chrisylushlover91's Blog Entries

23 Jan 2012 13:13

My email is ... Talk to me

16 Nov 2011 18:40

Bring me to life

12 Oct 2011 18:21

I feel so alone :/

11 Sep 2011 18:11

As due to questions from my previous status, "I bid u all farewell" is the line of a poem I made in my cutting days. I'm not leaving lush (the thought alone is unfathomable) I just merly wanted to put that as my status arbitrarilly lol

08 Sep 2011 19:31

I bid u all farewell

01 Sep 2011 18:41

I'm in so much pain from soccer

11 Aug 2011 17:58

Feeling in love a little down and missing the man I love but can't be with. It's like a sick and twisted Romeo and Juliet story. If anybody wants to cheer me up ... Please try :'( please

07 Aug 2011 19:10

And that’s why I smile. It’s been a while Since everyday and everything has felt this right And now You turn it all around And suddenly you’re all I need The reason why, I-i-i, I smi-i-i-ile.

31 Jul 2011 20:00

I'm soo horny I wanna cyber fuck soo bad !! Any takers ?

31 Jul 2011 20:00

I'm soo horny I wanna cyber fuck soo bad !! Any takers ?

28 Jul 2011 19:38

Rocking out to awesome music, feeling like a Paramore and Hollywood Undead day. Oh well at least my hearts in tact for now

18 Jul 2011 18:09

Rocking out to Hollywood Undead !!

16 Jul 2011 08:43

After 10 years Harry Potter came to an end. From "The Magic Begins" to "It All Ends" I've loves Harry Potter

12 Jul 2011 18:36

My Dark Secret
The knife calls, calls to feel blood, to bring safety, to take away the pain. I reach and take it, I stare at the blade, so clean and sharp. I contemplate quietly, should I really, how would I feel? Feel to have it cut my skin, to draw my blood, to take away my pain. It calls for me, I want to be in control, I want the pain to go. Finally, I close my eyes, press the blade to my wrist, it feels cool on my skin. Then I gently apply pressure, slice my skin open, over and over again. I feel the familiar rush of energy, I feel the blood come, it comes like small rivers. I relax with my feelings, the pain within me melting, my mind slowly drifting....

10 Jul 2011 20:59

I feel more alone now then I ever did ... "where did you go? I missed u so, it seems it's been forever since you've been gone.."

10 Jul 2011 16:46

When I'm aiming for my dreams, never tell me the sky is the limit when they're footprints on the moon. One day my dreams will come true. But for now I'll just stick to wishing on stars, on 11:11, on eyelashes, and on birthday candles.