About LASARDaddy



I explain below what my Avatar name means but some people are to ignorant to read. I got an email from one of them. He tells me I should give up on young girls and just, "...stick it up your own ass...". Ignorance at this level should not be allowed to breed back into our society.

The "Daddy" part has NOTHING to do with being a "Dom". I am not and never will be one. I'm am a Taoist and very much into not hurting anyone.


This is one of my favorite quotes. It expresses exactly how I feel about all women.

"To have her here in bed with me, breathing on me, her hair in my mouth — I count that something of a miracle."

Henry Miller

I really don't know what to write here. I've always been a very private person but I think it's time to change that, which is why I'm here. Something new and different. That's what keeps me young and beautiful. Right?

I am a gentleman and I never lie. I pretty much just tell it all up front and let everyone make up there own minds. If you like what you read and you think you can trust me, contact me. ALL of this is based on trust. Of course the anonymity allowed here makes this possible and tends to soften the initial worries. I'm just an old dude still trying to figure out what life is all about. I've done everything I could afford or had time to do so I've got a lot of It down pretty good, but there are a few wrinkles I'm still working on

I'm 74 now and my wife died the 9th of January 2015 and I was pretty crazy for months. I finally listened to my family and a close friend whose already been through losing her husband after 3 years together. I looked at my gun collection for a long time, but I finally decided leaving that mess for my kids would be absolutely wrong.

I don't want a funeral and may decide to be buried at sea. I was in the US Navy for 6 years. I would REALLY like my ashes launched into the sun, but that's pretty expensive. Maybe one of my kids will win the lottery. I gave my youngest son 15,000 or so Science Fiction books from my collection, many signed and first edition stuff, so maybe he'll feel guilty enough to do that. Nah, spend it on their families and think of me while enjoying it, that's much better.

I want a Wake when I die. I want all of my family, friends and enemy's to get as drunk as they want and tell raucous and bawdy lies about me all night, even if they are true. I want my friends and family to cry and laugh and just sit and think. I want my enemies to scream whatever they want to about me and know that I am sorry about whatever made them enemies. Maybe that'll help them change their minds about me. if anyone objects I'll come back and haunt their asses.

I want them to celebrate that I was here and, for whatever reason, remember me. I hope it's all good thoughts though.

I've wanted to write for years but got so busy with making a living for the family I just never forced myself to take the time. I'm an electrical engineer and I designed computers for 35 year or so. I "Was" an engineer, but I'm not sure I could get back into it now, they forced me to retire about 10 years ago, and I'm not sure I even want to. I did really enjoy it though and was a Digital Simulation expert and taught it for many years too.

In fact that's where the tag handle "LASARDaddy" comes from. The software I used for simulation was, still is actually, named LASAR which stands for "Logic Automated Stimulus And Response". A fancy way of saying, "Put ones and zeros in and read ones and zeros out". By analysis you can determine which of the millions of logic elements are not working correctly and fix it. I basically used a large computer to pretend to be another computer so it could be fixed if it failed.

I did this mostly for military computers in airplanes, helicopters, tanks, ships, etc But I did do several designs for commercial airplanes for Boeing and others. Used it to design telecom for several large suppliers of electronics to telephone companies. This is a marvelous design tool too because it told me where all of the bitchy little areas where the timing was off so that it wouldn't work. The military wants to be able to fix it so when the design worked and was fixable the design was complete and they had the tests to tell them what to fix.

I hard a store in a little town about 70 miles North of San Francisco and dealt in mineral specimens, Grateful Dead memorabilia and jewelry. My big hobbies now are faceting gemstones (I'm quite good at it), reading erotica (I'm quite good at that too) and writing, but I'm not very good at hat yet. I am writing a couple stories now which I'll submit shortly and I really hope I'm good at that too. I'll write about our early years because for 36 years she pretty much screwed my brains out, 5 to 9 times a week. God, I miss that. A lot.

I've always wanted to watch her with another woman and would have done anything to get her to do it. Of course I really wanted to join in too, but my main concern was her and I would have done exactly what they needed or wanted. An early boyfriend of hers tried to force her into swapping and when we first got together she told me, in VERY strong language, to forget even trying so I never pushed it. Once I figured what I had or, more accurately, what she was, I never wanted to lose her. That took about 2 weeks and I spent 44 years filling in all the details.

I've always been very interested in strong women. Not dominate, just strong. My cutesy way of saying it is, "Every woman should be able to stand toe to toe with God in a screaming go to hell fight, and not back down." My wife was like that and we've tried to raise our children like that. We succeeded at that and also with our grand children. Most women in the world are raised to be subservient.

I always looked at any interest a woman gave me as a "Gift". Any woman that ever had anything to do with me sexually I viewed like that. My wife gave me herself for 44 years and it's still the best gift I ever got. I'll write a few stories about that.

I traveled all over the world doing design work and I was sorely tempted to cheat many times, but I never did. That is just wrong in my book. Commitment has a very rigid meaning for me. I've been sorely tempted quite a few time in the last 6 or 7 years too. I got hit on in my store all the time and there were several that I'd absolutely love to climb into bed with, but I'm not ready to do it yet. I've written one story about one of my favorite customers which I will post and I'll probably do others but I have to make sure they will never recognize themselves if they ever see it.

Besides, they're my customers, repeat ones at that, and it's all about trust there too so that would be wrong unless they asked me. I'm 74 now so mostly I just live in my fantasies. I have an incredible female friend now and holding hands and kissing, just touching, is incredible.

I let social pressure prevent me from dating a black girl when I was in high school and that has always made me feel disappointed in myself. Of course that was in 1968 in Wagoner, Oklahoma and they were all a bunch of redneck assholes, so I give myself a little break. I did have a Chinese girlfriend when I was in the navy and have always had a very healthy interest in Asian women too. Actually I don't really care about things like skin color and hair, it's what's inside the package that's important. Hypertrichosis might be hard to deal with though.

I have 8 bones in my lower back, T11 to L6, fused so I don't stand up well and 3 in my neck, C3, C4 and C5. I've also had Prostate Cancer and they killed it with radiation, but they damaged a nerve too and I don't get full erections any more. That REALLY pisses me off. I'm already talking to my Urologist about the inflatable implants and will do that in the next year or 2 if I decide to try and recover my sex life. I am quite good with my hands and tongue , but I haven't had a lot of practice with it since I married. She never really liked receiving oral so I pretty much just ignored that too. She liked it "IN" and that was always great. I do like oral though and she loved giving it so that made up for a lot.

I'm not bitching here either and I do not feel sorry for myself. I've had a wonderful life with a marvelous woman. I still adore her just like I did 44 years ago when we started being "Us" and she was still sexy as hell to me when she died. I still see her in my mind just like she was when I decided I was in love with her.

I had one gay experience (a hand job for me) about 1965 and I didn't like it then and I still don't. Its not homophobia though because my oldest son is gay and I like being around him and most of his friends. There are a couple I don't like though because they grab at my butt.

One of my daughters writes Steam Punk and has 5 books published already. If you read that genre she is Heather Blackwood on Amazon. I proof read for her and I love doing it. I don't think I'll ask her to proof my stories though. At least not yet.

Thank you for reading this.

Paul Forster
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Windsor, California, United States
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21 Jun 2018 03:48
Women! Strong women that can stand toe to toe with God in a screaming, go to hell match and not back down. Not dominate, just strong. Like Zoe Saldana, Hillary Swank, Anne Bancroft and several others. I don't see women like most guys do because I feel that strength like a bright light and the stronger it is the more I like it.

Faceting gemstones, making jewelry, reading, talking with customers and more.
Favorite Books:
Pretty much any science fiction, all the Lincoln Rhyme, all the Dr. Kay Scarpetta, all the "In Death" series (J. D. Robb), and more than I can mention here. I collect.books, some signed originals and gave about 15,000 of them to my youngest son (shit, he's 42 now) because I can't take care of them any more.
Favorite Authors:
About a hundred or so. Jeffery Deaver, Stephen King, Jonathan Kellerman, J. D. Robb, Isaac Asimov, Robert Heinlein, Patricia Cornwell, and many more.
Favorite Movies:
Avatar (Zoe Saldana), Agnes of God (Anne Bancroft), Full Metal Jacket (I was there), Mash, Harry potter, and many, many more. If the actors are good and I can suspend my disbelief I like it. If I can't it really sucks. Think about your favorites.
Favourite TV Shows:
Educational mostly, all of those shows that discuss science, the universe, our bodies, construction, mechanical things, the mind/brain mix....
Favorite Music:
Celtic, I love pretty much anything with Pipes (I am a Scott, clan Gordon), good country (Johnny Cash, Willie Nelson and a lot more), folk music (Gordon Lightfoot, James Taylor, Serendipity Singers, Peter, Paul and Mary, Harry Chapin, etc.), Classical, and early rock and roll (Everly Brothers, Simon and Garfunkel, Neil Diamond, etc).

I don't like acid rock, hip hop, rap and others that are mostly cacophony to me.


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Topic: February Fast Approaches... Donald Trump is being taken seriously... Should we be TERRIFIED???
Posted: 02 Sep 2016 14:31

I stopped reading right after I got to part about watching the videos and not believing them. That alone told me all I need to know about the rest of your comment. When you CHOSE to disregard truth that doesn't fit with your preconceptions (the testimony regarding the REALITY of what was in her "private" emails) there is no point in discussing anything with you.

You're right, there is no point because it will have no effect on you. A closed mind. I find it interresting that in one breath you accuse me of ignoring the facts and in the next tell me you quit reading half-way through. How can you have an opinion on something you haven't read?

There is a difference between us though, I read all the articles and watched the videos then after thinking about it decided what I believed. Frequently I change my mind when I find new facts to support a change. You read something that went against what you believed and refused to consider any further data.

Which one of us chooses based on his preconceptions? Both is the correct answer. The difference is I think about what I chose to believe.

Topic: The person above you is a high school teacher. What do they teach?
Posted: 02 Sep 2016 14:13

Costume making and scene building.

Technical theater.

Topic: Would you meet up with a girl from this site?
Posted: 02 Sep 2016 14:12

Absolutely. Why not?

Would you meet a girl in a bar? Church? I don't see any difference, except you get to talk here before you commit to meeting. I think is as good an idea as eHarmony or any other valid dating site too. I met my current friend on-line.

Topic: Pregnant?
Posted: 02 Sep 2016 14:05

Very sexy. My wife and I both enjoyed it, but we would stop in the 8th month though, it gets a little problematic after that. It can induce contractions.

Topic: Do they know?
Posted: 02 Sep 2016 14:01


Topic: Do you have any lovers that you would give a gold medal to
Posted: 17 Aug 2016 15:30

Have? Yes, one that just found me. She cares for me and is giving me a good reason to keep on pushing on myself.

Had? Yes, several, some from many years ago and one that found me and kept me for 44 years of wonderful life. She died in January of 2015 and my life went away for a while.

In reality I've only had 6 "Lovers", but each was a wonderful thing and each would get a medal. I never screwed around, not my style, so for 44 years I was "Out Of The Game" so to speak. I am not anything but grateful for every one accepting me and what I was.<img src="/images/emoticons/love7.gif" alt="love7">

Topic: February Fast Approaches... Donald Trump is being taken seriously... Should we be TERRIFIED???
Posted: 17 Aug 2016 15:23

Did you even LOOK at ANY of the videos I posted here? And, as to Sanders, like I said, it's your right, but IF he were TRULY what you believe him to be... WOULD HE have meekly accepted a totally rigged convention?

Do you even understand how our political system works? Of course I watched videos and I don't believe them any more than I do the latest piece of shit posted by Jon Voit defending The Drumpf and telling us how wonderful, understanding, non-racist and non-mysoginistic he is.

You will NEVER be able to make a good choice based on one data point. The whole process is rigged and already decided and if you don't study it for a time you'll miss some very important points. I think they're getting careless though and letting more be seen that has been in the past. You've implied that in several of your posts.

It's about listening to what was said and extracting the MEANING from it, not just the words. I firmly believe the majority of Americans never bother to think, it takes to much effort. Instead they let some religious butt wipe who just told them he "Knows The Mind Of God" and they quiver like jelly and give him money. Politics works the same way.

Who do you think is so "Good", or whatever, they can survive the 1%ers telling them what to do? What makes you think those same people will ALLOW any radical change to the system? The last time I think they kind of lost was when we stopped the Vietnam war. I had the chance to be part of that. Then The Patriot Act came along and stopped our ability to do it again.

I like Sanders ideas and comments about what it'll take to make America what I'd think of as Greater, were already Great. We're letting assholes like our republican senators and representatives push us into a society that hates differences. I like the differences, it's where the flavor and texture of life is. All being the same is a bland diet of crap.

Just another opinion.<img src="/images/emoticons/my2cents.gif" alt="My 2 cents"> <img src="/images/emoticons/my2cents.gif" alt="My 2 cents"> in made it 4 cents because it's a strong opinion.

Topic: Irregular verbs
Posted: 17 Aug 2016 14:52

A gerund is a verb with ing at the end that acts as a noun.


Smoking is bad for you.

In this example the verb "smoke" has ing at the end and acts as the subject of the clause and is therefore a noun.

Running is good exercise.

Sucking on tits makes me happy.

Thank you! I have very vivid memories of being tied up and tortured to get me to diagram a sentence. Not true, but my English teachers would shake their heads and walk away at my efforts. Mostly I just memorize what it should be. One told me once she wasn't sure what would happen to me if I didn't understand English better.

Now I'm trying to learn how to write stories people want to read. My first effort at a memoir my kids want was so bad I threw up. Since then I've learned a lot and I'm getting ready to try again. <img src="/images/emoticons/eusa_wall.gif" alt="Brick wall">

Topic: Contact after date
Posted: 17 Aug 2016 14:41

First date went well. Or I thought, now 2 days later and no contact. What's the rule of thumb ? Should I move on ?

Move on and don't look back. If he's not interested enough to send a thank you he's probably not for you. You have expressed a concern about "No Contact" and that tells me you'd like a thank you or some acknowledgement you exist and he had a good time.

I'm an old fart though and was brought up in a different time. My mommy taught me that that's what a gentleman does.<img src="/images/emoticons/my2cents.gif" alt="My 2 cents">

Topic: Do people believe in Destiny?
Posted: 17 Aug 2016 14:35

I do not believe in destiny, it implies I have no control over my life. Love at first sight? Yeah I do, it's what happened to me and gave me 44 years of beautiful life. Lots of problems, but nothing that couldn't be worked out.

I don't believe in luck either because it implies that some can control their fate with wishes and wants. Pasquale said, "Chance favors only the prepared mind." I believe that so I've been preparing my mind for years. I've found many of those favors, but missed many too, I'm not sure what the odds are though. Pretty much I believe it's all a crap-shoot, just chance taking another swing at us.

Being a Taost helps with that, it helps me "Think."<img src="/images/emoticons/my2cents.gif" alt="My 2 cents">

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Mother And Child

My breathing finally slowed to the point where I could talk again. I had been huffing, like a lion right after a kill, I was so wound up, my mouth wide open and working hard on getting enough air. I had just had an orgasm that was a mind-bender and it took me several minutes to slow down enough to say, "I think that was the best thing that's ever happened to me. I love you beyond words....

Added 30 Aug 2014 | Category Love Stories | Votes 7 | Avg Score 5 | Views 5,122 | 5 Comments


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Added 18 Aug 2014 | Category Love Stories | Votes 8 | Avg Score 5 | Views 2,455 | 7 Comments

Another Honeymoon

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Added 17 Aug 2014 | Category Love Stories | Votes 11 | Avg Score 5 | Views 3,230 | 6 Comments

My Waitress

Two Years Ago ***** Lisa was sitting across from me eating Paige's steak while we talked. When she laid her fork down and took a sip of wine, I heard a soft sound, a thunk. When I felt her bare foot touch my right knee I knew it had been her shoe. She wiggled her toes and pushed her foot up, stroking my leg and making me very hard as she moved it under my kilt. I've worn nothing but a...

Added 06 Aug 2014 | Category Love Stories | Votes 10 | Avg Score 5 | Views 6,822 | 10 Comments

My Crazy Doctor

The redhead's name is Margot Stein and her appointment was in twenty minutes, but right then I was kind of occupied with the doctor, Dr. Ruth Marris. She was in the stirrups with me naked on the roll-around stool and my mouth sucking on her clit as I worked two fingers in and out of her. I can tell the stool was designed by a male gynecologist. I had a slim vibrating dildo in her butt, too,...

Added 02 Aug 2014 | Category Love Stories | Votes 12 | Avg Score 4.92 | Views 11,152 | 10 Comments

A Customer

"Hi, how are you tonight?" It startled the hell out of me and I jumped, then I heard a female giggle. When I turned I saw that she was a repeat customer but I couldn't remember her name. I have a lot of repeat customers. She bought collectable minerals for her brother and I've met him, Dave, he's a nice guy. Why could I remember his? She's sexy as hell, not him. She's tall, five-ten...

Added 01 Jul 2014 | Category Mature | Votes 11 | Avg Score 5 | Views 14,830 | 10 Comments

The 35th Generation

What the hell was that? My eyes snapped open and an intense white light was coming out of the bathroom. I threw my hands up and tried to block it, it was so bright it hurt. I thought it was coming from the bathroom, but it didn't look like what I had seen last night as I fell asleep. Where was the mirror? A large, gold framed mirror had been over the sink for eight years. My wife had picked...

Added 10 Jun 2014 | Category Supernatural | Votes 6 | Avg Score 4.83 | Views 3,610 | 6 Comments

The Geologist

My name is Alicia. I'm a geologist and I'm here in Colorado to find a new pocket of Rhodochrosite. Also a Microcline called Amazonite, a beautiful green and white mineral, and gold, silver or anything else of commercial value. I head the Geology Masters program at Stanford, in California, but I keep my eyes open for everything, even on a personal expedition like this. One of my...

Added 30 May 2014 | Category Lesbian | Votes 3 | Avg Score 4.67 | Views 7,341 | 4 Comments

Our Mantra Was Some Day, Mya made it come true, 3.

 I wrote a previous story about meeting someone from Lush. I got to thinking, 'What if it hadn't happened that way?' All of them stand alone but the shift in settings is fun. I did use some personalities that I know quite well. I hope you enjoy this and I plan to write about a few more ways. If you have some neat ideas send them to me, I am interested. I won't do violent ones and I'll give...

Added 08 May 2014 | Category Love Stories | Votes 4 | Avg Score 5 | Views 2,258 | 6 Comments

Her name was Lieda, what a name for a cat

It started with wanting some of the worlds best frogs legs. It ended with even better legs and me being a different, I like to think better, man. I still love her, way down inside where I keep it hidden, with respect, not from any kind of shame. I've never told this story before because I've always been a very private person but I think it's time. I'll let my kids read it one day so they can...

Added 01 Apr 2014 | Category Mature | Votes 9 | Avg Score 4.67 | Views 8,882 | 8 Comments

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