Forum posts made by freakycactus

Topic Do women like to talk dirty to their man
Posted 22 Jun 2012 06:45

I like to talk dirty to those Indian Microsoft scammers. Makes them hang on longer, waste their money and they don't get what they want. haha.

They've rang me four times now, I'll try this next time!

Topic Second Chance
Posted 21 Jun 2012 15:41

There are times I would love to go back and kick my ex out the morning I buried my dad's ashes. It was an emotional day for me and I needed him to be there for me and instead, I ended up comforting him! He was upset because in the September, it was July, I'd be going back to uni to start second year, which would mean that I'd be 145 miles away from him. I stayed with him for another four years.

I understand that we learn as we live and if I changed my past I wouldn't be the person I am today, and I like me. At the same time, I wonder if I could have ended the relationship much sooner than I did and still learned the same lessons from it. Perhaps I needed to hit rock bottom to truly see how bad things were and to recognise how unhealthy and toxic the relationship had become. Besides, if I had ended it sooner, I wouldn't have grown so close to an old friend and we wouldn't be planning to travel around Australia next year.

No, I wouldn't change anything. There have been a lot of ups and downs, there have been some truly awful times I never want to relive but they've all led me here, and I'm excited to see what happens next.

Topic Would you ever fuck someone...
Posted 21 Jun 2012 12:53

Yes, more than once.

Topic What's making you happy right at this moment???
Posted 20 Jun 2012 15:18

Cuddles and chatter

Topic Interest in You v. Your Writing
Posted 19 Jun 2012 03:52

Apart from the first story I had published on Lush, there is a piece of me in every story and I know that some think I reveal too much of myself through my writing. As others have said, I don't reveal my whole self in my stories, I show certain pieces of me, like the nervous girl talking to herself and she's walking to meet the man who may become her Master, the girl who swears at herself out of frustration, or the horny girl who loves sex and likes a man to take control. I don't think that my stories reveal more of me than I'm willing to share with most people I talk to.

I'm getting pickier about who I'm willing to open myself up to. 90% of people who get in touch will find out very little about me, that special 10% find out more and maybe half of them will get to know more than one side of me.

When I write I have my starting position in mind, from there the story develops, usually not quite in the way I first imagined it. My stories have some basis in reality, there's some personal experience, embellishment, imagination and a bit of fantasy thrown in too. I write what I know, it's too much of a struggle to write something unknown, although, I may try it one day.

And yes, I too get the, 'I loved your story, I'd love to get to know you better' messages, it's the same as above, my response depends how it's been worded, what mood I'm in and what their profile is like.

Sorry this is so rushed I'm running late for work!

Topic The Rage Cage
Posted 18 Jun 2012 05:29

Stupid, bastarding, fucking AOL email WORK!!! You've made an hour job take 4 times as long because you won't let me on to my fucking emails! So fucking work you stupid, piece of shit!

Topic What made you first put pen to paper?
Posted 16 Jun 2012 09:42

I was incredibly depressed and my coping method wasn't the best so it was suggested that I keep a diary, the hope was that by writing my feelings down I'd stop taking them out on myself. I wasn't sold on the idea so I started writing poems instead, it helped but they weren't really poems, I was just venting and attempting to make them sort of rhyme.

I eventually started the diary, it helped but it wasn't enough. I don't remember how I moved to writing stories but I've found that writing things as a story, rather than a diary entry, helps me to process my emotions better.

Topic What Is He Like?
Posted 15 Jun 2012 13:47

Intelligent, funny, doesn't take himself or life too seriously, will challenge me, confident in himself, kind and someone who will love me for me - scars included.

My dream guy would be over 6', have long arms and big hands and would be dominant.

Ultimately, as long as he's a lovely guy and we have a connection, that's all that matters.

Topic Happy Birthday Gav!
Posted 14 Jun 2012 08:37

Happy birthday, have a brilliant day!

Topic Websites Will Be Forced To Identify Trolls
Posted 12 Jun 2012 13:49

Recently in the UK a football (soccer) player was found guilty of rape, during the trial and after his guilty verdict there were a lot of people on Twitter naming the victim. Over here there is meant to be anonymity for life for rape victims, they can waive this right if they choose to but she didn't. Yes, it's already illegal for them to name her, and we're told that appropriate action is being taken, but since this happened there seems to have been more of a push towards having people take responsibility for what they say and do online.

Twitter naming of victim

Topic What Is Your Favourite Dessert?
Posted 10 Jun 2012 08:12

Homemade apple crumble and custard - food of the gods.

Topic Describe yourself in one word
Posted 09 Jun 2012 14:51


Topic I am Bi-Polar/Manic Depressive. (I suffer from a mental illness called Cyclothymia.)
Posted 09 Jun 2012 14:40

I agree with CD, this is an incredibly brave and honest post.

I wish there was more that I could say other than, you are not alone. It might not always feel like it but as this thread shows, if you're feeling low then someone will be there for you.

Topic Songs That Remind You Of Him/Her
Posted 09 Jun 2012 08:39

There are lots to choose from, I've gone with the top three.

In the End by Linkin Park always makes me think of my first love. It was 'our song' without being 'our song'.

Everything by Lifehouse - my ex fiance, it was our song and we planned on having our first dance to it when we got married.

For Good from the Wicked soundtrack - The line, 'Because I knew you, I have been changed for good' makes me think of so many people I'm grateful to have, and to have had in my life.

Topic The Rage Cage
Posted 09 Jun 2012 08:29

Boobs - stop changing size and shape! I can't afford all the new underwear!

Topic Who Shouldn't You Have Slept With?
Posted 09 Jun 2012 07:01

The guy I lost my virginity to, I felt too mean to dump him a couple of days before his birthday so I had sex with him instead. Oh well, at least I didn't have to buy him a present.

Topic Your Last Lush Blog
Posted 08 Jun 2012 09:06

A simple, 'Thank you.' Hopefully with a fitting picture, like a pretty sunset.

Topic Are you a romantic?
Posted 05 Jun 2012 12:38

I most definitely am. I concur with MMonroe I have yet to find that man as well. I have begun to wonder if romance and man go together.

I was starting to wonder the same thing, I have a date on Sunday with a man who insisted on finding out my favourite meal so he can cook it for me :) I'm starting to feel hopeful again.

Topic Who here would describe themselves as "nerdy, curvy, and dirty"?
Posted 02 Jun 2012 02:03

I'm definitely curvy, I do consider myself to have a dirty mind - I know plenty of people who would agree with me there and there is a nerdy side, a love of stationery, lists, organisation and sci fi. So yes, I'm nerdy, curvy and dirty.

Topic The Zone
Posted 02 Jun 2012 01:44

Exactly. Sub-Space is what I was trying to describe. That is what my Mistress calls it too now that I think about it more clearly. I think the question is if a mistress/owner leaves her sub/pup in sub-space and does not bring him down slowly and there is a danger of crashing then can that be dangerous? It really
is a "zone" or trance rather than sleep.

Like I said, I've been brought out of it in a number of ways and sometimes I've had to come out of my sub space incredibly quickly, I've not suffered because of it. I also don't think it would be dangerous to be left in your sub space for a while.

Topic Twitter?
Posted 01 Jun 2012 16:34

What the fudge is an @ connect, please? And what are the hashtag thingies?

Don't worry if you can't explain it clearly, I wouldn't understand even if you did! sunny

When you log in to twitter look at the top left of the page, next to where it says home is @connect, click on it and it'll show you your interactions. You can see every time you've been mentioned in a tweet, this is a great way to keep track of conversation you're having with people through the tweets (you might not have any yet).

The hashtags are used to mark a keyword or words in a tweet. If you click on something like #fail you'll see all the other people who have used the same hashtag.

Have a look on the twitter help page (I loaded it to be able to type something coherent - it's past my bedtime), there's lots of helpful information there, it should answer most of your questions :)

Topic Twitter?
Posted 01 Jun 2012 16:03

You make perfect sense to someone who uses Twitter, haha.

That's great, especially as I'm trying to explain to someone who is new to it *sigh*

Topic Twitter?
Posted 01 Jun 2012 15:31

That's actually a "mention". A direct message is private, like a PM on Lush.

Ok, I got the name wrong. So other people can see it? Even better, that makes it more like writing on their wall!

The message will appear in their @connect too, so it's easier for them to find it. I might not be making much sense, it's getting late.

Topic Twitter?
Posted 01 Jun 2012 15:15

Thank you! On the normal bit where you... twit? Or is that a tweet?

Yes :) and yes, it's tweet

Topic "I'm Not Allowed To..."
Posted 01 Jun 2012 14:02

adendum: it's easy to apologize after the fact - truth is, you keep forgiving them, and they might even be sincere, but from my own experience, that apology means nothing. it took a stint in the ICU for me to finally wise up - don't let it go that far. is you're getting beat up because your Mistress cant control her anger, what happens when she REALLY loses it? don't wait around to find out.

Just to add to this that it gets easier to forgive them the more you do it, until you stop thinking and you automatically say the words, 'It's ok.'

Topic Twitter?
Posted 01 Jun 2012 08:39

I be following yooooooooooou. I think. confused5 It's not like Facebook, I don't know how to write on your wall. I don't think there are walls. Everybody can see everybody's bits, but everybody's bits seem... less. Or something.

The twitter equivalent would be a direct message, you put their name in e.g. @Maggie1Rascal then you type your message to them

Topic Why are you covering up your keister?
Posted 01 Jun 2012 08:19

I wear clothes that suit my figure, that's makes me feel confident in them and that confidence is part of what makes me look good. Some days that means hiding my bum and other days it's on show.

Topic Hair Removal
Posted 31 May 2012 15:24

You may want to read this thread, it links you to the amazon reviews

*Edit - sorry, I've just realised that you're asking about a completely different product, the link is worth reading though :)

Topic What about the simple gesture of holding hands? A well placed hand on your back as you walk?
Posted 31 May 2012 15:07

I was with someone who was incredibly needy and he needed constant contact whenever we were around other people, that was too much for me.

If done properly, I absolutely adore it.

Topic What Do You Think Your Readers Do?
Posted 31 May 2012 11:31

I used to read stories and would hunt through pages and pages of rubbish to find a decent story, then I found Lush and now I would classify the majority of those 'decent' stories as rubbish too. My boyfriend at the time encouraged me to join and write my own stories. I did join and I tried to write something but I couldn't finish a thought, I'd feel inspired and start writing, only to run out of steam and leave it, hoping to come back to it another time. I did that over and over again.

It took an intense chat with a friend before I was able to write a story, I only wrote that one because of his encouragement to do so. The first time I thought about the readers was when I submitted the story, I hoped they would like it and they did!

The next story was written with a particular person in mind, again, I didn't think of any other readers until I submitted it. Conversely, the second part to that story was only written because of the readers, the first part ended with a cliffhanger of sorts, I just didn't expect the second part to be so difficult to write. If it hadn't have been for the readers I would have left it half written and forgotten about it.

I've written a couple of stories since and neither were written with the readers in mind, it's too much pressure to write with them in mind. It's easier to just let your imagination come up with an initial idea and then watch the story appear in front of you as your fingers tap away at the keyboard.

Once it's been submitted I hope it will be published, once it's on the site I hope people will enjoy it. As for how they enjoy it? I don't give it too much thought.