About Metilda


I live to write. I have a wide variety of interests and at some point they'll all surface in my stories.

I have removed a large number of stories from Lush in order to set up distribution of such works through publication channels for ebooks. Sorry Or not sorry. My active Erotica pen name is Lilith Lo. I also write as Sirin Love (for Romance Erotica).

If you are a Lust Gold member you will have access to my fuller pieces in The Vault.

Answers to Questions I'm often asked:
*Yes, my avatar is me
*I started writing because I became frustrated with a lack of erotica stories I wanted to read.
*I continue to write because I get a thrill out of penning my sexually charged thoughts on paper and sharing them with others.
*No, I'm not interested in real life relationships. (No webcam or cellphone)
*Nothing puts me off or disgusts me, some things just interest me more than others. I favor hardcore and fetish elements the most when I read.

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26 May 2017 13:47
Writing, reading erotica. Crafting jewelry, attending college and a whole bunch of other Jill of all Trades stuff.
Favorite Books:
Erotica: Addicted, Power Play, Restraint, Control (all by Stein), Otherwise Alone, Surviving Rain (Shay Savage). Non erotica: For the Love of Stones (Tobias Hill), The Art of War (by Machiavelli).
Favorite Authors:
Charlotte Stein, Tobias Hill, Machiavelli, Shay Savage
Favorite Music:
I listen to everything from Aerosmith to Enya and Puscifer to Rob Zombie. . .I'm not picky about genres - it just depends on what mood I'm in at the moment. I do passionately love Type O Negative, though. RIP Peter. Lately music from The Devil's Carnival has been in my changer.


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Topic: Best Porn movie. That's got a little bit of plot.
Posted: 03 May 2017 19:31

Best Porn movie. That's got a plot. And some acting Like a normal movie. <img src="/forum/images/emoticons/director.gif" alt="director">

Babysitting the Baumgartner's . . . it's based on a story written by Selena Kitt by the same name. Kay Brandt (female pornographer) produced it. Brandt has also produced Cherry based on her own published book.

Hot stuff.

Topic: CUM Color
Posted: 03 May 2017 19:28

White is inviting and natural... no colors needed other than natural.

Topic: Pussy smell
Posted: 27 Apr 2017 14:22

She should be the one to research that, ask questions, and sort that out.

Topic: How do I get attention to a thread ?
Posted: 23 Apr 2017 15:28

Let old threads die.

Let go, move on . . . greener pastures and all that.

Topic: your fingers or your vibrator?
Posted: 19 Apr 2017 15:27

my fingers are a quick, handy means to an end but it's a small orgasm that doesn't really wow me. I don't even own a vibrator anymore, they're a tad annoying, to be honest.

Topic: How Lack Of Touch Is Destroying Men
Posted: 17 Apr 2017 16:45

Lack Of Touch

I'm a touchy-feely person, but not everyone can handle touch. I've experienced many of these fears myself. When hugging a female friend, I'm always worried they'll think I've hugged too long for a cheap thrill. Which is never actually the case. My teenage son is very touch averse, especially from his dad. Even though in his early life I doted on him and hugged, touched, and kissed him. We held hands many times while in stores or whatever. That ended in grade school for him. My daughter, on the other hand, is 10 and she still LOVES holding daddy's hand. She's all about hugs and stuff. Walking into a store or church or anywhere, her hand instinctively reaches for mine. Every. Single. Time. I love it!

In a past life when I was a massage therapist, men have a much tougher time getting clients. Dudes won't go to a guy because they're freaked out by another dude rubbing on their nearly or totally naked body. Women are way more likely to see a male therapist, but still many women are fearful of the LMT being creepy and crossing the line. Still, others would get a massage while still wearing their bra, which provides them with a very inferior experience.

I think it's interesting that you bring up the necessity of physical contact... and go straight to massage as a reference as if that's a common thing to do.

A lot of people - men and women - are very uncomfortable with the idea of a full-body massage. I would not put that in the same boat as casual touch or comforting touch.

Someone can be very comfortable with casual touch but not want a massage... and I think there might be different reasons as to why a more extreme things like a full-body massage puts people off. It requires the person to be VERY vulnerable . . . which is something some people simply don't handle at all, clothed or un-clothed.

You've pretty much hit the nail on the head with this. Over the past few decades, and certainly since the 80s, there's been a backlash against 'excessive' masculinity which sees all men as potential rapists and predators - not from women in general, per se, but from the media. We see it here in the UK, where guys often won't rush to help an obvious girl in distress, or be in the car alone with a strange woman, because the potential is there for someone to see something innocent as something deviant and cry foul. The result is that men often feel they have to 'back off' and reign in their emotions - the irony being that most women would prefer men to be more open and expressive.
Yet another hang-up from the 80s, I suspect - although definitely more an Anglosphere issue (USA / UK / Australia / Canada) than anywhere else. In Europe, from my experience - and certainly among the southern Mediterranean countries like France, Italy, Spain and Greece - men are fair more at ease touching other men. It's a pity really, because in these heady days of technology and world communication we seem to have lost the art of personal interaction - and body language is as much a part of this as spoken words.

I'm not sure if it's masculine OR the 80's so much as a clusterfuck of social norms that have hailed from various pathways in our history.

My father, for example, is a religious leader and his parents raised him in a faith that didn't believe in touching. No hugs. No cuddles. No touching, not even in a time of grief where most people even these days would hug others without question. The first woman that ever touched him wasn't even his mother, but my mom when they were teenagers (18 and dating). His first affectionate form of contact was a hug.

And something he struggled with wasn't masculinity (he's a rather effeminate man and couldn't care less what people have to say about that) . . . but that he's a creep for the compulsion to comfort others, physically (like I said, he's a religious leader).

So in the US especially (not sure about other places) you have generations of people raised with those kind of weird upbringing values. He was born in the 50's - long before the 80's. I think what you're pointing to just touches on the real origin of these things. Perhaps it culminated in 'masculinity' and became more studied or noted in the 80's? But that's certainly not the starting point.

Topic: Water-gasm - Would you find it sexy?
Posted: 17 Apr 2017 16:25

It would strongly depend on the guy, his appearance, the setting he's in - all these things.

The idea of it happening itself is meh . . . it's all that other stuff that creates an atmosphere of sexiness and intrigue.

Topic: Feminine Squirting: Can we get a "heads-up" on that?
Posted: 17 Apr 2017 16:23

Well on one hand it's somewhat reasonable - women request that men let them know if they're going to come during oral, for example.

But with men it's a given "I will come and I will ejaculate" - for women, most women who experience it, it's not experienced enough to know it'll happen. It either happens or it doesn't. Crap shoot. There is no 'warning' ahead of time.

And since it's so rare (I've experienced it a few times in the last 15 years with my husband), how can you 'warn' against it? I'm not even sure how it happens... and I sort of am glad though he seems to prefer it actually DO happen (I don't get it - he thinks it's cool... or something).

Topic: Feminine Squirting: Can we get a "heads-up" on that?
Posted: 16 Apr 2017 20:49

In my life, I've only encountered two women who squirted (copiously) when they came, and neither of them forewarned me about it. The first was in my mouth, in her house on her bed, and while it surprised me, it was not at all unpleasant - it was awesome. At first I thought she had peed, and even though I'd never tasted urine, it didn't taste like what urine SMELLS like (I have since learned more about it, including the fact that it is NOT pee.

The second time was at my house, first sex with an out-of-town internet hookup, and she squirted when she came while I was inside her. It gushed out all over my light colored comforter and it was ruined - no matter how I washed it, there was always the outline of the huge wet stain. Of course, I took it in stride, not letting it put a "damper" on the fun we were having, but afterwards, I was a little perturbed. If given a simple warning, I could have removed the comforter or had sex on a raincoat or something.

So ladies: Is there some reason why a woman wouldn't tell me up front that there's literally a flood coming? Is it embarrassing, or would you feel that it might be off-putting? I'm sure many women do give a heads-up that it's likely to happen, but the two women I've had it happen with, told me nothing (and I totally would NOT have kicked them out of bed for telling me).

A lot of people don't seem to know it'll happen. It's not common, for one. On top of that, for those that do experience it, it's not routine enough to expect it.

Some women are humiliated by it and just cringe, hoping it'll never happen. Others simply have no clue it's even a thing that women can experience and likely are shocked - horrified - if it happens. I was that first time it happened to me... I was so humiliated and terrified I refused to have sex for a very very long time. (That was before I discovered Lushstories and before I learned it wasn't as freakish as I thought. I believed there was something seriously wrong with me and refused to risk it happening again.)

So... lesson learned, perhaps? If you're worried about things like comforters getting stains that won't wash out - don't fuck on it. Bodily fluids of normal amounts - yours and hers - can and do stain.

Topic: Who was your TV/Movie crush when you were younger?
Posted: 16 Apr 2017 19:19


God yes!

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Stories Published By Metilda All Stories »

Suckled: Nature's Bounty

Chapter 1   I saw the advertisement in the classified section of the newspaper while I was riding the Metro. The page was folded at a strange angle, crumpled in the man's hand who sat oblivious to my prying eyes. It read: Wanted: adult wet nurse. It brought to mind things I hadn't thought of in years, long forgotten fantasies I used to entertain when I was far more inexperienced in life:...

Added 30 Jan 2016 | Category Fetish | Votes 20 | Avg Score 4.94 | Views 11,151 | 17 Comments

Recommended Read Dirty Girl Interrupted

Chapter 1 When it comes to objects of my affection what I truly lust for—my thing, my fetish I suppose I should say—is glass. Glass. Solid, smooth, textured, ribbed—cold or hot. Glass girl, all the way. Needless to say, when I go shopping for toys, I don’t go to the outrageously priced, hole in the wall adult store in the next town over. I’m a thrifty spender. There’s a twisted thrill...

Added 21 Sep 2015 | Category College Sex | Votes 28 | Avg Score 4.96 | Views 29,746 | 21 Comments

Recommended Read Bambi's Up To Bat

Anxious to get on the road again, Bambi bounced on the balls of her feet, her lips pursing to blow another bubble. Two, three inches around—and then it suddenly popped, sticking to her chin. Tamela stood there, a finger poised where the pink bubble had been. “Bus is full. Coach says we have to ride with the boys.” Bambi flicked her tongue, swiping the gum back into her mouth. “Sounds...

Added 05 Aug 2015 | Category Fetish | Votes 17 | Avg Score 4.94 | Views 10,307 | 10 Comments

Taboo Lust

Chapter 1 I stayed a few steps behind Mom as we trudged into Church. The wind had kicked up since we left the house and my ears had begun to burn, my knees had gone a bit numb quite some time ago. Twice she turned to gripe at me for going too slow but I ignored her—I was looking for Brian. Our parents married when I was only 10. Years later, much to my dismay, they divorced. Since...

Added 23 Jun 2015 | Category Taboo | Votes 33 | Avg Score 4.94 | Views 41,482 | 20 Comments

Recommended Read The Devil's Undertones

I make my way to the Carnack Building with two minutes to spare. With ten minutes between classes I cannot fathom how this is going to work. First days are always stressful, and when I finally find room 294 I’m sweating and breathless. I barge in, hair a mangled mess, clothes disheveled, and the entire class looks at me. Why can’t the door be in the back of the room, I think to myself as I...

Added 22 May 2013 | Category Quickie Sex | Votes 27 | Avg Score 4.88 | Views 9,750 | 15 Comments

Between Midnight and Noon

Eight months. Seven days. Sixteen hours. It’s been so long since my wife last told me she loved me and then kissed me goodbye. How was I to know that one kiss would be the last kiss, the last caress? How many times would I think of her and seek her memory out in this way? “More coffee?” The waitress comes to stand in front of me, carafe in her hand. I consider that she...

Added 07 Jun 2014 | Category Straight Sex | Votes 15 | Avg Score 4.93 | Views 4,684 | 15 Comments

Viette - Chapter 1

All he had to do was ask her to consent and she would be his . . . and she hated herself for it. Passion, affection—she shouldn’t crave such things. But yet, on her hands and knees, fingers raw from vigorous scrubbing, her body ached to be touched. She was aware of every movement he made, every breath he took, his eyes on her as she worked. “Viette?” Her heart stuttered at the sound of...

Added 11 Apr 2015 | Category Novels | Votes 6 | Avg Score 5 | Views 1,840 | 7 Comments

There's Something

Something draws me to the photograph of him, It’s so wrong for me to look, But I do, Over and over again. There is something in the way he is poised, Casual, against the cushions of the sofa. Black jeans, White shirt. It’s the jacket, though,  And the buckle on his belt,  - Undone. The thrust of his hips,  The way his arm reaches overhead,  These are where my eye wanders,  Over and...

Added 18 Apr 2013 | Category Love Poems | Votes 6 | Avg Score 4.67 | Views 1,111 | 5 Comments

The Rain Came

The hillside was torched by a lick of flame. Angry fire burned wildly, devouring. Timbers cracked, the trees split, all was consumed. Heaven sent the rain, quenched the devil’s hand. Then the rain faded, leaving a man behind. He was cold, I gave him shelter. He was hungry, I gave him food. He was broken, I cured his wounds. Eyes dark, rich, and golden – like aged brass coins. Scattered...

Added 27 Jun 2013 | Category Love Poems | Votes 16 | Avg Score 4.94 | Views 1,179 | 12 Comments

Viette - Chapter 32

In the madness that followed—the guards rushing in and out, the doctor being summoned—Viette slipped away. No one noticed her departure, not even her Keeper. She moved in a strange fog—almost floating as she went—her heart having darkened to a shade of night. On the way to Aust's room she followed the narrow servant passageways that wound through the castle. He’s not dead, she...

Added 15 Jun 2015 | Category Novels | Votes 6 | Avg Score 5 | Views 708 | 5 Comments

Stories Coauthored By Metilda

A Run in With The Law

Randy and I have been dating for several months. Nearing the end of our college semester, Randy's parents took an impromptu trip out of town. With the house, and the weekend, free, we wasted no time getting together. Passion rises, as do other things, but then the lights from a car in the driveway streak through the Venetian blinds. With only a minute to spare, Randy and I gather our clothing...

Added 20 Jun 2014 | Category Humor | Votes 15 | Avg Score 5 | Views 9,755 | 10 Comments

eBooks Published By Metilda

Suckled: Nature's Bounty
Suckled: Nature's Bounty

Breanne lives a dull, single life working as an office clerk. That is until she sees a job listing in the newspaper as a Nature's Bounty Nurse. A phone call and an intimate doctor's appointment later, she's on her way to dedicating herself to a life of adult nursing for a wealthy Japanese...

The Devil's Undertones: An Unholy Love Story
The Devil's Undertones: An Unholy Love Story

On the first day of Latin Class Lara finds herself quickly entangled with her professor. A relationship blooms, spirals and spins with secret rendezvous under the cover of little white lies. It's his voice, his good looks, and that commanding presence that draws her in deeper. What Lara doesn't...

Viette: A Story of Love and Hate
Viette: A Story of Love and Hate

Stripped of her nobility and taken as a war prize, Viette is determined to take control of her life at all costs even if it means dominating a King to do so. As a servant, however, she's in no such position . . . or is she? King Leonin of Whitmore has his sights set on Viette for things beyond...

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