In the village where I lived there was a guy named Sean who totally mesmerized me. He was always referred to as ‘Shabby Sean,’ and he lived a very rustic existence in a trailer outside the village, with his sixty-year-old girlfriend. I thought that Sean was in his early forties when we first met, but only found out later that he was actually thirty-eight years old. Interestingly, I never met the woman whom he lived with. She was on a state pension and was the sister one of the locals I occasionally encountered. Sean also received a monthly subsidy; the reason for this always remained a mystery to me. Other than that, he was an odd-jobber and did any menial work that was offered to him.
I often encountered him in our local store whilst he bought provisions, and despite my earlier misgivings about his grubby looks, Sean oozed an animalistic sensuality. As time passed, my imagination began to work overtime and I became convinced that he not only had a huge dick but that he would also be an unbelievable fuck. Endowed men always permeate self-assuredness and in my opinion, Sean was a top member of that society. Sean had a stress-free gait and his relaxed demeanour always intrigued me.
As I frequently watched him ambling passed my home, I always ruminated on his sexual prowess. I also fantasized about his skanky hands, with the longest fingers that I had ever seen on a man, manipulating my head while skull-fucking me senseless. I became totally obsessed with him as I imagined him ‘molesting’ my throat. Countless masturbation sessions were spent dreaming about him, as I visualized countless sexual scenarios that played out in my mind.
One afternoon, Sean was about to pass by my home as I stood on my veranda. Normally, he would simply give me a friendly wave, but on this occasion, he approached me and began chatting. As I had always suspected, Sean was not the brightest star in the firmament, but I couldn’t care less. His goofiness made him even more appealing to me. I never before encountered him for a prolonged period and now doing so, I was rather taken aback by how good-looking he actually was. Of course, with his long hair and unkempt beard, he looked like a dishevelled hippy, and his indifference to personal hygiene also did not enhance his guise. But to me, he was one sexy man!
“Would the sexiest guy in the village like a cup of coffee?” I brazenly offered, hoping my suggestion would bear fruit.
“Sure,” he answered, with a bewildered frown. I felt quite sure that an invitation of this sort had never been extended to him in the village before.
I was very pleased when his expression took on a mischievous grin as he entered my home. In no time, I presented him with a cup of white coffee with three spoons of sugar. As we stood in the kitchen he looked at me in a strange, almost salacious way, before asking, “So… Why do you think I’m sexy?”
Everyone in the village knew I was gay and so I decided to go for broke. “It’s just the way you carry yourself. You’re easy-going and appear to be totally comfortable in your own skin. I find that very sexy,” I replied, with trepidation.
A gratified horny look overcame Sean’s face, and it was almost as if he was revelling in my lust. To further encourage my horniness, he kept rearranging his crotch in an absentminded fashion. It was as if Sean’s eyes were taunting me, possibly punishing me for my earlier candour. The tension between us was palpable and how I managed to refrain from sexually ‘assaulting’ him, I will never know. Flustered, I offered him a seat in the lounge.
After we sat down Sean related his life story to me. He was the second son of a couple who only had two boys. His elder brother was twelve years older than him and took after their brainy dad. Sean apparently took after their ditsy mother. To cut a long story short; his dad had died many years before and his brother, who no longer spoke to him, was a successful businessman. His mom was in an old aged home, paid for by his brother. Sean had been a dipsomaniac prior to living in the area ten years before and had never been able to hold down a proper job. That’s why he seldom touched alcohol nowadays.
Sean left shortly after our chat but thereafter popped in at least once a week. His conversation was never very stimulating but my visual feasting more than made up for his shortcomings. On every visit, I always had to endure his mischievous provocations, which alternated between crotch groping and impish innuendos. I wasn’t naïve enough to believe that Mother Nature was about to do an about turn and deliver him into my clutches, but for some unfathomable reason, I was really aroused by his taunting visits.
As time passed, I heard that his girlfriend’s health was fast deteriorating. She had cancer and finally passed away a few months later. I did not see Sean during the last month of her life, but the people at the store kept me up to date on her condition. Attending the funeral of someone I had never met was strange to me, but I reassured myself that funerals weren’t about the deceased, but about the people who are left behind. At the funeral, I was also very surprised by Sean’s appearance, because he had really cleaned up rather well. Not only had his hair been trimmed, but so had his beard. Dare I say it; he looked very respectable.
At the funeral, I ascertained that his girlfriend had left everything to Sean. Astonishingly, she had also left him far more money than anyone had anticipated.
A week after Sean’s girlfriend passed away he popped in to see me late one Friday afternoon. I was surprised by this because he had formerly only ever visited in the mornings. A further shock for me was when I asked him what he would like to drink, and he asked for a beer. I was slightly ill at ease because of this but figured that as he was an adult, it really wasn’t any on my business. After a further three beers, Sean appeared to be noticeably comfortable in my lounge. With dinnertime upon us, I offered him a plate of food, which he gladly accepted.
By nine and after another four beers, Sean was becoming slightly pissed.
“You may use my spare room tonight if you like,” I suggested.
After accepting my invitation he gave me a naughty grin, before provocatively inquiring, “Will you help me undress?”
Not long after, Sean was on the bed only wearing his underpants. Sadly, as his head hit the pillow he was gone to the world. Sean had a slim, sinewy body, with a light dusting of hair in all the appropriate places. He was a very sexy man and the fragrant masculine odour emanating from him, further enhanced his appeal. Above all, the well-stuffed pouch at the front of his underpants left me in no doubt that my imaginings had been well-grounded.
As I stood looking at him for a short while I laughed at myself inwardly. You’re a stupid wishful thinker, I reflected. After turning off the lights in his room, I made my way to my own bedroom. Sleep did not come easily, as I once more pleasured myself while fantasizing about him.
Late the following Friday, it appeared that a die had been cast when Sean arrived at my home with a shopping bag containing beers. Summer was fast approaching and we were wearing t-shirts, shorts, and sandals. I again invited him to stay for dinner and once more he graciously accepted. Sean’s consumption of beer, fortunately, was far more restrained on this occasion. As we ate he profusely apologized for the previous week.
Afterward, we retired to the lounge and sipped our drinks. His demeanour then became rather serious before he spoke. “I have fucked-up plenty in my life,” he informed me, before continuing, “The one thing I can say for myself, however, was that I was never a cheat.” Letting this information sink in, he then persisted, “Once in a relationship, I never fucked around.”
After a brief silence, I replied, “That’s very admirable.”
“My life with Vera wasn’t perfect, but she was very good to me. When everyone had given up on me she kept me on the straight and narrow,” he concluded.
Again, there was a long silence. Then, with an intense stare, Sean asked, “I’ve always sensed that you’re attracted to me. Am I right, Wilfred?”
A docile “Yes,” was all I could manage.
“You’re an educated writer. Why would you find a grungy, dumb-fuck like me appealing?” He asked, somewhat suspiciously.
I looked at him for a long while as my mind assembled a thought process. Fuck it, I thought, Time to place my cards on the table.
“You are handsome, sexy, funny, down to earth, and more of a man than anyone I have ever met. Sean, I have never been more turned-on by anyone else in my entire life,” I confessed.
The radiance of his smile was awesome. Slowly, Sean began to push his shorts down his legs, prior to kicking them to one side. Next, sitting up slightly he pulled his t-shirt over his head before sitting back with his hands behind his head. With his legs wide apart, Sean’s eyes summoned me with blazing lust.