As your murky storm clouds gather, you obscure all light
And I am rendered lonely and powerless in the tenebrous vacuum.
I am but hostage in the gloom, wishing away my destiny.
Persuasive aberration! Thief! Yet giving as you take,
Feeding my darkness with the goodness you have leached.
Hope evades me, it suffocates me and I am trapped.
Vacillating between anger and despair, rage descends,
Wraith-like, replenishing those surges of insanity,
Exposing my fear and unveiling my weakness, for all to see.
You pierce me with stinging arrows of doubt and shame
As I watch myself from above, tortured and bound,
Witness to my own unravellings, succumbing to the caliginosity.
You have stolen my identity, left me trapped in this beautiful insanity.
My reticent visage, masked, blank, expressionless.
The light in my eyes, a dim memory, my smile bereft of emotion.
You robbed me of my happiness and appreciation for life,
Shattering dreams of a brighter day, my future foregone.
A cruel heist. Self worth, independence and faith purloined.
Dark for the moment, but I see a glimmer of light.
Despite your sinister presence, I have faith and
I ache for who I was, for broken dreams unfulfilled.
Hope can glimmer still, like sparks on the 4th of July,
A good day for the briefest moment, I am me again.
The angst, anger and pain which break me, abandoned.
I see you, know you. I can overcome your insidious swindle.
You shall not have victory over me, you will not triumph.
I will defeat you, my deepest, darkest, mortal enemy.
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