I checked my email everyday for three days and on the third day is when I got a response.
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Little One,
It was happy to see you sent me a response back. In such detail as well. What do you mean I wouldn't be able to find you? Are you doubting my ability to have found you? You found me didn't you? Alright then! Getting back on track here. What do you mean you joined the carnival? I didn't think you were that type of girl. How long were you with them? What do you mean you let yourself go? No need to explain why you didn't want to be in contact with your family from all you have told me. not surprising in the least. But to join the carnival?
Why wouldn't I remember your email address? we used it often, it was also your user name for yahoo messenger. so that helped with remembering. You act like I have alztimers and can't remember anything. *grin* I'm just joking, don't get upset now. I am very sarcastic, or did you forget? lol.
I often wondered myself what would have been if you wouldn't have ended things. It did indeed hurt when I read you were sure and that was it. But what was I suppose to do? As you said, you were 17. I couldn't just drive up to your parents place and claim you as mine, that would not have ended well. But the thought was there. I was mad for a while, but got over it. As to your comment of things happen for a reason. How do you figure? Do you think it was a good thing we broke things off? please enlighten me.
I should have known your mind couldn't stay away *grin* We did have alot of good times together. I do remember our walks on the beach, trips to the store, walks in the woods. Lots of action to choose from, hehe. But you still haven't quite been as specific as I had wanted. Explain what you think about and what types of scenes you make up. I'm curious to know. I know you did mention the age play with special clothes, which yes I was disappointed you never got to use them as well. They would have suited you well. That last night we were suppose to be together, it as unfortunate we never found each other. I had alot planned for us. But that doesn't matter now.
I never did ask you why you married into the vanilla lifestyle? Did you get sick of bdsm or just really not enjoy it that much anymore? Its a shame, you had alot of potential. You were young and trainable and were so willing. You had something about you no other has had, or at least none that I have seen. You were opinionated yes, and quite stubborn, but I was working on that. You were a natural and that is rare to find. Enough of that now. It was nice to hear from you. looking forward to your next email to me.
Sir J
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I click reply and try to answer his questions as best as I can.
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Sir,
To start off, I wasn't doubting your ability to find me. I was just saying I wasn't in one place for more than a week and didn't have a stable address. What is so wrong with being a carny anyways? I got to travel the United States and meet a lot of people. I was even in Mississippi for hurricane Katrina, that was amazing. I still have a picture of the night before she came in. I was traveling with them for a year, it was the most interesting year of my life to say the least.