Now I know why Dad didn't object to me touring Europe with Charlie. Talk of safe? What a wimp. I know touring Europe after high school is supposed to be a cultural bonanza, but you'd think a bit of adventure might just creep in? We might just as well be in Kansas.
Yes, Dad did stipulate single rooms. But now we were away, the freedom, the sights, especially sexy Italian men, had a way of leaving me moist about the pussy at night. The slightest timid midnight knock at my door and Charlie could have had anything he wanted. So often I nearly broke away, but I didn't dare.
Till Nigel came along. Yes, Nigel's English, and the English are all weak tea and stiff upper lip. Don't believe a word of it. The only stiff thing about Nigel is his... but I'm leaping ahead.
The lowest point of our cultural 'bore-nanza', after a series of non-events in Italy, Austria and I don't know where else, came an hour or so into a trudge around the National Gallery, London, England, UK. Don't get me wrong, I like art galleries. But with Charlie? I mean even if I don't arouse Charlie, you'd think the Rokeby Venus might.
It wasn't like he didn't see it. He spent twenty minutes criticising the brushwork, showing neither pleasure nor embarrassment at the prolonged examination of the bum he was dissecting. And trying to show me the vanishing point. I just wished he'd vanish. The picture had more effect on me than it did on him.
His voice droned endlessly while I thought, 'Wow, if I had a bottom like that I'd pose for any painter. I wonder if she was getting turned on. I wonder if she had to have a tissue in front of her, or whatever girls mopped themselves with in those days.' I looked to Charlie and only just stopped myself asking him aloud, "What do you think about the painter? Do you think she turned him on? Do you think she kept trying to turn round to see if he had a boner?" My silent thoughts set me giggling, but Charlie shush'd me.
It's all right for Charlie. But even if it's only a painting. If these perfect proportions don't turn him on just a bit, what hope have I when (if he ever wants to) he sees my ordinary girl-next-door bum. I shot a furtive downward glance in his direction. No sign of a boner. My naughty thoughts about the sitter and her painter were already giving me intimate tingles, but I knew there was no chance of Charlie ministering to my moist parts when we got back to our miserable single rooms.
I was still musing over the picture, wishing I was that woman, beautiful, desired, valued and lingered-over by an appreciative genius. If Charlie knew so much about brushwork and vanishing points, why didn't he paint me and make me look as gorgeous as that?
I didn't notice he'd moved on, no doubt to denigrate some other unsuspecting Master. A voice came over my shoulder. An English voice. Very gentle but the sort of voice that caressed you and made you feel you belonged. The words enveloped me. "Beautiful, isn't she?"
Just in time, I stopped my eyes enquiring whether the newcomer had a boner. He certainly had a voice that suggested he knew of the concept. The sound of it sent yet another impulse of honey into my moist parts. When I came to again he was talking about the picture. Within three minutes he showed me five points of the artist's inspiration that made it the great and sensuous work he assured me it was. So much for Mr Know It All Charlie.
Nigel went on. "There, though. I'm speaking as a man. I suppose you disapprove of all this flaunting of flesh."
"No, no. I think she's beautiful, too. She's not just flaunting it, she's celebrating it. You can see how she's feeling. She's so relaxed. She's enjoying being looked at." Had I said too much? Did I catch just the slightest flicker of his eye towards my crotch? Had he divined my dampness? Thank God I was wearing a skirt, and not flimsy cotton trousers.
I continued. I felt I could say anything to him. If he understood as much about life as he'd shown me he did about art. If he understood women's minds as well as he understood this body in front of us..."It's just." I tried to find words."If men have got glamorous bodies like that to look at, what hope is there that they'll want to look at girls like... us?"
"I can only speak for myself. I'd much rather see a real live body than one on canvas. And, as you say yourself, bodies are to be celebrated. All of them. In any case, if I paint someone I want her to look real. I like this painting because she's real, not because she's glamorous. I hate glamour magazines, even fashion magazines, if they do everything they can to disguise the real woman."
What was so lovely was his caressing voice. You felt safe because he was being matter-of-fact and not naughtily suggestive. And yet his whole voice was quietly English, but creamy, and oh, so sexy. His psyche seemed to stroke that cream into the already moist recesses of my pussy. I didn't know if I could handle it. The voice was designed to make my vagina long for what Charlie had never thought to offer it.
He had to speak twice before I registered what he was saying. And more astoundingly, what he was asking.
"My name's Nigel. How long are you staying in London?"
"Three more days." My heart sank at the prospect of three days and a long flight with Charlie. What an anticlimax after this.
"I think that's long enough to paint you. Suppose we go for lunch now? Then I'll take you to my studio. I noticed you when you were looking round earlier. Your friend won't mind, will he? I'll pay you, of course, and you can share it with him if that's what you want. I don't know how close you are. It was difficult to tell."
This man saw through everything. Was he psychic as well as artistic?
"Actually," I confessed. (Yes, that's what he was like, a confessor). "To be honest, I wouldn't mind a break from him. But you surely can't want to paint pictures of me?" I looked across to Venus for comparison, then pointed to my figure. "You won't sell many pictures of this."
"I don't want to paint you to sell to glossy magazines. I want to paint someone I like. And I want the painting to show why I like you. You are nicely proportioned, you have a friendly nature and a friendly smile. That's what I want people to see."
By the time we made the studio, I was in such a state of pussy and nerves that far from being shocked when invited to strip, I would have been devastated had he not asked me to. This man had seen into my soul and the least I could do was let him celebrate my body. Quite involuntarily as soon as I'd stripped I turned around for him, positively wanting his eyes to caress me all over, just as his voice had been doing.
Standing, and slowly twirling, I believed I'd showed him everything, but a tremor shook me when I realised I was going to have to entrust even more to him. The picture was not going to be of my girl-next-door bottom, as I'd expected from seeing the Venus; nor was I to be painted standing or sitting, legs demurely together.