It was three weeks before I saw Veronique again, and I was miserable every day. I couldn’t stop thinking about her. It was more than just the sex. It was the feeling I got from being able to connect with someone again. And not just someone. Her. She met a version of me that was a fumbling idiot, but was patient and willing to look past it all. A woman like Veronique didn’t have to do that. But she saw something in me that...

I wasted about a year of my life after my second long-term cuckolding relationship came to an end. I was more lost than heartbroken. What started off as a decision to take some time for myself ended up being months of complete social withdrawal. I got a shitty job working midnight shifts at a Purolator sorting warehouse, slept the days away, and over time saw less and less of my friends in the evenings. I don’t think I wa...

“I should go,” Antoine said. “I didn’t know. I’m intruding.” “It’s fine, really,” Veronique assured him. “Parle-t-il français?” He was asking her if I spoke French. “Oui, un peu.” She told him I spoke a little. “Ah, ok.” It was obvious he had more to say, but didn’t want to say it in front of me. That led to an awkward silence. “Grey, maybe you could give us a few minutes?” “Sure.” “We’ll need some wine. There’s a dépanne...

It was a short drive between the restaurant and my place, but a quiet one. I think Veronique still doubted me, but she was too curious to walk away. For my part, I was still trying to figure out what I was going to tell her. I didn’t even know where to start. She’d already told me that dinner was my last chance to explain myself. Agreeing to come back to my place felt like a small extension of that. I knew this was it. I...

A few days went by before I heard from Veronique. It’s important to remember that smartphones and data plans didn’t exist yet. Text messages used to cost 20 cents each, and you couldn’t send someone a picture on their phone. There was no wifi calling either, and long-distance fees on a cell phone were an arm and a leg. I remember months where my phone bill was $400, and that was in back-then money. So the fact that I hadn...