Hi guys, need some of your advice here. I'm an author of interracial gay erotica... and my girlfriend is okay with it. I chose the niche at my friend's suggestion and started publishing on Amazon almost six months ago and now have more than 30 titles(which I'm very proud of) but here is my problem:
Every time I write (which is almost everyday), I jerk and cum a lot to my own stories... and even after I'm done, every time I feel like I need a good wanking, I always find myself going back to them. I can't help feel like I have become addicted to my own stories.... and have started fearing for my relationship with my girlfriend because by the time I finish on one story I would have jerked and cummed so much I wouldn't have anything left for her... It seems like I get more turned on by my own erotic imaginations more than being with her... and I haven't shared the problem with the problem. I love my girlfriend and don't want to frustrated her into quiting on our relationship as much as I also can't quit on writing (I don't have any formal job and I'm earning a good number of bucks from that my little dirty writing business plus earning through my passion really makes me happy). Is there anyone else in the same mess I am in, maybe you can offer me some helpful advice?