Whatever guided you and I first 
seemed to be simple chemistry, 
tiny atoms immediate and forever, 
seizing one upon one another. 

Our secrets helplessly spilled, 
not every one of them at first, 
we were too careful then 
at what we could relinquish 
even though we wished 
to just give it all away. 

It was as if a little more pain would 
make the entire heart follow next. 

And we spread beyond 
our own stories into one, 
an involuntary joining that 
flowered in a mysterious light. 

It was the glow of 
all I've ever wanted. 

And I still crave to feel that
light always reciprocated. 

And even now when you may be just 
guided by our palpable echo, 
by what has always been too familiar, 
longing still ripples throughout me. 

To be inside of you in ways 
that have nothing to do 
with bodies simply locking 
and pushing far past any 
known previous border. 

I'm afraid to say this 
and so much more to you, 
I have to speak for a moment 
as if you'll never these words....

What keeps me here is 
what glows beyond her. 
I make no secret of this now 
even though I keep her like one. 

I'll keep that knowledge 
like an endless shadow,
a twin identity that is 
forever smoldering within. 

Whatever us ever closer at first 
seemed to be simple chemistry, 
tiny particles immediate and magnetic, 
instinctively wrapping together. 

Our secrets helplessly twined, 
I would give them all away again 
because even now when I'm alone, 
everything still sings of you. 

It's as if a little more pain would 
make the entire soul follow next. 

And we spread beyond our own beings
and into an indistinguishable one,
a sometimes too painful joining
that flowered into an immutable light. 

It's still the glow of 
all I've ever wanted.

And I still ache to feel that 
radiance always reciprocated. 

And even now when you feel me inside 
in ways that will seem too familiar, 
I can't say that I've ever left, 
longing still courses throughout me. 

I'm afraid to confess this 
and so much more to you, 
I have to speak for a moment 
as if you'll never absorb these words... 

What keeps me here is
what glows through her core, 
I make no secret of this now 
because I fold into her like one....

What keeps me here is 
what beats through my blood, 
forever tuned to her like a current 
that has swept through all
the things in me without name. 

I'll keep that knowledge 
nestled in infinite embers, 
a twin flame that is
forever burning within. 

It's as if a little more pain would 
make an entire being follow next.