Being heartsick is something that happens when you want someone to much.
When all you can think about is how you both could possibly ever touch.
You plan and you dream of things that you know you will never have.
Sometimes are even told things you want so bad it makes you glad.
I don’t do very well in this fantasy world.
My attitude about sex is like a man’s but I am a girl.
I always seem to make the same one gigantic mistake.
I am too real I mean what I say for goodness sake.
There is nothing I have written that I have not done or will do.
No guts, no glory or your fantasies will never come true.
I don’t know if he realized I was totally serious.
The plans I had would have made him delirious.
How I wish they all still could be true.
That he will change his mind and I’ll no longer be blue.
I will always keep a little bit of hope.
Try to keep my head up and never mope.
Many men have told me they think he’s nuts.
For not taking care of such a sexy slut.
But they will never understand.
That is just not a trait of my favorite man.
But what he gave me was so much more.
I couldn’t wait to see what else he had in store.
Never have I felt anything so intense.
I tried to figure it out but it never made sense.
I never seemed to be able to do anything right.
So I just wrote my stories all day and all night.
Chase or back off I could not figure it out.
I did all the wrong things and now I just pout.
All my deep poems are probably driving him crazy.
Guess at least it shows I’m not lazy.
I still do really mean every single word I say.
And in two days, months or years I will still be ready to play.
I can’t see how I will stop wanting him.
He has gotten totally under my skin.
Maybe someday I will get this out of my head.
Stop scheming of ways to get him in bed.
So many wish I felt this way about them too.
They will never understand it can only be you.
Nothing else seems to completely satisfy me.
You inspire me so much it causes a writing spree.
So I will keep writing my words though wisdom they lack.
Till the mods on this site try to give me the sack.
Don’t let all my crazy feelings worry you.
I want you to be happy and never be blue.
I’m sure in time my intense feelings should all fade.
But know I used you for much more than just getting laid.
If you ever do want to continue this hot, sexy dance.
You know I’m the best for you just give me a chance.
Meeting you’re perfect match it so very rare.
Don’t you ever forget I will always care………………..
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