I'm not precisely sure when my step father began to notice me. I had developed a lot since I had turned sixteen, but I think I must have been nearly seventeen before I really grabbed his attention. That might have been due to me being more confident with my own adolescence. The awkwardness of teenhood with my hormones pinging this way and that made me go a little insular.
Anyway, one way or another I had lost those early inhibitions. My breasts were now fully developed and my ass was as peachy as anything. I had an outgoing personality but I was still a virgin. I wasn't in any rush to go there and yet I was very curious. I was accustomed to all the fuss from guys at college and I had my fair share of unwelcome attention from older men, but I got used to that. Being an Emily, we're meant to get what we want, so maybe when the time was right, I'd make it happen. What I found more interesting were the furtive glances from my step Dad.
Let me be clear, Geoff had only ever been a gentleman and I knew he was in love with my Mum. He refrained from lewd comments and was entirely proper. It was quite endearing really. He lavished gifts on me at Christmas and birthdays; in many ways he was the perfect step father. But in the last few months, I sensed there was something else. There was an unspoken tension, a feeling that he was battling with something.
In return for his propriety I kept my half of the bargain and didn't dress provocatively or parade around half dressed. But it didn't matter, I was proving to be a distraction and I wasn't sure what to do. For example, the other day, I came down early to get my phone charger. I had put on a white T shirt but I hadn't put on a bra, which in hindsight was foolish as my breasts were jiggling and I think my nipples were poking through. Geoff half choked on his coffee. I'm sure a year ago it wouldn't have meant anything but now we were having more of these awkward moments.
So, skip forward a week or two and with Mum still in Canada till early March I knew Geoff was missing her. Yeah, he could Skype her and stuff, but I knew he was 'going short' as they say.
Geoff is a romantic sort; he's always buying my Mum flowers and he makes a proper effort on Valentine's, showering her with perfume and chocs, makes her breakfast in bed, poetry - the whole shebang. So I knew it would be tough not to celebrate the big day with her for the first time since they had been together.
Things started to come to head on the 13th. I had been out with my friend Genny the previous day and we were chatting and commenting on TikTok and stuff. She sent me some photos of her new bikini and other lingerie. I promised to return the favour so she could see what I had bought for my fortnight in Majorca this summer. Apropo of nothing I had taken a few nude photos, not with the intention of sharing them, but just for myself. One was a full frontal, the other side-on with my head cocked and my long golden tresses flowing to my waist.
At the time I had no idea what I had done - call it a blonde moment. I thought it was odd, when I hadn't received a reply from Genny, because we're normally very good at responding to one another. But Genny said she hadn't received my MMS. I checked my phone, assuming it was held in my outbox or something, but it wasn't there. Then I checked my sent messages. My stomach turned over and my blood ran cold. I had to check again, I couldn't have been that stupid.
I panicked. I had sent my nude photos to my step dad. I didn't know what I was going to do. It took me a while just to leave my room. Summoning my courage, I crept into the kitchen to make myself a sandwich. Did I just pretend nothing had happened or come out with it on the off chance he hadn't opened the message? It was just a mess.
He was regrouting some tiles as I entered the kitchen and he looked towards me and his eyes were immediately on my boobs. I'd got on a pink crop top and black leggings. When he wasn't looking at my breasts, he was glancing at my sex parts. My girly bulge is quite obvious and I normally wear longer shirts but sometimes I just forget. I could tell there was something off. Geoff was quiet and didn't chat to me like he normally does. Maybe he had been too busy to check his phone but somehow I doubted it. I felt sorry for him in a way since he clearly found me attractive and he must have thought I was teasing him. He didn't mention the photos though. He just asked if I was okay, so I made my snack and took it back to my room.
I only saw Geoff again briefly that day, remaining in my room, with the excuse that I was working on a college assignment. Really I was just avoiding the moment when 'photos gate' might come up.
However, later on, I became less anxious about the photos, my curiosity piqued around how he had reacted, even though he had made no allusion to them. It even occurred to me that Geoff might be looking at the photos in bed and was masturbating over the images. I have to admit - that was a turn on. I just knew how his imagination went into overtime and how he must have fantasised over my breasts and my pussy. Would it make him crave even more for the real thing?
Suddenly it was I who was fantasizing, wondering what it would be like to have his hands all over my naked body, his rock hard cock in my mouth.
I know at seventeen I should have blown a cock by now, but I had put my studies before everything. I just assumed I would have got to fifth base, even if I hadn't lost my virginity. Although I'm super girly and pretty I think my geekiness puts guys off, I don't know. There's plenty of time. The thing is though, the photo incident had awakened some naughty desire. I wasn't ready to pop my cherry yet but I was really eager to be intimate and suck a guy's cock.
The next day I heard Geoff come home from work and jump in the shower. I had already showered and I was blow drying my hair, which always gives it a lustre, adding to what Geoff called my 'Cinderella look.' I decided I was just going to go for it. He could either push me away, which would have been pretty damn good in one way, because it meant he loved my Mum, but I just had to know if I could break him.