i first joined lush a little over six years ago, in late 2014. i was not long out of a 3 year relationship, and a friend told me about the site and i decided to join. i had a hard time fitting in at first, and i think after a couple of weeks i may have even deleted my account before having second thoughts and deciding to come back.
in early january 2015 i woke up to a call from my mom, telling me that a close friend had been killed the night before in a car wreck. i posted about that here, poured my heart out about it, not knowing what to expect, and was touched by the response i got. so many people felt what i was going through and reached out over it. i made some very dear friends because of that, and so far i haven't really found them again since i've returned. i've wondered what has become of them.
six years later, it's late 2020, i'm not long out of a 5 year relationship, and i decided to join back up. (i created an account sometime in the interim to read stories, but it was mostly inactive and i only rejoined in earnest a couple of months ago.) once again, i've had a hard time fitting in.
i hope there's no tragedy like there was before to continue the parallels, but once again i'm opening up in an unlikely place. life is rough lately. i'm blessed to have not lost anyone i'm close to because of covid, but it has taken a toll on me like it has the rest of the world. i lost my marriage this year, and frankly i think another man stole it from me. everything i knew and counted on was taken away from me this year, and i'm left, thank God, with my 2 year old daughter, to rebuild. my ex and i have gotten along well so far, and our relationship as co-parents is healing, but there's still a part of me that can't feel anything but resentment when i look at her.
lush has changed a lot, it seems, in the last few years, but i can't help but wonder if there aren't still people here like there were before. the ones that i really connected with, that maybe came here looking for something deeper. that's no judgment on those that came here just for fun--we're all looking to fulfill a desire, or we wouldn't be on an adult site, and no one is wrong if they came here just for that.
but maybe there are others. the people that became friends, that i shared desires with but also shared fears, and regrets, and faith, and so many other meaningful things.
if you're here, reach out.
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Chatterbox Blonde- Rumps Mystical Bartender
Hi Jack,
I don't think we've met properly but I know how it feels to have your life fall to pieces in an instant, with no warning and often for something you had no power to prevent.
I've lost my job, my mind, some of my dearest friends and somehow I'm still here.
I know how it feels when the stars fall from your sky and there's no joy, or hope or purpose to anything anymore.
So I hear your pain, I send my sympathy and my support.
If you want to share your troubles I'm here to listen, if you need a hug my arms are open, if you feel alone I'm here to be a friend.
I don't think we've met properly but I know how it feels to have your life fall to pieces in an instant, with no warning and often for something you had no power to prevent.
I've lost my job, my mind, some of my dearest friends and somehow I'm still here.
I know how it feels when the stars fall from your sky and there's no joy, or hope or purpose to anything anymore.
So I hear your pain, I send my sympathy and my support.
If you want to share your troubles I'm here to listen, if you need a hug my arms are open, if you feel alone I'm here to be a friend.
Whatever was posted is always meant in love and respect never to offend.
I'm also highly likely to have posted this from a phone so there may be typos or odd word changes, auto correct can be a pain.
I've been listening to my kinky pencil here's my current work
I prefer meaningful conversations but will dip out if it comes off as a script.
There's a few who are truly themselves here but I'm sure your friends are here but under a new account/persona.
If you try to fit in then you are doing it wrong.
Be yourself at all times. Be the you in rl here-its easy.
I don't know how it feels to have your world turned into a merry-go-round but in saying that I'm too honest and a problem solver.
So, if you want a true chat then I'm here because I am most definitely not a hopeful cheerleader.
Things will get better if you want them to get better.
You exist for someone else, that's a really beautiful thing.
And glad to have you back.
There's a few who are truly themselves here but I'm sure your friends are here but under a new account/persona.
If you try to fit in then you are doing it wrong.
Be yourself at all times. Be the you in rl here-its easy.
I don't know how it feels to have your world turned into a merry-go-round but in saying that I'm too honest and a problem solver.
So, if you want a true chat then I'm here because I am most definitely not a hopeful cheerleader.
Things will get better if you want them to get better.
You exist for someone else, that's a really beautiful thing.
And glad to have you back.
Force of Nature
you have very good people as friends. e especially can be very helpful. she's always been there for me. i was not in good shape when I arrived here 2 1/2 years ago.
be you.
be you.
Looks like we're in for a nasty spell of wether.
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Chatterbox Blonde- Rumps Mystical Bartender
Ain't none of us perfect , I'm glad got to know you a little better.
Firstly when you hear yourself saying "I'm not the..." or "I'm not much ..."
Knock that shit off. The world is hard enough on us all without us beating ourselves up too.
You're the most fabulous, most precious, most magical thing on the world.
There's only one of you walking this world, just one. That's how rare you are.
Now if you catch some other people talking negative at you. Just give them your best , I just stepped on something look.
The kind of bitter bitch that wants to pull you down is far too lost on being miserable themselves.
Fuck 'em or better yet fuck someone who appreciates you.
You don't have time to be listening to jealous bitter bitches, let them get out of your sight and be unhappy somewhere else.
Also start your day being positive.
Wash your face look in the mirror and say a motto.
Looking good and feeling gorgeous, is what I use.
Also when that kettle is boiling in the morning, take a moment to look outside and take a few moments to see the beauty of the word around you.
There's a lot to be thankful for, don't ever be ashamed to have a little cry over it or even just say something aloud you're thankful for.
Some days you climb mountains, others you managed to get out of bed.
Celebrate your victories no matter how small and always be kind to yourself.
As Agnes puts it.
A warrior without scars has never been truly tested. It isn't the being knocked down, or failing a challenge it's the staying down and allowing that defeat to control you.
Wear your scars with pride, they tell of the battles you fought, the Trials you completed, the Ordeals you faced.
Each one has a story and each one makes you greater for bearing them.
Course she also says.
Walk into a room like you can hear your friends cheering your name, your enemies gasp in fear and your Ancestors
boast you are of their blood line. Sometimes you can make it feel true.
Firstly when you hear yourself saying "I'm not the..." or "I'm not much ..."
Knock that shit off. The world is hard enough on us all without us beating ourselves up too.
You're the most fabulous, most precious, most magical thing on the world.
There's only one of you walking this world, just one. That's how rare you are.
Now if you catch some other people talking negative at you. Just give them your best , I just stepped on something look.
The kind of bitter bitch that wants to pull you down is far too lost on being miserable themselves.
Fuck 'em or better yet fuck someone who appreciates you.
You don't have time to be listening to jealous bitter bitches, let them get out of your sight and be unhappy somewhere else.
Also start your day being positive.
Wash your face look in the mirror and say a motto.
Looking good and feeling gorgeous, is what I use.
Also when that kettle is boiling in the morning, take a moment to look outside and take a few moments to see the beauty of the word around you.
There's a lot to be thankful for, don't ever be ashamed to have a little cry over it or even just say something aloud you're thankful for.
Some days you climb mountains, others you managed to get out of bed.
Celebrate your victories no matter how small and always be kind to yourself.
As Agnes puts it.
A warrior without scars has never been truly tested. It isn't the being knocked down, or failing a challenge it's the staying down and allowing that defeat to control you.
Wear your scars with pride, they tell of the battles you fought, the Trials you completed, the Ordeals you faced.
Each one has a story and each one makes you greater for bearing them.
Course she also says.
Walk into a room like you can hear your friends cheering your name, your enemies gasp in fear and your Ancestors
boast you are of their blood line. Sometimes you can make it feel true.
Whatever was posted is always meant in love and respect never to offend.
I'm also highly likely to have posted this from a phone so there may be typos or odd word changes, auto correct can be a pain.
I've been listening to my kinky pencil here's my current work
Quote by Twisted_Skald
Ain't none of us perfect , I'm glad got to know you a little better.
Firstly when you hear yourself saying "I'm not the..." or "I'm not much ..."
Knock that shit off. The world is hard enough on us all without us beating ourselves up too.
You're the most fabulous, most precious, most magical thing on the world.
There's only one of you walking this world, just one. That's how rare you are.
Now if you catch some other people talking negative at you. Just give them your best , I just stepped on something look.
The kind of bitter bitch that wants to pull you down is far too lost on being miserable themselves.
Fuck 'em or better yet fuck someone who appreciates you.
You don't have time to be listening to jealous bitter bitches, let them get out of your sight and be unhappy somewhere else.
Also start your day being positive.
Wash your face look in the mirror and say a motto.
Looking good and feeling gorgeous, is what I use.
Also when that kettle is boiling in the morning, take a moment to look outside and take a few moments to see the beauty of the word around you.
There's a lot to be thankful for, don't ever be ashamed to have a little cry over it or even just say something aloud you're thankful for.
Some days you climb mountains, others you managed to get out of bed.
Celebrate your victories no matter how small and always be kind to yourself.
As Agnes puts it.
A warrior without scars has never been truly tested. It isn't the being knocked down, or failing a challenge it's the staying down and allowing that defeat to control you.
Wear your scars with pride, they tell of the battles you fought, the Trials you completed, the Ordeals you faced.
Each one has a story and each one makes you greater for bearing them.
Course she also says.
Walk into a room like you can hear your friends cheering your name, your enemies gasp in fear and your Ancestors
boast you are of their blood line. Sometimes you can make it feel true.
I dug this thread up tonight, and I think I somehow missed this when it was posted. Well said, and much appreciated.