About StillUndecided

“Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness.” — Maya Angelou

However, I do ask that unless I request one, or you have a chat issue, you don't send me a private chat box.

How strange, the change from major, to minor...

If you look closer, its easy to see the tracks of my tears. <-- Smokey Robinson came up with this one

Nothing ventured, nothing gained, seems all the world has gone insane... <-- Newton Faulkner came up with that one

There is beauty in danger, and danger in beauty... <-- I came up with that one

Your opinion is irrelevant, I was built to be magnificent. <-- Take That came up with that one

Music is my life, I was a student studying it until I finished my degree in May 2014. Music is how I relax and where I go to escape, the chances are if I don’t reply to you I’m lost in it.

Try this for me; listen to Brothers In Arms by Dire Straits in complete darkness, with headphones, and the volume up. I get shivers every time I do.

And in the same plan, listen to New York Minute by Eagles

"Real music comes from on the inside, and your heart is the conductor of the words and the sounds and the instruments that are used to create a masterpiece for the symphony to play that leaves the audience to wonder at the excellence of what they have heard" - EroticElegance

"Music was my first love
And it will be my last
Music of the future
And music of the past
To live without my music
Would be impossible to do
In this world of troubles
My music pulls me through"

Music - John Miles

StillUndecided - Here we go, the thing everybody wants to know: What does it mean? Well, when I first joined, I was a little unsure of my sexuality, but now, that is a little more sorted. But, like the musician I am, I bent the rules, changed the game, and thus changed the meaning of what it was to be StillUndecided. Now it means that I don't know what the future is, the future for me is fluid, it is StillUndecided, subject to change at any time. I know what I want to happen with my future after uni, but I am undecided as to which of two routes to go down, to know more you'll have to ask me. EDIT Now I have finished, I still don't know what I'm doing.

I will always be open and honest with you, but this is considered to be my greatest downfall; when the openness and honesty come back to bite me when people hurt me.

Pyromania is taking over my thoughts...can you imagine that, a fire breathing turtle?

Not looking for anything from anyone except friendship, I've been screwed over and broken too many times to connect any more.

Sarah H
Relationship Status:
In my shell, Lancashire, United Kingdom

I want to go skydiving.
I want to throw myself out of a plane and have a hell of a time doing it.

I was good at shooting when I was younger.
I want to shoot things again, gun or arrows.

I want to wing walk.
I want to be on a plane as it flies and feel everything.

I want to perform a massive gig.
I want to perform to hundreds of people and feel them knowing every beat of my music.

I want to write in every category on here.
I want to write and get good feedback for it.

I want to travel the world.
I want to travel and see how people live, see what they see, how they see it, but then see it all as a tourist too.

I want to help people through music.
I kind of do this already, but I want to do it more. Its so rewarding seeing how music helps people.

I want to be free.
I want to be free to say and think and do what I want to when I want to...

I want to draw and paint.
I want to do them like I used to when I was a kid and did them all the time.

I want to write a song that people know.
I want to write it and hear it places and think, I wrote that.

I want to accept who I am.
I want to accept it and know that I am good at what I do, that I am beautiful. I want to know that people like me, love me, respect me. Because I don't believe it right now.

I want to be happy.
Because I know I am not always happy.

I want to fall in love.
I want to fall in love and not get hurt, but I know hurt happens anyway, so I want to love and know how to react to the hurt.

I want to be me.
And I want a lot of things.
So for now, I am just going to be me.
Be me and know that things will happen.
Good or bad.
Happy or sad.
I'm gonna live my life and do gardening, just because nobody gardens any more.
Favorite Books:
Confessions of a Jane Austen Addict
Harry Potter Series
Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy
Revenge Wears Prada
The Devil Wears Prada
The Hobbit
The House of Night Series
The Princess Diaries Series
The Timetraveller's Wife

Asking me to pick a favourite book is a silly thing to do. I couldn't possibly pick just one. I would have to give you elements I liked in a whole long list of books, the ones listed above are those which I have at uni with me.
I love to read and I can get through books quickly. I used to work in a library while I was in secondary school and college and I'm completely used to rearranging books and even the layout of a library.
Favorite Authors:
Audrey Niffenegger
Chris Ryan
Douglas Adams
Eoin Colfer
J.K. Rowling
Lauren Weisberger
Nicholas Sparks
P.C. and Kristin Cast
Robert Westwell

Again, picking a favourite author is a difficult thing for me to do.
Favorite Movies:
A Knights Tale
Avengers Assemble
Bend It Like Beckham
Bride Wars
Calendar Girls
Captain America: The First Avenger
Cool Runnings
Finding Nemo
Get Smart
How To Train Your Dragon
Imagine You & Me
In Her Shoes
Iron Man 1, 2 & 3
Jeff Wayne's Musical War of the Worlds
John Tucker Must Die
Kingdom Of Heaven
Kung Fu Panda
Land Of The Lost
Miss Congeniality 1&2
Mrs Doubtfire
Nim's Island
Paul Blart: Mall Cop
School Of Rock
Stir Crazy
Sunshine Cleaning
The Boat That Rocked
The Devil Wears Prada
The Haunted Airman
The Invention Of Lying
The Money Pit
The Parole Officer
The Princess Diaries 1&2
The Silence of the Lambs
Wild Hogs
Wild Target
Yes Man

Anything with Anne Hathaway, Emily Blunt, Rachel McAdams or Amy Adams in it.

The list above is just those I have as dvds with me at uni.
Favourite TV Shows:
Death In Paradise
Game of Thrones
Grey's Anatomy
How I Met Your Mother
Lie To Me
New Tricks
Orange Is The New Black
Silent Witness
The Big Bang Theory
The West Wing
Favorite Music:
All American Rejects
Amy Macdonald
Beach Boys
Beverley Knight
Bob Marley
Bruce Springsteen
Bruno Mars
Calvin Harris
Christina Perri
Clare Maguire
Daft Punk
David Bowie
David Grey
David Guetta
Dire Straits
Don Henley
Dusty Springfield
Ellie Goulding
Emeli Sande
Fiona Apple
Fleetwood Mac
Flo Rida
Florence & The Machine
Fontella Bass
Foo Fighters
Gabrielle Aplin
Goo Goo Dolls
James Brown
Jason Mraz
Jessie J
John Miles
Julie Fowlis
Justin Timberlake
Kaiser Chiefs
Kate Bush
Katy Perry
Kelly Clarkson
King Creosote
Knife Party
KT Tunstall
La Roux
Lady Antebellum
Lana Del Ray
LeAnn Rimes
Lily Allen
Maroon 5
Mel C
Michael Buble
Mick Hucknall
Natalie Imbruglia
Nerina Pallot
Newton Faulkner
Norah Jones
Olly Murs
Owl City
Paolo Nutini
Paper Aeroplanes
Pet Shop Boys
Peter Gabriel
Regina Spektor
Rita Ora
Robbie Williams
Scouting For Girls
Simply Red
Smokey Robinson
Snow Patrol
Sophie Ellis-Bextor
Spice Girls
Swedish House Mafia
Take That
The Beatles
The Cardigans
The Fray
The Hoosiers
The Killers
The Kooks
The Saturdays
The Smiths
Two Door Cinema Club
Walk Off The Earth
Will Young
Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Date Joined:
27 Dec 2011
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Stories Published By StillUndecided
Something Beautiful

There's something beautiful, About the way you look tonight, The sparkle in your eye, And the way that you walk, There's something wonderful, Your happiness radiates outwards, Like the sun, On the break of a new morning. There's something confident, About the way you hold yourself, Regal yet not too aloof, Some pride in your face. There's something peaceful, In the way you...

Added 24 Mar 2015 | Category Love Poems | Votes 14 | Avg Score 5 | Views 436 | 17 Comments

Sometimes A World

Sometimes the world is not enough, Sometimes a house is not a home, Material things don't count at all, When people exist with no joy. Empty hearts bleed little hope, No love or feeling runs through veins, A shadow cast o'er men in pain, As the world revolves again. A falling tree in a wood, If not a soul is there, Does it make a sound, As its branches crack on the ground? ...

Added 18 Feb 2015 | Category Love Poems | Votes 13 | Avg Score 5 | Views 502 | 13 Comments

For You

For you, I would give the world, Though I am sure that there would be more than a few people unimpressed with me, If I did so without their consent, Alas,I'd rather have you any day. Oh, the things I wouldn't steal, Not because of their beauty, But because of how you outshine them by so many degrees, That gold looks like worn-out brass, Except, I would make a really bad thief, ...

Added 17 Feb 2015 | Category Love Poems | Votes 8 | Avg Score 5 | Views 509 | 8 Comments

To My Valentine

To my Valentine, The one who holds the key for my lock, Whose name I dare not utter, Until I rest with you on that crisp, cold eve. To my Valentine, The hand that fits so perfectly in mine, As with the other I raise that most cherished of red flowers to your face, Each bringing out the beauty in the other. To my Valentine, Whilst we meet under the twinkling lights in the marquee,...

Added 07 Feb 2015 | Category Love Poems | Votes 28 | Avg Score 4.88 | Views 625 | 35 Comments


Intoxication Sweet, sweet intoxication It is the things you do to me That means I am addicted And that I never want you to go Your scent Deadly Your moan Music Your arch Fucking beautiful Sleek slender body Nails rake your back As your globes reach at sky Long hair splayed Fiery lust burns and blazes in your eyes Heartbeat beating Banging hard at your ribs Threatening escape...

Added 24 Jan 2015 | Category Erotic Poems | Votes 13 | Avg Score 5 | Views 649 | 15 Comments

Playing With Fire

Curiosity killed the cat. Everybody knows that. But with me, curiosity freed me, changed me, and let me loose to help other people become the person they needed to become to also, be free and changed. It started when I had been watching live cams on the internet, though not just any live cams, I was watching BDSM live cams, and was particularly interested in those that used fire. The fire...

Added 21 Jan 2015 | Category BDSM | Votes 34 | Avg Score 4.88 | Views 5,642 | 39 Comments


Being with you Is like savouring the sun Through the gaps In the clouds In a storm Only there for the briefest of moments Gone away again Too soon Leaving me Eagerly awaiting your return Unpredictable And unique as a snowflake The thunder sounds The flash of lightning The rain crashes and tumbles The wind blows But as you reappear The sadness I felt Falls down around me...

Added 16 Jan 2015 | Category Love Poems | Votes 12 | Avg Score 5 | Views 500 | 13 Comments

(Re)Discovering Myself - Chapter IV

I can’t tell you what it is like to wake up feeling lost and empty every morning, other than lost and empty. It is like there is a kind of scared stillness that has been lurking inside your body every moment leading up to and including that moment, which, for all you know, could be an eternal being. Not knowing who you are, where you are from or if there is anybody missing you is...

Added 08 Jan 2015 | Category Exhibitionism | Votes 8 | Avg Score 5 | Views 2,801 | 9 Comments


Tomorrow never ends when I'm with you, Tomorrow never loses its thrill, The day to come holds my hopes and dreams for us, The future keeps us going through it all. Tomorrow never fades from my conscious, Tomorrow drives us on through today's pain, The world lets us discover its eternal secrets, As we run along hand in hand. Tomorrow is only taken when we're dragged apart, ...

Added 07 Jan 2015 | Category Love Poems | Votes 12 | Avg Score 5 | Views 667 | 12 Comments

Your Bed

I crept into your bed this morning, I stretched out into your scent, I wondered the things you thought this morning, As your hands explored wherever they went. I know you thought erotic thoughts this morning, From the sidelines I watched, Just outside the door, Watching you calling out for more. I let my hands explore my own body, The same path you followed on yours, Pinching...

Added 06 Jan 2015 | Category Erotic Poems | Votes 8 | Avg Score 5 | Views 797 | 8 Comments

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