. But yet, on her hands and knees, fingers raw from vigorous scrubbing, her body ached to be touched. She was aware of every movement he made, every breath he took, his eyes on her as she worked. “Viette?” Her heart stuttered at the sound of...

Added 11 Apr 2015 | Category Novels | Votes 6 | Avg Score 5 | Views 1,644 | 7 Comments

There's Something

Something draws me to the photograph of him, It’s so wrong for me to look, But I do, Over and over again. There is something in the way he is poised, Casual, against the cushions of the sofa. Black jeans, White shirt. It’s the jacket, though,  And the buckle on his belt,  - Undone. The thrust of his hips,  The way his arm reaches overhead,  These are where my eye wanders,  Over and...

Added 18 Apr 2013 | Category Love Poems | Votes 6 | Avg Score 4.67 | Views 1,019 | 5 Comments

The Rain Came

The hillside was torched by a lick of flame. Angry fire burned wildly, devouring. Timbers cracked, the trees split, all was consumed. Heaven sent the rain, quenched the devil’s hand. Then the rain faded, leaving a man behind. He was cold, I gave him shelter. He was hungry, I gave him food. He was broken, I cured his wounds. Eyes dark, rich, and golden – like aged brass coins. Scattered...

Added 27 Jun 2013 | Category Love Poems | Votes 16 | Avg Score 4.94 | Views 1,014 | 12 Comments

Viette - Chapter 32

In the madness that followed—the guards rushing in and out, the doctor being summoned—Viette slipped away. No one noticed her departure, not even her Keeper. She moved in a strange fog—almost floating as she went—her heart having darkened to a shade of night. On the way to Aust's room she followed the narrow servant passageways that wound through the castle. He’s not dead, she...

Added 15 Jun 2015 | Category Novels | Votes 6 | Avg Score 5 | Views 602 | 5 Comments

eBooks Published By Metilda
Suckled: Nature's Bounty
Suckled: Nature's Bounty

Breanne lives a dull, single life working as an office clerk. That is until she sees a job listing in the newspaper as a Nature's Bounty Nurse. A phone call and an intimate doctor's appointment later, she's on her way to dedicating herself to a life of adult nursing for a wealthy Japanese...

The Devil's Undertones: An Unholy Love Story
The Devil's Undertones: An Unholy Love Story

On the first day of Latin Class Lara finds herself quickly entangled with her professor. A relationship blooms, spirals and spins with secret rendezvous under the cover of little white lies. It's his voice, his good looks, and that commanding presence that draws her in deeper. What Lara doesn't...

Viette: A Story of Love and Hate
Viette: A Story of Love and Hate

Stripped of her nobility and taken as a war prize, Viette is determined to take control of her life at all costs even if it means dominating a King to do so. As a servant, however, she's in no such position . . . or is she? King Leonin of Whitmore has his sights set on Viette for things beyond...

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