I confess. I’m shy. I’m insecure about myself and others.
As a teenager, I was ugly, with my pale white skin. I had long natural red hair that I used to soak in product to make it look darker. My face was covered with acne, my big ears too huge for the rest of my head and I had about thirty pounds too much on my hips.
I was nineteen when I kissed a drunken girl for the first time. By the age of twenty-one, I couldn’t wait any longer and I went to visit one of the local brothels. Germany is very liberal and legal whorehouses can be found all over the countryside.
If there is an award for the worst first-time sex experience in human history, I deserve it!
I did my research on the internet and found the prostitute of my dreams. Dark skin, massive curves and a pretty face, so what could go wrong, right? Worst case scenario, I would finish before I fully entered her ebony vagina!
When I reached the place for male happiness, a lady opened the door – only covered by a silk cloth. The only thing she had in common with my desired lady from the website, was the color of her skin.
“Mercedes” guided me to a dirty room with a bed and asked what I want and who I would like to see? After I briefly explained my intensions with “Darleen” I handed over 200EUR and was asked to undress myself in front of her.
Unfortunately, I only got to see Darleen on the internet, since my designated partner was a black lady approximately 400lbs heavier than her. I do not understand why I stayed quiet and why my tiny cock got hard – but my first-time sex ended about two minutes later, by an act of anal, I believe.
When I was sixteen, I only had the Playboy and the Penthouse. Later a Hustler and the idea of what hardcore pornography was like.
Purchased in embarrassment from the gas station. Hidden in my room of shame. Applied alone, in the bathroom – the place, I temporarily moved into during my teenage years and like my Dad used to say: “Are you in there again?”
My first computer. Finally, online! A celebrity paparazzi picture forum was my first addiction. Salma Hayek, Halle Berry and the young Jennifer Lopez in her legendary green Versace dress! What’s not to give a boy a constant erection?
The trash bin underneath my desk was constantly overfilled with kitchen paper towels. Did mom know? What did she think?
I got relatively late into hardcore pornography. In my mid-twenties I developed passionately a 2TB archive of everything. I never had a specific type. Asian goddesses like Mika Tan I was obsessed with and collect everything she published. Round and curvy ebony girls, superstars, later ladyboys, and fetish clips. SPH, Humiliation, Ball-busting, Strap-on action. I enjoyed all of it.
If you want to know my all-time favorites; Priya Rai, Kiara Mia, TS Jessy Dubai, Jessica Bangkok, Abella Anderson would be in my top five. Trust me, I know everything about American “mainstream” pornography and my fetishes.
Now imagine my situation back in the day. I had a few thousand hours of HD pornography, but I lived with my parents and couldn’t even lock my room. When to enjoy all my collection?
I was unemployed and became a creature of the night. As soon as everyone was asleep, I had my cock in the hand. But not for a quickie. Shortly after I entered my porn addiction, I learned how to stay hard all night and masturbated for hours. Seven hours was normal, sometimes my mum’s alarm in the morning gave me the signal to finish.
As far as I remember, I was always attracted to her. Since I was sixteen, I shaved my pubic hair. I just don't like my erect five-inch cock covered by hair. Until I was seventeen, we still went to a sauna spa together. While in the resting area, I remember telling her, “I think my pubic hair is starting to show.”