When I was in my late twenties, I moved to another city to follow a job opportunity. It was a job in the Media and Public Relations department for a communication company. I began as assistant manager and after about six months, Simon, the manager, called me in his office to announce his resignation.
“What? You’re kidding, right?” I asked, in dismay.
“No, Linda. We are having a family issue and we have to move to New York within the end of the month,” he said, clearly sad. Then added, “Believe me, this is not something I’m doing lightly, but I have no choice. One day maybe I’ll explain you. Right now, I need you focused on the task.”
“Yes, of course. I’ll do anything to make things easier for you. Do you know who’s taking your place?” I asked, perplexed. In my experience, once you lose a great boss, you’ll get a mean one. There was no hope to get two great bosses in a row.
“I’m recommending you, and I’m pretty sure Mr. Lawrence would listen to my recommendations,” he said.
“Me? Why? I have been here for six months. There are others more experienced. Steven, for example, or Nycia,” I said, puzzled.
“Because you’re the right person, and they know that, I’m pretty sure. Can you imagine Nycia? She can’t find her glasses on her nose, and Steven never leaves a minute later than his hours,” he explained. Then he added, “Linda, you’re the right person. You’re organized, focused, you know our partners, you know the team and you have the enthusiasm for this job. I’m sure I leave this place in the best hands. You’ll do great. Starting tomorrow, I want you to shadow me. I’ll explain everything during the weekly meeting tomorrow morning. OK?”
That night, of course, I couldn’t sleep. The following morning, I arrived in the office at 8 sharps, as usual. At 8:10 I got a call from Laura, Mr. Lawrence’s assistant, saying I was expected in his office. Mr. Lawrence was the CEO of the company, and he confirmed I was going to be the new Manager of the Media and Public Relations department. I was excited and scared at the same time. I was excited because I loved challenges, and that was a big one. I was scared because I wasn’t sure I was able to fill that role, and I didn’t know how the rest of the team would take the news.
During the 10 am meeting that morning, Simon gave the announcements of his resignation and my new role as manager. As I expected, at the first announcement the whole team was clearly sad. What I couldn’t expect was the reaction at the second announcement, that I’d be his replacement. A few of them applauded with joy, some had a sigh of relief, and some stood up to hug and welcome me. I really didn’t expect such a warm reaction. They all seemed sincere.
After three years of being the manager, I can say that our team is working like a well-oiled machine. Ours was one of the most profitable departments. I was in charge of the department for two years when, during a kick-off meeting, I presented the idea of an internal radio station. Mr. Lawrence loved the idea and gave me the green light to go ahead. Of course, I had to hire new people, consult with experts, find the space for the station and all the equipment necessary, and do that within the budget given to me.
To find the best team, I spent part of my free time googling and listening to the radio stations and podcasts to find the right speakers. I already had an idea for a woman speaker, but I wanted a male voice to pair with her.
I needed someone with a nice voice, good diction, and who had the ability to capture the listeners. One morning, while I was stuck in the traffic, I heard a voice that was perfect: happy, perfect diction, and I was mesmerized listening to him. He was talking about World War Two. A man with culture, what was better than that? I immediately called my office and asked Phillip to find a contact for the speaker.
I hired David after five minutes in our interview, and he didn’t hesitate to accept. He liked the idea, and the paycheck, of course. To work with us, he had to move from out of town and we gave him a good incentive.
In addition to a great voice, David was handsome, probably my age or so, light brown hair and eyes, tall, and a butt that screamed "Squeeze me!" I didn't squeeze it, of course, but he was the subject of our gossip that day at lunch with my pals.
The day he arrived to start working with us, I welcomed David, showed him his desk, the radio station studios, and then I introduced him to the team and to Sofia, his work partner.
I have to admit I felt jealous. I know there wasn’t a reason as David had clearly no interest in me. But I liked him. Not only his butt and his incredible eyes, but all of him.
After a couple of weeks, I went to his desk to check how he was doing, "Hi David, how's it going?" Yes, I did the same for Sofia, but with less enthusiasm, I admit.
“Everything's ok. I like the team and the job is inspiring. Sofia is a great partner,” he answered. Not exactly what I wanted to hear, though.
"Cool. And did you find a place to stay yet? Do you need any help?" I asked, curious to know where he was living.
"Actually, not yet. I should see a couple of houses this weekend, but..." he hesitated, then said, "Well, never mind. I will deal with it.”
"What? Is there a problem? I might help. Except for more money, that’s all I can offer,” I chuckled.
I really wanted to help him. Yes, I was trying to engage with him, finding an excuse to talk to him and spend more time with him. Was I flirting? Well, maybe.
"I really don't know the town, I don't know where a good place to live is, and I've never been house hunting. I have no idea what to look for,” he said, hesitant.
I giggled then I placed a hand on his arm, a firm, muscled arm, and said, "David, please, don't worry. If you'd like I can go with you. Not that I'm an expert, but at least four eyes are better than two. And I know the right neighbors where to live."
"Are you sure? You won't mind? You are my boss, are you sure it's appropriate?" he asked.
"Let's make it clear, I'm responsible for this department, but I don't want to make anybody feel uncomfortable because I’m the manager. I’m trying to be friendly. The other team members will confirm to you that I'm a very friendly boss. Tell me which hotel you're in and I'll pick you up Saturday by 9 am," I said, while in my stomach a swarm of butterflies were coming alive.
"I can pick you up,” he promptly said.
"I know but I know the roads and it’s easier if I'll be the driver,” I explained.
Friday afternoon before leaving, I stopped by David's desk, but he was in a meeting. I left a note reminding him of the appointment and leaving my phone number in case of a change of plans.
After we visited a few houses that Saturday, we had pizza for a late lunch, or an early dinner.
I told him about a few places to visit in town, when he said, "I love movies. Do you like movies?"
We talked about movies, actors, and Oscars. At the end of that day, I knew a lot of things about David, and at that point, I knew he wasn’t only handsome but also smart and a good person.
Monday morning, he knocked at the open door of my office.
"Good morning Linda, thank you for your help Saturday. I've decided on the house on Meadow Street. I'm going this afternoon to sign the lease,” he said.
"A very good choice. Congratulations!" I answered, but he didn't leave my office, not that I minded, but I asked, "Can I do something for you?"
"Actually, yes, but I want you to be honest if I'm asking too much,” he said.
"I promise," I said, trying to hide my excitement.
"Would you mind going with me to Ikea to buy a few things?” he asked, “I need at least a bed and a couch to start, and a few accessories for the bathroom and kitchen and you probably know better what I really need."
I could see the hope in his eyes. He got me at “bed”. A girl is always allowed to dream.
"Sure, no problem. Do you have the measurements already?" I asked.
"I'll have the floor plan tonight," he answered.
"Well, before buying the bed, it'd be better to have some measurements and decide how to arrange the house. I have a little experience in that as I had to help my sister. If you want, Friday after work we can stop at Rosati's, grab a pizza, and eat at your new house while deciding how to decorate it,” I proposed, hoping he'd say yes.
"That's an amazing idea! Thank you, Linda. Thank you, thank you,” he said with a smile that lighted up his eyes.
I helped him to decide how to decorate, we ordered the bed, the mattress, and the couch online, so we didn’t need to rent a van, then we went to the store to buy other things we thought it'd be better to see in person, like sheets, towels, kitchen’s tools, and stuff like that.
I also helped him to assemble everything after work the following week. Then on Saturday night, after we had the house furnished and decorated, I was collecting my stuff to go home, when David asked me to stay.
"I can't,” I said, "I need a shower and a change of clothes."
"I have a shower here. And the new shower curtains and the new towels," he said.
“And the new bed,” I thought. I didn't say that, of course, but I wanted to. Instead, I just said, "I don't have a change of clothes and I can't put these clothes back on."
"Well, I have plenty of shirts and sweatpants, you can wear them while I run the washing machine and fix dinner. I'm a good cook."
I couldn't find any other excuses, and I didn't want to. I simply said, "Well, if you insist, I think I can do that."
After my shower, I put on his sweatpants and his clothes and no underwear. It was exciting. His sweatpants were large, even if I wasn’t really in the small sizes.
When I opened the bathroom’s door, I smelled food and I felt a little rumbling in my stomach. In the kitchen, David was fixing dinner. I stopped by the jamb to observe him - bare feet, blue jeans, and a blue t-shirt. From behind the view was entrancing. What’s about men in jeans and bare feet? Why are they so sexy? And that butt should be illegal.
He probably sensed my presence because he turned to look at me, he scanned my body and said, “You look nice in my clothes. Do you need socks?”
Looking down at my feet, I said “No thanks. The floor is warm enough. Can I help?”
“Well, if you don’t mind, there’s the salad to dress and the table to set while I’m taking a quick shower too,” he said.
Jeez, I was setting the table and working with my fantasy imagining him in the shower. I heard him whistling and his steps getting closer. I sensed that I was leaving a wet spot in his sweatpants.
We had dinner chatting of futile things, then I said, “Well, I have to admit, you’re good in the kitchen. This steak with stir-fry vegetables was delicious. Thank you.”
“I always prefer a homemade meal than eating out where you don’t know what they really serve on your plate. And I needed to thank you for all your help.”
I was nervous. I’ve never learned how to answer a compliment, probably because I wasn’t used to them. Instead of answering, I said, “Now you’re probably tired. If the drier is done, I better go home.”
Reluctantly I took my clothes from the drier, changed clothes, and left. I wanted to stay, I hoped he’d invite me to stay, but, well, I didn’t feel his interest in me in that way. I was the team manager after all, and he already said it wasn’t probably appropriate to ask for my help. Now I had to convince him it was ok.
The firsts few days of the following week I was busy at work, meetings, reports, phone calls, but once at home, I had time to think about my feelings and find if it was appropriate or not. I thoroughly read Internal Employee Handbook and found that the dating policy provided guidelines our employees should follow when they’re romantically or sexually involved with a colleague. There were some standards for acceptable behavior when flirting with colleagues in order to avoid awkwardness or problems in our workplace. This policy applied to all our employees regardless of gender, sexual orientation, or other protected characteristics. That meant it was fine if it was consensual. Good. I felt better.
Thursday morning, we had a scheduled meeting to take stock of the situation. At the end of that meeting, I was collecting my stuff when I found a sticky note that wasn’t there before, “Call me after work, please. D.”
I didn’t know why he wanted me to call, but I was looking forward to the end of that day to make that call.
When I got home and changed into a more comfortable attire, I called David.
He picked up and said, “Hello, Linda. How is it going?”
“I’m fine, a little tired. It’s been a tough week so far, but I can survive one more day. What about you? How’s working with Sofia? How’s living in the new house?” I asked.