--James (or Cynthia
--James (or Cynthia
I am in a similar situation as I have to cross-dress in secret I purchase most of my things on line and either collect from the store or get delivered to postage box. I have a collection of lingerie, hosiery and women's clothes and heels. When my wife is away I take the opportunity to cross dress, I always start with having a nice bath then pamper my skin with body lotion and slip into a nice lingerie set, if you want to go further than just wearing female clothes, take time to learn how to apply makeup, do your nails and style your hair/wig. The effort is certainly worthwhile and when my Wife is away for a longer period this is what I do. I love to sit in front of the mirror in my lingerie complete with my breast forms and transform my face into a more feminine appearance then continue my dressing by putting on a garter belt and stockings along with a nice skirt and blouse or a dress along with heels. Then sometimes I just do things about the house, watch a movie and have a wine or I may decide to go for a drive stopping in quiet areas and go for a stroll. I find it so exhilarating going for a stroll the wonderful feeling of the breeze blowing up your skirt and your heels clicking on the pavement is wonderful. If this is not possible at home you can always make an excuse and stay in a hotel for a night and do the same thing. I enjoy wearing panties and tights on a daily basis under my work clothes and fully dressing whenever i can.
I'd encourage you to bring the subject up. There should be no secrets in relationships and you're never going to be able to stop crossdressing and it is quite likely she will find out anyway eventually. You DO NOT want to treat this as a dirty little secret that she finds and feels deceived by. If you love each other you will be honest with each other. It's quite possible you will have some level of acceptance which may free you to explore more. If not at least it is out in the open and not something she discovers you hid from her. Secrets destroy relationships. Honesty rarely does.