Hello everyone, my name is Etta and I am a owned and collared hedonistic girl switch to a wonderful Alpha HOH Primal DaddyDom. Other then to read the stories, I will be keeping this as a journal about my life and my journey in BDSM.On a side note, if you would like to be my friend I would love to add you! Just send a little message saying something that could start a intellectual conversation I do not cyber, nor do I want an online Dom.
People are difficult. There, I said it. It seems to me that sometimes because you're kinky, you tend to be the elephant in the room. Not because you have scene attire for shock or because you talk loudly for everyone to hear you. I know that kink or whatever you want to call it is not for everyone. Thus, it is very private in my life. I feel like people who may be involved in kink successfully, Wether conservative or not, get picked on. In general I believe that people are a lot more open minded regardless of who, how and what that means to an individual. Or at least that's what people are told to do by the general public. I am frustrated,...to be honest. I don't wear the word kink on my forehead. I am my own person...and for reasons unknown and considering I don't parade around in my in my life decisions and goals. I am picked and prodded. I am liberal, but I don't act like it. So why must people in general want to know of my private life? And then act like they don't care but secretly have formed they're own opinions on whatever you're discussing even though they either know or don't know and it is totally irrelevant to your own identity as an individual who is very quiet about it?
Title: Being Amorous So, here's the thing about love...at least the way I love. I love **unconditionally...** literally. It doesn't mean I am unsafe with my love. It just means the people I choose to have some form of relationship with, are honest and trustworthy about the intent of the type of relationship we've negotiated. It doesn't mean that once we've negotiated what type of relationship is suitable for the both of us...never changes. **People are always changing,** always evolving and the way that they tend to love changes as well. I am one, that is okay with it...because **I change too.** If you want to be free and fly away, go ahead. I will not stop you. I will still love you, but the time we have shared together has ended for you. All the yummy soaked up ravishment I was able to give you, you do not need anymore and I am 100% okay with that. You know why? Because in some way at one time my love and what you were searching for...I was able to give you.You could say I am addicted to intimacy. To sharing those really vulnerable moments with someone and reveling in the feeling of safe spaces. For a long time I have struggled to identify with relationship pathways because I didn't fit. I am a very square peg trying to fit in a very round hole. It just isn't going to happen, so I am going to make a really comfy blanket fort and hopefully the right people will want to join my club. I love differently then most because love comes in many different ways. I could love you passionately...with a fire in my belly to devour you and sate both of our needs. I could love gently, where all your worries fade away into kisses and hidden touches. I could love you and never have to sleep with you, but my love would be just as fierce and loyal. I could love you in a way, where I just want all your dreams and happiness to come true because you deserve it! I could love you and feel compelled to protect you from all your demons until you realize how utterly, truly amazing you are...Or I could love you and we could just be quiet together, not needing to say a word and knowing that whenever you need someone to sit with, I'll be there.My point is, there are a **million ways to love someone** and meet each others needs. If I love you, I want to do my best not only to meet my own needs, but yours as well. As wonderful as this all sounds some people are just not as honest as they think they were in the beginning and it sucks for everyone involved. Now, in my own perfect little world we would all be free to feel safe and be able to love without fear. But, life is a whole lot more complicated then that. With having a heart that only expands and doesn't close up...I have learned to be careful with my love. Not everybody wants a piece of my pie and it has taken a long time to figure that out. I thought everybody liked pie, I thought I had so many flavors that I could satisfy everybody and put them into a blissful food coma till the end of days...Turns out people are not always honest in what they want, whether it is the beginning of taking that first bite, or they're slice of pie is almost finished and they realized they ate to much. **The intent of the relationship with someone is just as important** then anything else. It is the fork to the pie...If your **intent changes,** that's ok...just let me know and if we need to renegotiate on how I can love you and how you can love me... that's okay, as long as I am **kept in the know.** For me, since my love is all consuming, it doesn't matter what my partner chooses in a relationship pathway. If they wanted to take it in a poly way, we could do that. If they wanted to take it in a open relationship type way, we could also do that. It doesn't matter as long as we **communicate on a constant basis.** How am I going to know what you need if you don't tell me? How are you going to know what I need if I don't tell you? We don't. Neither of us are mind readers and contrary to popular belief that's actually healthy. I rather talk to you or be able to come and talk to you rather then guessing and getting myself in trouble. Why get into a fight where feelings get hurt because no one talks to each other? It doesn't make sense right? But, people do it all the time to each other. I know that talking about communication is the last thing that anyone wants to read because so many people in bdsm have already shoved it down your throats as far as it could go!!! Believe me, there is a reason for that! If you want your journey in bdsm to be a healthy one, then communicate with every single partner or potential partner you may come across! It saves so much ridiculous amounts of heart ache.I have never been the jealous type. I think jealousy, stems from not being honest about your own wants in a relationship on both parts. The one who is getting cheated on, has not voiced their opinion on what is okay in the relationship and what isn't in the relationship to make them feel safe. The one who is cheating has not voiced there needs on how they would like to be treated as well. Its mis-communication at its worst. If I am not giving my lovers what they need, they will find it elsewhere. If they want to be with someone else, they will be. If they still want to be with me and add another, I am ok with that. All it means, is that we just have to renegotiate what our relationship means to each other when something changes.For me, **being in love with someone does not mean I need to have sex with them.** Nor, do they have to have sex with me. I still love them, I still want to spend time with them and I will still treat them in whatever way they want to be treated in the type of relationship we may have. **It doesn't mean my love is less.** It just means that even if the desire is there, I respect my partner and can love them in a million different ways then just a purely a sexual way. My needs will still be met...because I know in there own way they still love me and that is still valid. in my heart of hearts, I am still safe in that relationship. Our moments don't have any less value just because sex isn't involved. Intimacy in our relationship has just taken a different form that is still cherished just as much as physical contact.In saying all that, it doesn't mean I am on the constant look out for new partners. It just means for me, if love comes my way and I am in a place to accept it, it wont necessarily be ignored. Love comes in many forms as well. so it doesn't matter to me what gender you identify with or what orientation you feel bests suites you. **I fall in love with the soul, the mind and the heart. Not the thing that's carrying it all around.** All people want to do is **feel loved and be loved in return.** I try my best to live that out daily. Just as much as I love...loving people. I want to be loved too, with honesty about the intent , trust in intimacy, respect for each other and constant communication. I want my love to be cherished and honored just as much as everyone else and I try my best with the people I hold dear to my heart and expect the same in return...So, lets try to make this a little easier, ok?
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Oh, that's a hard one! I'm really into fire play and fire cupping as well as body worship/cock worship...I'm a babygirl, but I don't consider that a fetish. Also, I'm a huge masochist...Lately wooden implements seem to be a favorite of mine to get hit with. Also, breast slapping is such a turn on as well! oh and candle wax! Now that is fun!
I would have to say time, not having enough of it.
I think for myself, I would have to say I'm spiritually open. what that means for me is that, I'm not cutting out any options. I've had god-like or goddess-like experiences in different types of religion that I've explored. to say one way is the right way, I feel is ignorant to ones own experiences. Why limit yourself like that in anything? If I had to pick something though, I would say that I'm agnostic. If something is really up there, and is a know all be all type of figure, then how do we know what that is, who are we to say and force judgment and ways on people just because they believe differently then you? I don't think that's fair and I don't think we have the right to say it either. For a person who has experienced more than one type of godly experience in more then one religion, I wouldn't want someone to tell me I was wrong, neither should someone else who believes in one thing and has had they're own experiences as well.
So, I know it's not New Years or anything but since I have an upcoming possible move...I have decided to work on my character and who I am to become a better person. Not only for myself, but for my loves as well. Some of the things I put down are:No swearing-at all:) To be happy and content in silenceNow, I consider the first one to be a duty, and the second one to be a desire. My question is, what defines duty and desire?...how can you tell the difference?Also, what one would you consider more important, as well how do you find the balance between the two?
I was just curious to see if there were any other kinksters who delve into this fetish. I would love to hear experiences that you have had past or present. If you find it ritualistic at all or if there is a sense of spiritual fulfillment in it for you... I'll startWorship makes my mind still, it's pretty much the only thing that continuously makes me tranquil. I can get lost in my Sir's body. It is something( once I am fully at ease with the repetition of what I'm doing) I can completely submit too without hesitation. It is a very deep part of my submission because it symbols my depth and devotion to my partner. It resumbles deep trust and vulnerability to be that open to him. Body worship( more so cock worship) soothes me. It is a time for me to show my love how much I appreciate him in all ways. I let go when I worship, I can get fully consumed in him by worshipping his body that he has to pull me out of it...as strictly and firmly as possible. It would be safe to say that I have an addiction to my partners body...even though I do recognize the fact that their is a time and place for everything.For me it's the stolen moments of a kiss, the lingering touches....Um, this is really hard to explain...for me...I would say it continues to get more ritualistic as time passes and I could say that there is a spirituality in it. I could definitely say that there is a fulfillment like that for me, through body worship.I can't say I have fantasies about it because, it's a way in which I love, it's a part of how I love someone just as much as pain is.Anyways, I'll start rambling soon and eventually make no since so I'm going to stop...I've never really talked about body worship before and what it means to me...so, I hope it made since...
Leather squeaks against the chair, As I lift my ass to rest on your lap, A slow heave of thigh, Lips searching your cheeks, Grasping your face out of sheer fascination. It was you, Always you, They say that the heart Will never fully heal. I needed your kiss To slide into me, Tongue entangled. He struggled against the chains Wrapped around his biceps And his muscular thigh, I scaled you...
Added 28 Mar 2015 | Category Love Poems
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I think I may live with too many walls around me. The thought of him Still gives me butterflies... He lingers when I least expect it. Maybe I have lost myself? I have perfectly framed images In my mind of you, Faces of your love surround me But, my tears ... My tears are so real My heart feels When I think of you. No hiding, Just clear moments of once was. Maybe he is...
Added 02 Jan 2015 | Category Love Poems
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Thick froth is smeared on the upper lip of kittens pout, With Daddy looking down upon her. Her posture is too perfect Slender back with arches of hips to knead and grind. Her hair is tousled. his grasp, on her cheek is heartwarming Warm now, Two minutes ago Daddy slapped her... hard. His cock slowly rippling as his eyes comforted her smile. Soft whispers...
Added 29 Dec 2014 | Category Love Poems
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Within me.. you flow, like rivers upon rivers, My heart ascends to your heart And my breath relaxes As your vibrations ruffle through The sticky thorns that keep me from you. You know my secrets, My love, Always reaching me. Down cast eyes Always met by your warmth, Chest heaving in deep purrs As my soul surrenders to your guidance And your love. Lucky. Lucky is...
Added 06 Nov 2014 | Category Love Poems
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In my darkest hour... I wait for you to ravish me Under moonlight and stars, I want to be lost in the ecstasies Of our growling and thunder. Rolling in our sheets... Slow... Soft, Whispers. Escaping with profound needful passion, Reverberating through our beings. I want to shake with you, And fill up all your holes So when it rains... Your not cold anymore. I want to...
Added 06 Aug 2014 | Category Love Poems
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She awoke with a smile like she always does, Ready to greet the day She stretched... Manipulating her muscles to lift and rest, Lift and rest, She always wiggled her sinewy form When she stretched, You could see her energy flow Through her fingertips and down to her trained ballet toes Sitting upright, Hair a mess, The moonlight was bright in her room. Windows open and...
Added 05 Aug 2014 | Category Erotic Poems
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I wish I could breathe you in... Let your scent, Linger with me, always... So...I know my heart, Will never leave you, And my mind will let me stay. I'm scared, I will not lie to you, But my love Is stronger... It grows everyday My heart beats faster... And slowly, My mind starts to settle. As each kiss... Touches my face, As each kiss... ...
Added 06 Mar 2014 | Category Love Poems
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Spanking... Just for the sake of spanking... Always reminds me of who is in charge... Because one day, I chose to have it that way, Constant repetitive motion. The heavy slap, The deadly sound, The vulnerable exposed bum... and you. Wonderfully dominant you. Sometimes there needs no outcome, There needs no subspace, Or tiring partners at the end of a...
Added 05 Mar 2014 | Category Love Poems
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I want you inside of me... slick,wet and hard, crashing against my pelvis with such ferocity it stuns me, grabs ahold of me and makes me lift even higher to melt into your beautiful cock. I want your fierceness, your ripping need to fullfill your entire desire for my heat, my warmth to cradle your ravenous smoothness inside of me. I want your teeth to dig into me, in anger, ...
Added 15 Feb 2014 | Category Love Poems
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