10 Aug 2013 16:23
i am taking my life back today - we're going out later, i am having fun - tomorrow i am redoing my work space and getting organized - i am sick of this. i'm making some serious changes. it makes me very happy.
07 Aug 2013 16:15
first half of today: amazing! second half: sucky. at least i got the amazing part to carry me thru - thanks, kitten
05 Aug 2013 18:33
doing something a little different... we'll see how that goes...
03 Aug 2013 20:24
02 Aug 2013 09:58
[insert something clever here]
01 Aug 2013 09:36
apart from some easily handled pain, i am feeling more me than i have for the past 10 days. probably be back to normal just in time for the weekend! yay! thanks to everyone who sent wishes, i got them and they really did cheer me up!
31 Jul 2013 15:37
hey, home now. doing fine, everything went well. pretty loopy - Kate's staying with me - hurt a bit, bit not too bad. love you all. probably going to sleep a bunch. xoxo rach.
27 Jul 2013 11:54
feeling better today. yay! it's gonna be a nail painting day!
24 Jul 2013 18:09
still not feeling my best, but have had a handful of friends do their best making me smile. thank you blows kisses working on it. mostly, i just wish i could sleep, though.
23 Jul 2013 16:46
maybe being stubborn wasn't such a good idea after all. maybe i made a mistake.
23 Jul 2013 09:03
i continue to feel like crap. i want otter pops...
22 Jul 2013 11:10
i feel like pooh, today, and no, not the cuddly yellow bear.
20 Jul 2013 21:44
wake up in the dark with the after-taste of anger in the back of my mouth
spit it on the wall and cough some more and scrape my skin with razor blades...
you hit me again, you howl and hit me again, the same sharp pain wakes me in teh dark
and cuts me from my throat to my pounding heart... shake dog shake.
17 Jul 2013 16:28
14 Jul 2013 19:54
taking a short lush break. see you all when i get back.
13 Jul 2013 20:38
For Trayvon and Oscar.
13 Jul 2013 13:02
today was the day Hallmark Christmas ornements go on sale, and yes, we did get Rapunzel with a frying pan and yes, she's already been put out, though not on a christmas tree.
10 Jul 2013 10:52
today is full of butterflies and sunshine.
08 Jul 2013 13:07
sometimes i'm just angry. any target will do and the thing is, i have a lot to be angry for - i don't need anyone telling me otherwise. just let me get it out of my system and try not to give me a target to focus on.
07 Jul 2013 13:27
so i know it's just a spring haze but i don't much like the look of it
and all we do is circle it and I found out where my edge is
and it bleeds into where you resist and my only way out is to go so far in
off on my way unseen this eternal wanting
let go so if i really get creamed
waiting for Sunday to drown
why does it always end up like this?
07 Jul 2013 13:10
house and head.
06 Jul 2013 17:28
Doll will understand... dahlia, godiva, goldie, tallulah, kotori, Ibiza, kylie, salma, midori, manhattan mixer, rhiana, trixie.
06 Jul 2013 11:07
art isn't what you think it is, it's what sneaks up on you and insinuates itself into your brain when you're not even thinking about it - art is subtle, it's clever, and it's deadly. don't let art be the last thing you see before you die - be vigilant and get art before it gets you. this has been a public service announcement. thank you.
06 Jul 2013 00:10
i haven't been writing a lot for here lately. doesn't mean i'm not writing. just finding my inspiration else where, stories that either end up on the blue site or... this is Oscar Grant. i didn't know him, but i could have. he was 4 years younger than me. he was shot and killed 8 blocks from where i grew up. i don't know how big the story was nationally - it was at the Fruitvale BART station - but to us, it was huge. i just think it's important to remember him. was he a model citizen? no. he got busted for doing what a lot of us did growing up - surviving - only we didn't get caught. sometimes the world reeks of injustice. not sure why he's on my mind tonight, but he is. this is Oscar Grant. god bless.
05 Jul 2013 23:43
occasionally i get these overpowering urges to go home, home being Oakland, which is strange, cause i don't have fond memories of the place - it's just that i feel like i belong there and there's an empty place that only it fills. yeah, i know, i'm mental.
05 Jul 2013 08:16
i have a new drug:
04 Jul 2013 22:57
lovely day. bit worn out.
03 Jul 2013 20:54
Looks like it's time for a little Arab summer... wow...
03 Jul 2013 18:30
02 Jul 2013 10:17
quote of the day: surprise spikey butt sex with a giant cock is pretty fucking mean.