I never believed in a lot,
I guess that started my troubles.
But I thought I didn’t have to,
I realise it made my problems double.
I never really wished,
I guess that’s why I never received.
I never understood the concept,
I was wrong in what I perceived.
I never really dreamt,
Is that why nothing came true?
But I thought I had enough,
It wasn’t enough to get me through.
I never really thought,
About little things I did or would say.
Now that I am older,
I understand it doesn’t work that way.
I didn’t take it in,
The lessons I was taught.
I just found a way around,
Until I was caught.
I never found a way to love,
I believed it would break my heart.
Now I realise no matter what,
It never stays in one full part.
I didn’t believe in god,
That just wasn’t my way.
However now more than often,
I find that I pray.
I never thought I’d make it,
That I would be the last one through.
I honestly believed this,
All until I met you.