What do I do with this hurt inside.
How do I make things alright.
Nothing seems good anymore.

I feel lost and alone in a sea of people.
Don't want to move, don't want to stay.
Just want to be gone.

Wish his voice didn't make me want him.
Don't want to like him right now.
I am still hurt and angry.
Didn't want him to call.

Didn't want to hear his voice.
The voice that feeds a fire within me.
The one that stirs something deep inside me.

My heart wants to forgive. 
My mind can't forget.

Feels like being in limbo.
Wanting something so much. 
But not sure it’s real;
Not sure it’s true, 
Or not sure it’s attainable.
Not sure if he fits in the puzzle.

Did he ever really love me,
Or was it some fantasy I played out.

In the end it’s me curled in a ball,
Wondering what I did wrong.