I'm here.
I waited for a moment.
Then my phone buzzed.
So am I, meet you at the front.
My heart raced as I read the words from the text. The screen of my cell phone closed. I put it in my purse and got out of my white Pontiac.
The summer's night was suspiciously cooler than usual. The wind blew leaves and shook the trees. The full moon was bright and high above in the cloudless star-covered sky. I paced through the parking lot filled with cars.
My boyfriend doesn't know where I am. He would freak if he knew that I was here; he can be very over protective at times. But it was innocent enough, really. I'm meeting a friend -- a guy friend -- I haven't seen or heard from in a month.
As I approached the sidewalk just a short distance away from the front door, I noticed a group of people standing in a circle. All male and smoking cigarettes. They catcalled and blew smoke in my direction as I walked by; a skinny little blonde woman like me was an easy target for a gang of boys.
I ignored them, focusing on what really mattered to me.
There was a big neon sign that read Ricky's Bar with an arrow pointing to the front entrance. I stood by the door and looked around. Nothing but a couple of cars passing by and a few people entering the building. I had half a mind to text him once more. But then, an all too familiar voice called for me.
There he was in the flesh walking up to me from the street. He looked just as I remembered. Messy dark brown hair with deep blue eyes, tall muscular build wrapped in pale skin and a perfectly white smile.
I smiled back, "Hey Zach, how are you?"
"Oh you know me." He was wearing a black v-neck with dark brown cargo shorts; black ankle socks invisible against black shoes and a leather bracelet accessory on his left arm. "How have you been?"
"Pretty good." I felt like giving him a quick hug, but I needed to keep myself in check. A taken woman hugging a single guy may be getting close to a boundary, in my boyfriend's eyes at least.
"That's good. Shall we go in?" He opened the door and held it for me.
I smiled and nodded, walking through the door and into the building. It was full of people and the atmosphere was penetratingly loud. Hundreds of conversations floated around, coupled with music. I had to dodge between groups of people in the small corridor before the main room opened up.
As he caught up to me, he said, "So how are you and-"
"Great," I had to cut him off. I didn't want him to ask about my boyfriend. The two of them were friends long before I came into the picture and now they weren't very fond of each other. "Things are great."
"Glad to hear it. I haven't talked with him in a while."
I attempted to reply, but as we approached the bar counter, a man's voice shouted, "Is that Zachary?! The living legend himself?!"
Zach laughed, "How are you doing, Ricky?" Obviously, it was the bar owner. He was an older gentleman, with a balding head and thick mustache.
"I thought for sure I wouldn't see you again after that Friday night, what...two weeks ago now?"
"Oh no, I recovered. Had a massive headache Saturday evening though."
Ricky laughed hard, "I'm sure! I'm sure! Who do we have here?" He focused his attention on me now. "Damn she's a looker...nice find!"
Zach shook his head, "It's not what you think, we're just here to have a couple drinks as friends."
"Well then maybe you can hook me up?!" he laughed again, "I kid of course! Sit down, first round is on the house!"
"Thanks Rick, you're the best," Zach said. Ricky may be nice, but he was kind of creepy.
"Hey, no one attracts more customers than you and your antics! I'll be right back with your best friend -- Jack Daniels."
Zach laughed under his breath, "Sorry about that. Ricky can get a little excited sometimes."
I took a seat on a bar stool and immediately questioned, "Living legend, huh? Where did you get that name?"
He sat down in the seat to my left, "Well, if you must know...people say I left the bar one night with four girls. I blacked out, can't remember a thing."
My train of thought came to a halt, "Really?" Knowing this added to my frustration with him.
"That's what they say. Gave the nickname right after."
"Well that's...um?" I didn't know what to say. I will admit, it hurt to hear that he was doing these things. I'd always thought much more highly of him.
He changed the subject, "How's the store doing since I left?"
"Struggling, but we manage. What do you do now?"
He shrugged, "I make bullets."
"Go on."
"Well, I operate the machinery that casts them. Then they're shipped off for the Navy to use."
Ricky came up to us and dropped off the drinks, "Let me know if I can get you anything else."
"Will do," Zach replied, then took a sip.
I had to get this conversation moving forward. The idle chat was not going anywhere. "So the reason I asked you to have drinks with me is because I'm worried about you."
His eyebrows knitted, "Why are you worried about me?"
"When she cheated on you...I felt so bad."
He took a deep breath and looked away from me, "Why? It's not your problem."
I took a sip of the Jack, "Well I remember you told me that you couldn't live without her. And after I saw your-"
"I'm over it."
I didn't believe him. "Are you sure? Because I know how much you've been sleeping around. This destructive behavior with other women isn't healthy."
"I remember the stories you told me. You don't get to lecture me about self-destructive behavior." He took another sip.
That was kind of mean, "I'm not trying to lecture you. I'm just here as a friend."
In the past, Zach and I have shared many very personal secrets. We had a strong understanding of one another and trusted each other.
I have to admit, back when he and I were very close, I had developed a sexual attraction to him. I secretly craved his attention, his opinion and most of all his presence. At the time I didn't know what had caused it and I loathed having those feelings. But after the events of his now ex-girlfriend, I buried them deep inside and only cared about his well being, not wanting to lose him in any way.
"Well, thanks. But I'm fine and I have moved on."
"Who are you trying to convince? Sleeping with a different woman each night isn't moving on. It's a temporary mend to whatever you're feeling."
He was silent, taking larger sips of the Jack.
I continued, "I don't think you realize how much you mean to me."
"Probably don't," he whispered.
"Zach, you and I have a very complex friendship.