I'll give up the ghost soon enough.
But right now you still taste like wine
and too many sweetnesses I cannot name.
It was the last time that stars
were radiating in your eyes,
ghostly flares like a hearth glowing
as this engine sped us through the valley,
through that winter when we first met.
I need to hold on to that cold now
to remember how warm you were.
And if we rewind from there,
back to your small room where
the softest music floated and your body
seemed to frantically envelope mine,
hands cupping my face so tightly
as if you held on to an entire world,
there could be no comfort in the telling.
Better to let that moment speak for itself,
through racing hearts and feverish pheromones,
where our cautious initial caresses gave way
to the brilliance of a frenzied undoing.
It would do no good to confess that I would cling,
that time with you was a dark river
flowing into all that I would become,
that I would find too many shards of you
inside of every lover afterwards.
I'll give up the ghost soon enough.
But right now you still taste like starlight,
too many bursting rainbows to keep track of.
It was the last time I saw
how beautiful scars can really be,
how they are maps to be traced and understood
rather than being an engine driving us
away from the heart, away from the valley.
From that winter when your warmth
promised to never let me go.