About PlayWithMyYoyo


Curious by nature
So, curious...
Are You, too, Ma'am?

(As a term of endearment i use Ma'am, and as a sign of respect and not a little bit of submissive acceptance. If it bothers You, please let me know. i'm just trying to be good.)

Updates sprinkled throughout, i'm fairly verbose, as You'd know if we've chatted, and tend to ramble... here in my profile... i get to blather on and on...

Thank You, to the Ladies who allow me my kinks... Helping You to scratch the curious interests and desires You have, while Allowing a good-girl pleasing efforts for You. i appreciate the exchanges with You, in return for Your Time, Attention, and what ever Affection i can get for giving-in (Which is the most satisfying desire i seem to have).

Perhaps that paragraph above explains what i value about the process of growing through exploring the site here... and my thoughts, feelings, behaviors, through interacting with all the Ladies i've met and found chemistry with, developed friendships to what ever extent, and for how long and involved, or just following Ladies, like i tend to do everyday, where ever i am...

Most Recent update 1/2018: Unemployed, in a desperate job search, while taking a break i found an old favorite video link, i wanted to share. Have spent some time also getting better (more thorough i guess) Vedanta instruction, than what i got from back in college. i had thought i had misunderstood things - However - it turns out there were several teachings and help understanding i had not received before, things kept back to keep people following instead of finally finding the Self. Just common ordinary every-day Awareness. "I am Awareness, whole and complete, pure and perfect..." No longer chasing spiritual experiences anymore, Karma Yoga approach to life now.

Penny and Emily

it's not perfect for what I prefer, but it's nice. i don't tend to get as assertive as the girl in here, but, i used to get there when denied and pressed, or when i fell deep into sub-space for Her. Or performing for a Lady who was curious but didn't have any D/s experience, to show Her how i'd like Her to act with me.

It's similar to how Dr. Paula coached me to Domme Her, so i could understand what She got out of our relationship and to show Her what i wanted from Her as well.

Video link: about 48 minutes

Thanks, Love, sue. Bye for now.

Older Update: I moved out from my folks, so more privacy but a little more lonely. I got a promotion, so i'm not still working 3 part-time jobs.
Oh, and though I have more free time when i'm home alone now, I broke my laptop when I moved, so I can only get on here with my tablet... so that's frustrating and too slow... I was able to afford to get a different computer - yea for me...

i took this test, and since i was in a position of admitting things - i realized that even though i don't think about it i am who i am and like what i like...


Submissive by nature as well, however, i was trained in college by Dr. Paula, one of my Psych professors as her sub, and later after i moved in with her, she coached me to Domme her. i didn't realize at the time how rare our relationship was, being young and naive... So i "let" her move out east for a tenured position.

Now i miss my position with Her.

Now, on with the show...
i'm a girl, i like being a girl, a child, but also just 4' 9" so shrugs i'm still only as tall as when i was "just" a girl. Now i don't feel like i'm 'just' anything i'm pretty awesome and accept who i am...

Oh, i had a head-injury when i was young, part of the reason i'm so short... short-term memory problems. One of the reasons i like the Chat is that i can follow conversation refer to context is so helpful to me - i tend to get lost a lot in face to face communication. And to admit that i get easily distracted when talking with Ladies... one deals with the cards one's been dealt though, huh?


i have desires, they're not fetishes, as i don't need anything in particular
Don't need to play out my "mommy" issues with every Lady i see, would like to see, wonder about seeing, want to see, want her to see me, is she looking at me?... and so on... You get it don't You Ma'am?

I've got issues, so I'm dealing with them as best as i can... Could you help me be a good-girl for You, Ma'am?

My fortune cookie said...
"You have the capacity to learn from your mistakes. You will learn a lot today." [- In bed...]

Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway.

To reconcile the illogical conflict inherent, when humans interact emotionally with one another

First things first, I'm a very short redhead, 4' 9" but i tell people i'm 4' 10 so i don't need a car seat... ;-D

i am submissive by nature, i enjoy switching (sometimes though it takes the right Lady and situation, usually easier when i'm in sub-space.

i like to, cyber, and role-play a nice detailed pleasurably developed scene played leisurely.

I should put in this caveat - i'm trying to learn to play leisurely... i was trained to react 'frantically' so i need to learn and adapt to condition myself to respond differently for Ladies who aren't so comfy with how my frantic response can manifest.

Let me know if You have any ideas or preferences, one of my fondest desires is to be found to be pleasing for the Ladies i get the chance to know, and spend time with.

They call me quiet
but i'm a Riot!
i don't need fixing
i'm not sad - that might be melancholy
and i like minor tonal music, atonal too... but lyrics... yes
though classical orchestral as well
INFP Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Percieving...
maybe a bit dis-associative, but i'm ok with that...
maybe i'm not a bunny, but a kitty - cause i'm not afraid of Cougars, i call them Ma'am...
i purr like a kitten that's lost her mittens, and i begin to cry They roar like Mommy Cougars...

You don't need no stinking badgers...
Maybe i don't want to be found
but subtle use of rhythm makes me squeal...

Enough for now... again

A spirit of Ennui has possessed me... More rantings, wanting more...

yes, me, wanting more
Yeah, You know who You are!

i'm a bad girl, and that's alright with me...
if you need an alibi, i'm your girl, We were together -
She used me all night long...
What's the fun in playing it safe?
Wouldn't You rather i misbehave?

i'm a bad girl, that's why we get along
Can't make excuses for anything i'm doing wrong

i like it in the wet patch
in the middle of the bed
feeling pretty
such a good girl
You make me make those noises
So mean, you make me scream

it's really not fair,
and that's okay
with us
but i don't want to be the only one
making all the noise...

I love penetration, just without a guy attached
A Lady with a Strappy... oh my!
So it wasn't my idea, what you gonna offer now?

Ok... now to continue...
I have Mommy issues, and they play out with 'older' (Mature) women, (Usually more assertive). So let me know if that bothers you, Ma'am. It's not like a fetish that i can't live without. I enjoy egalitarian relationships, as well as the give and take of D/s, as i'm comfy being a switch. And I'll try to behave... Unless you'd rather have me behave otherwise...

I like to be "a good-girl" for Lady's who want specific behaviors from me. But, that does not necessarily mean, i'm being good... We can, however be epic when i'm being perfectly bad... in just the right way, with the right Lady, at the right time, place and situation... it's fun finding that
- shrugs - just ask, or show and tell, or just take me in hand.

grab my attention or grab my yoyo, slip Your finger in the loop, and palm me, keep me on a string, make me do tricks for You. Rock the Cradle... Around the World... Walk the puppy.

Put me to Sleep, and make me wake up in the wet spot, in the middle of Your bed... or under You

Recent/current musings...

i used to revel in breaking my mom's rules and obligations...
Just as i didn't ascribe to classes in college that tried to make me feel like a victim:
i refuse
Lesbian ethics is a framework for action. It emphasizes that through examining and questioning the foundation of patriarchal oppression and how it permeates every aspect of social interaction, one discovers that it is possible to engender individual moral agency and integrity that exists outside of it. Lesbian ethics therefore seeks to generate ways in which lesbians can weave a different locus of value, one where lesbian choices, actions, and reactions lead away from the path of oppression, and one where lesbians become an energy field capable of resisting oppression.

i accept everyone as individuals - as an unlived me... co-equal just not my road to travel.

Do me a favor, Ma'am, if You'd Please and Thank You? Just grab a hand full of my ass, while cupping one of my breasts, then kiss me hard, taking my breath away. Ahh, THAT feels right...

Granting Lady's access to me, my body, mind and spirit gives me joy and strength, because i can enjoy my position as child in the Mother and Child Archetype (See recent note down in Favorite Authors on my musings about that...)

- it's about me, and my choices, desires etc... i didn't choose them, none of us do. Searching for a relationship, but not an asymmetrical power dynamic, rather an egalitarian context.

i Know: less than i've forgotten...

i've learned: i can be a switch, and I've been dealing with my life as: a "good-girl" with mommy issues, all my life.

I knew from a very young age that I liked my girlfriends more than they liked me. Or differently than they liked me, they definitely didn't like me the way I wanted them too.

Nor would they let me like them the way I wanted to like them...

except for Kelly, but then i was forbidden from seeing her anymore...

Then i got attached to their mom's... and that was enough for a while, worshiping from afar.

I feel: i will always belong a bit to three Lady's from my life.
So, my inner sub (i) only have about a quarter of myself available to share.
I told a professor some of my inner feelings, and she said, among other things.
"Still waters run deep."

{ The following is convoluted, but that's cause - Reasons...}
That, and a lot of other things I didn't understand at the time, partly because She (Dr. Paula) was seducing me after grading the exam i'd just finished in her office, late at night, after Her course was over, and She submitted my grades, and taught me what new pleasures there were in submitting to my desires to be a good-girl for a Lady who knew what, and how she wanted me, and was more than willing (it was Her desire) to help me learn to give in to what i desired most, not to Her, (nor any one in particular) but to my desires - what a wicked, wonderful, experience that has been...

I Saw: Luckily enough, a neighbor Lady, and i caught her eye too. She taught me that it pays - to be a "Good-Girl" for a "Nice, Older, Lady" and that we could count on each other. Her to get what She wanted from me, and i from Her... and later in college, how to get more of what i needed/wanted - if i'd only give in to my desire to get what i really wanted from Them.

[Spoiler alert - What i really desire] Time, Attention, Affection, Appreciation, a little "after-care"... From a Mature Lady with a bit of an edge or Possessive/Assertiveness...

other senses tingle to be elucidated upon

more to cum...

I meditate and do distance energy work (reiki), I make note of that because I truly feel that there is a reflection made between us, of our feelings, and being - terribly excited... gives more power to that energy/or energy to that power.

I hope you will feel a secure connection with me, so that You and i can cum together here and, enjoy the exploration that our mutual desires (and in my case, some not so willing desires), i'm willing to submit to your desires, even if they're not mine (in pursuit of getting what i want and need - to surrender to those feelings of being a good-girl, for You, Ma'am.

I learned in studying psychology, and eastern spiritual practices that there's little difference between a connection of minds separated by distance and a shared real experience - when both desire to be in a moment, together.

Relationship Status:
Local Time:
24 Apr 2018 21:25
I've only been with one guy in my life, (4th, Halloween party back in 2015 - while ago now January 2018...) after I had gone to college - the husband of one of the Lady's I saw. (and different hubbies, since graduation) I'd like to explore here a bit more, and exercise my desires, find some new ones I didn't know about etc...

I've been told i should spend some more time with girls closer to my own age, but there's still the lure - of Mature Ladies, i can't ignore, nor do i want to... it's what i desire... to be a kitten for a Nice Lady, she doesn't have to have Mommy Cougar characteristis, neither does she have to be nurturing... sigh

i'd just like some time, and attention... i hope You can understand this
i'm sorry and still - i don't want to be cured, or judged
Favorite Books:
I don't have strong favorites... but I have a changeable nature.
In regards to reading I like escapism - Sci-fi, fantasy, supernatural, Magical places, fey/fairy, witches, vampiresses, werewolves, werepuma's/cougars... meh, distopia
Favorite Authors:
i just love reading

enjoy philosophy, and Vedanta.

i'm fairly conservative: have been called naïve, and old-fashioned, brought up by Grammy...
i rebelled against my mom's post-modern progressive viewpoint, which i saw in college as the new attempt by Marxists to use identity as the victim to isolate people. Struggled with that a long time it seems...

Men have the Jungian Archetypes in the Hero's Journey and all the things that entails for them.

Maybe i latched onto - or just feel contented with my preference:
or i prefer the responsibility of the "child in what was Women's
The "Mother and child" archetype.
Favorite Movies:
i prefer reading, one of the reasons i like it here...
Favourite TV Shows:
Huh - i should explain, i don't own a TV, and i don't miss it.
Favorite Music:
90's for some weird reason, maybe things i heard while growing up??? i don't pretend to know why i like the things i do...
Tool, Joanna Newsom, Lykke Li, Florence & the Machine, Cat Power, Mazzy Power, Hope Sandoval, Lorde, Lana Del Rey, Ingrid Michaelson, Kate Nash, Lilly Allen, The Ting Tings... Classical Cello, Mandolin, Horn, Clarinet, Harpsichord, Orchestra...


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Topic: Is there another story category you'd like to have on Lush?
Posted: 22 Jul 2017 19:19

Shrugs, because - freedom?
i decided i had a thought in my head, so i let it out... i'll know better now, and won't next time.

Topic: Is there another story category you'd like to have on Lush?
Posted: 22 Jul 2017 17:07

Something that was previously a category, but was taken away, so answering that would cause my mentioning it to be removed, and censored because it: Violates Lush TOS... shrugs

Topic: If you could get away with fucking in public where and how would you do it
Posted: 11 Nov 2016 12:57

<img src="/images/emoticons/embarassed.gif" alt="Embarassed"> i've been lucky and have enjoyed sex in non-private settings, many times, including parks, bars, restaurants, swimming pools, lakes, forest, back yard in hammock or the ground, dressing rooms, automobile, tent while camping......I love being available to the Ladies who enjoy taking advantage of my willingness - or pretended reluctance.
Love, sue <img src="/images/emoticons/drunken_smilie.gif" alt="drunken">
The beach with sand is something to be avoided

Topic: Do you like to sleep naked?
Posted: 08 Jul 2016 18:23

Yes, nakey pretty much all the time now at home, now that I live alone again.

Topic: How many girls have performed oral on another girl.
Posted: 24 Jan 2016 06:50

Oh, this if for me. raising hand

Topic: What's your take on this article: The thing all women do that you (men) don't know about
Posted: 24 Nov 2015 07:14

Clip from the article

We are acutely aware of our vulnerability. Aware that if he wanted to? That guy in the Home Depot parking lot could overpower us and do whatever he wants.

Guys, this is what it means to be a woman. We are sexualized before we even understand what that means. We develop into women while our minds are still innocent. We get stares and comments before we can even drive. From adult men. We feel uncomfortable but don’t know what to do, so we go about our lives. We learn at an early age, that to confront every situation that makes us squirm is to possibly put ourselves in danger. We are aware that we are the smaller, physically weaker sex. That boys and men are capable of overpowering us if they choose to. So we minimize and we de-escalate.

So, the next time a woman talks about being cat-called and how it makes her uncomfortable, don’t dismiss her. Listen.

The next time your wife complains about being called “Sweetheart” at work, don’t shrug in apathy. Listen.

The next time you read about or hear a woman call out sexist language, don’t belittle her for doing so. Listen.

The next time your girlfriend tells you that the way a guy talked to her made her feel uncomfortable, don’t shrug it off. Listen.

Listen because your reality is not the same as hers.

Listen because her concerns are valid and not exaggerated or inflated.

Listen because the reality is that she or someone she knows personally has at some point been abused, assaulted, or raped. And she knows that it’s always a danger of happening to her.

Listen because even a simple comment from a strange man can send ripples of fear through her.

Listen because she may be trying to make her experience not be the experience of her daughters.

Listen because nothing bad can ever come from listening.

Just. Listen.

i ran across this article, when i was looking for some information on how to deal with a similar situation that happened to me just recently. While at work, and then again out in the parking lot later after work from the same guy waiting around for me to come out.

i had to get a handle on what i did, how i felt, and get over the oppressive cloud i was under afterwards.

Anyhow, i was just wondering - can guys relate to this, how we have to deal with these issues all the time...

Topic: How easy are you?
Posted: 06 Oct 2015 17:37

I'm a push-over, seriously, push me down, I give-in...
Easy as pie, I'm usually moist.
Love, sue

Topic: Squirting/gushing
Posted: 06 Oct 2015 17:26

I lived with a Lady in college, and she showed me how she could make me do it when ever she wanted. But I hsd to be well hydrated and her secret was both deep g-spot stimulation, and intense, unrepentant, relentless over stimulation of my clit. But I'd gush, and I'm always leaky... tmi
Love, sue

Topic: Name something that you learned about yourself since joining Lush.
Posted: 06 Aug 2015 22:05

Thanks so much for asking. i've learned that it's so much more fun and freeing to admit what i like than feel afraid that i'll either loose a new friend, or the opportunity to get to know someone else and what they like.
Love, sue

Topic: Age,does it matter?
Posted: 30 Jul 2015 01:08

? i think it's an individual thing. As long as the individuals involved are happy with the dynamics

For myself, i seem to be "hard-wired" towards more mature Ladies... shrugs i don't fight it anymore

But it does matter!
Love, sue

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