It was nearing the end of junior year. I dressed as a girl so often that I was finding it difficult to act like a boy at school. I did my best, but I couldn’t help being effeminate. I heard references in my classes to a “sissy” and “he acts like a girl.” But I had my girlfriends who knew and supported Robin. Even though I came to school dressed as a boy, they knew I wasn't a sissy. I was a girl.
With only a few weeks left in the term, I arrived home and went through my routine. I’d go to my room, take off my boy clothes, exposing my wireless bra, panties, and pantyhose. (I had stopped wearing male underwear altogether.) Today I removed the plain bra and replaced it with a pretty black lace underwire one. I slipped in my breast forms. I pulled off my panties and hose, and pulled on a black lace gaff, carefully tucking my clit back between my legs. I slipped the pantyhose back on. I opted for a black A-line skirt and a tan ribbed pink sweater. I applied some dark pink lipstick, and a little eye makeup and put on the red wig that matched my natural hair. I slipped into a pair of sandals. I looked in the mirror. “Yes,” I said to myself. “That’s much better.”
Just as I came downstairs, Mom came in the front door. She was home early. “Hi Mom - you're home early,” I said.
“Hi, honey. Yes, I am. You like nice.” She looked a bit frazzled and told me that she had something she needed to talk to me about.
We went to the kitchen where she told me to sit at the table. “I’ll be blunt Robin. Your father has asked for a divorce. He’s been having an affair for a while with a younger woman. We’ve been discussing this for some time, but I didn't want to tell you until things were settled. We have agreed to divorce and he’s been very generous with a settlement. He’s also going to set up a trust for you.”
I sat there somewhat shocked, but not terribly surprised. I’d hardly seen him lately. Mom assured me that we’d be fine. “The good news is you can be a girl most of the time now. In addition, your dad now knows that you dress as a girl. It turns out he saw us when we were out. He actually asked me who the young lady was that I was with. I decided to tell him it was you. I hope that was okay.”
“What did he say?” I responded.
“At first he didn’t know what to say, so I explained how you had a strong desire to look and act like a girl. I told him that you were much happier as a girl and that I supported you."
Surprisingly, he said, if it made you happy, he is completely okay with it. He even said he wants to meet Robin, and if you're okay with it, introduce you to his girlfriend.
“I know that you don’t like having to spend so much time being a boy, and this at least will allow you to be a girl more. Let me ask you this. Do want to be a girl full-time?”
I was surprised by the question. I loved being a girl but hadn’t really thought about living as a girl full-time. However, the idea excited me.
“How would that even be a possibility Mom?” I responded.
“Well, we’re going to have to move to a smaller home. That's part of our agreement. But before we do, I was thinking that you could grow your hair so you could have a feminine style. You do have beautiful, thick blond hair.”
“Really Mom?” I said excitedly. It was something I had dreamed of but didn’t think was possible.
“Yes,” she said. “Let me explain. When we move, if it's truly what you want, you will move to our new place as my daughter. All of your clothes would be girl clothes. You can be a girl 24/7 if you want to. You should give this a lot of thought. It's obviously a big decision."
The idea thrilled me. “Do you think it’s possible?”
“By the time we move, you will have a feminine head of hair. We'll go to a beauty parlor as soon as it's long enough to get a feminine cut," Mom explained.
“Wow, that sounds great.”
"If we do this, you will have to dress, act, and speak in your most feminine voice. If you do this and are happy with your decision to live as a girl, we can talk about other things we can do."
“Like what, Mom?” I said excitedly.
Mom explained that she had looked into something called hormone replacement therapy, or HRT, as well as breast augmentation. “It would be a big step Robin, and I would want you to be sure it’s what you want. But I'm not pushing it. I'm fine with you simply being a girl the way you have been. I guess it comes down to choosing whether you want to be a crossdresser or a girl."
"Mom, I really think of myself as a girl. I love just being a girl."
Mom smiled and responded, "I know you do sweetie. I do too." Mom explained that HRT would have a number of effects. “You would lose facial and other bodily hair, your hips would widen, your voice would change, and your breasts would grow, although how much depends on a number of factors.”
“Oh, Mom this is so exciting. I love you for giving me this opportunity. I think I know already that I want that. ”
“I just want you to be happy. ,” Mom said excitedly.
Before the school year ended, I started growing my hair longer. Linda noticed and I told her about our plan. She was more excited than me. “What about school?” she asked.
I explained that “Rob” would be transferring to a different school due to a move, but Robin would be enrolling for her senior year. Mom was friends with the principal and had discussed it with her at length. She explained that I was living full-time as a girl and was probably going to transition. Her only concern was that I needed to pass completely as a girl. She had arranged to make some changes to my record so that when I graduated I would maintain the record that “Rob” had earned. The principal, Ms. Novak, wanted to have a meeting with me, as Robin, before the school year.
We arranged the meeting a week after the school year ended. We were getting ready to move and my hair had grown long enough to style it in a feminine manner. On the day of the meeting, I was dressed in a simple black skirt and a light green blouse. I put on some simple earrings with a matching necklace. Mom made sure my makeup was not overdone, but perfect. She drove me to school and dropped me off. For three years, I had walked into the school as a boy, and here I was, walking in as a girl. There were summer school students, but no one seemed to take special notice of the new girl. After all, I looked like many of the other girls. I knew where the office was and headed straight there. I told the administrative assistant that I had an appointment and she escorted me to Ms. Novak’s office.
When I walked in, Ms. Novak just looked at me for a minute. “You're Robin Geeen? she asked.
“Yes ma'am,” I replied in my most feminine voice.
“Well, I can't believe that you are the former boy named Rob. Clearly, this won't be a problem,” she said. “You are a very attractive young lady. I'm sure you'll fit right in.”
We discussed a few things. “I realize that you will have to use the girl's bathroom. Just be careful.” I explained that I of course knew to sit when I peed. She giggled and told me she thought I'd be fine. I also told her about my study group and she was happy to know I already had girlfriends at the school. “I'm sure this will work out Robin, but feel free to talk to me about any concerns. Honestly, you are one of the prettier girls here. Have a great year."
I walked out of her office and down the hall. Suddenly, someone called my name. Not Rob, but "Robin." It was Nancy. She came up to me and whispered, "What in the world are you doing here?" There were a lot of students and teachers around so I told her to come outside with me. We walked out the front door. We moved over to a bench and I explained everything.
"Girl, I'm so happy for you. I hope we're in the same classes." Mom was waiting. Nancy came over to the car and greeted my mother. "Hi, Mrs. Green. I'm so happy for Robin. Can I tell the other girls?"
"Sure. Linda already knows anyway."
Nancy smiled and went back to the school.
I told Mom the meeting went well. “Looks like your daughter will be attending her senior year here,” I said. Mom gave me a big hug.
A week later, Mom told me she had arranged a meeting with a specialist in gender reassignment. I was excited. On the day of our appointment, I wore a black pleated skirt and a grey blouse with a bow.
I was nervous, but the doctor, Elizabeth Jones MD, immediately put me at ease. She complimented me on my outfit and told me how darling I was. We discussed a number of things and she asked many questions about my desire to live as a girl. She seemed satisfied with my answers. She suggested that we start with an HRT regimen. "You can start today, and we'll see how it goes," Dr. Jones told me. She gave us some vials of pills and instructed us on how and when to take them.