30 May 2013 12:09
hi. my name is rachel. i am a story mod which, apparently translates into "Punching Bag". Carrry on.
29 May 2013 09:08
feeling down today. probably be pretty quiet.
27 May 2013 22:22
26 May 2013 09:51
hung over. probably not spending time on lush after this post. shower, food, sleep. bye.
25 May 2013 14:18
is there such a thing as a part time nymphomaniac? if so, i think i qualify.
24 May 2013 09:51
ok, back to the writing grind!
23 May 2013 09:06
bit worn out today - if you need me i'll be on, but mostly, i'm going to be writing.
21 May 2013 08:04
ok, enough with the drinking. crunch time. writing.
20 May 2013 12:39
it's past 12. drinking in the morning is just wrong. it's no longer morning, tho
19 May 2013 11:49
i like that i can be strong when i need to be. that's the gift of friendship that no one thinks about - letting your friends be strong for you when you aren't. thank you for that
18 May 2013 23:00
just have a hard time with being around too many people. just wears me out.
16 May 2013 23:41
wine makes you giggle. it says so on the label.
14 May 2013 20:27
the hardest thing in the world is to hurt someone you genuinely care about. i'm glad it hurts me as well - it should never be an easy thing to do.
14 May 2013 09:41
sometimes i get a little lonely. it happens. it's nice to have friends to fill the holes up.
13 May 2013 17:51
sometimes the only thing you need to feel better about yourself is a chance to make someone else feel better about themselves. i'm feeling pretty good right now.
12 May 2013 10:24
feeling a little meloncholy today. not sad, just thoughtful...
09 May 2013 16:40
last night, good days. no. great days. so tired, tho. exhausted. think i'm going to sleep for a few days. nighty night.
09 May 2013 11:13
can't stop cumming lately not a bad thing, but...
08 May 2013 09:00
ok, i need to write, so... i will.
07 May 2013 16:06
sometimes you long to push the walls over. you beat on them, rail at them, take a hammer to them, and nothing. patience, little zen kitty. ask and, brick by brick, you on one corner, those you love, who love you in return, on the others, lifting them carefully from the very top, and setting them aside until there is nothing left but the scar where it once stood.
06 May 2013 20:01
sometimes something just smacks you in the face when you least expect. lucky for me i have people in my life to hang on to for a bit until i'm upright again.
05 May 2013 22:59
putting some word done "on paper". had a lovely day, spent it with friends, on and off line. had a few beers, went 'swimming' (more like floating), did something naughty just a very lovely day. mew.
05 May 2013 14:06
sprite trivia #1 & 2 (just cause it's fun): no matter how hard i try, it's close to impossible for me to be ready to go anywhere on time & contrary to popular belief, i have an almost pathological need to be in control.
05 May 2013 11:38
i am so full of love today - i am hoping it's contagious
05 May 2013 08:09
romantic dinner with my wife, a nice walk, kisses, touching, a moonlight drive, more kisses, a warm bed, two girls in love, joy.
03 May 2013 22:41
I need to fall
Scrape my knees
Skin my palms
You need to learn to watch
And we both know how hard it is
When I keep falling over and over and…
Face down on the concrete
Lip bloody and tears threatening
Gritting my teeth as I get back up
Again and again
It’s called muscle memory
Soon, I won’t have to think about it
I will simply stand up
Catch my breath
Knowing I will fall again
I will let you know when I’m ready for you to catch me
03 May 2013 10:50
experimenting with being visible again - see how long it lasts THIS time.
03 May 2013 00:12
today was hard. i got a little lost for a while, a little sad. i shared it with friends, tho, and you know something? i'm not so lost anymore. did something scary too, big crowded theater, Ironman 3 - SO good. Tony Stark is the man (stay thru the credits!). things are ok. looking forward to going to sleep, dreaming, waking up. tomorrow is a new day. i am full of love and ready to share it.
01 May 2013 23:41
sometimes even the darkest nights are beautiful for they allow you to see the stars. thank you for for being my stars. i'm going to try to count each and everyone until i finally fall asleep.
01 May 2013 08:20
for those of you (all 3 of you lol) who've been waiting, Mrs V 5b is now up.
will there be a part 6? eventually, yes. when? i don't know - i've got a project i'll be working on for a while, so that's going to slow me down a bit, but this series, more than anything else, means a lot to me, and i know it means a lot to at least a couple of readers, so, until you come to a chapter with "The End" at the bottom, know that there WILL be another chapter in the lives of Shannon Spencer and Abby Vandermeer.