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Regnadkcin
Over 90 days ago
Straight Male, 156
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Sadly, I am not a snacker, so nothing for me. Doesn't bother me if others do however.
On the rare occassion that I do snack in front of the TV, it is chips and hummus or wasabi peas.
On the rare occassion that I do snack in front of the TV, it is chips and hummus or wasabi peas.
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I have skinny dipped with several of my former lovers. The best was a moonlight swim in a lake in Wisconsin.
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I return to work today after being on medical leave for eight months now and really need the salary. I have had anxiety dreams about work for the last three nights, but still in look foreward to seeing my colleagues.
Please wish me luck.
My body is still immune supressed, so I will take precautions to avoid catching everything in the petrie dish we call the world. I bought new pants (trousers) as my old ones are still too big. My hair has grown out for a year and a half now, I wonder how people will react to that and my changed appearance.
I have returned to work for the last two weeks. I work half days and will start three quarter days next week. I lost a little weight and struggle with fatigue, but it was largely successful.
However, on the third day back, it was announced that the function I run would be relocated to another state. I was offered an early retirement package effective in two years. It is a pretty generous package. I am not sure how I feel about this. I have been doing this for twenty years and have been greatly successful. Two years ago, this probably would have been devastating as I viewed my profession as who I was. With my cancer, I don't quite see myself the same way today. Maybe it hasn't hit me fully yet.
I am not sleeping well and seem to be processing this change. It is a chance for a new start but older problems still exist. I don't get what I want and need from my long term relationship. But divorce would mean I couldn't retire and would need to work for another ten years. I also worry about caring for my aging parents. If I continued to work in my profession, I would need to relocate and to a less liberal state. This is all a bit depressing and challenging. I do feel a bit trapped.
Still, I am in a better place than three months ago. Thank you all for the good thoughts and concern.
Regnadkcin
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Am not coping at the moment. This is when I started falling apart last year and instead of realising that this year is different, I am holding on to what I seem to perceive is bound to go wrong. I am so paralysed and can't seem to snap the fuck out of it.
SS,
I feel for you. A mental / emotional attitude is difficult to break. My attitude towards this is to try and break things into smaller pieces and change routines.
Last year's news really depressed me. And while I haven't fully cleared that from my psyche, I tried to eliminate all daily reminders of this. I stopped reading the news. I refused to discuss politics. I blocked or avoided people who raised my ire. I redoubled my connection to those I cared for. While this change of routine wasn't a cureall, it left space for better, more positive things to creep in. To be completely transparent, it was more difficult to employ this in my more personal arrangements. My relationship with my spouse is strained and a work in progress still.
The smaller pieces bit, was finding small things that gave me some semblance of pleasure. Cooking, walking my dog, coffee with a friend, etc. gave me some solace against the context of, people are stupid and wrong headed." I still have that cynacism, but it seems a little less depresing and debilitating right now.
My solution may not be what works for you but I want to offer what I found helpful. I wish you the best on getting out of this "funk." "Funk" seems to understate and trivialize the problem, but I cannot find a single term that does justice to the difficulty of this journey. We are there for you.
Regnadkcin
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Having sex with my partner. She had already orgasmed and wanted me to cum as well. Well she is on top and working hard to give me a great orgasm. When I came, I had excruciating pain. The orgasm had given me an instant and severe migraine. Talk about a downer; here she is trying give me pleasure and instead gives me a horrible migraine.
It turns out that this is a known response for some male migraine sufferers. Luckily, that was the one and only time that happened.
It turns out that this is a known response for some male migraine sufferers. Luckily, that was the one and only time that happened.
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Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them. Fun movie.
Will see Ghost in the Shell tonight.
Will see Ghost in the Shell tonight.
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Coltrane for later Jazz. Blue Train is my favorite.
Duke Ellington for earlier / Big band. (Count Basey is great too)
Duke Ellington for earlier / Big band. (Count Basey is great too)
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I don't drink the stuff. If I call it anything, it would be by its brand name.
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I aggravate her by wanting regular sex. She views us as roommates.
She aggravates me by leaving her dirty clothes on the floor. I would like a tidier house.
She aggravates me by leaving her dirty clothes on the floor. I would like a tidier house.
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I am not big on Birthdays. My wife has forgotten it many times. She, on the other hand, relishes birthdays. If I forgot hers, I'd be dead.
Unfair? Maybe. But it isn't a make or break issue for me.
Unfair? Maybe. But it isn't a make or break issue for me.
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Of course. Hasn't everyone?
(I guess I did it at least twice)
(I guess I did it at least twice)
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Flatbread with proscuitto, tomatoes, olives, and fresh mozzarella
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Good morning. I hesitated about writing again but I could use some advice please. My son who was diagnosed with bi polar has decided he is tired of the meds. Tired of the feeling and tired of the rotation game with psychiatrist. He stopped seeing his therapist at school 2 months ago. He stopped the meds 2.5 months ago including his ADHD meds. He told his psychiatrist he feels ok now and wants to handle things on his own now. He told me after the appointment he is happy he is "cured" and wanted to celebrate. There is no way anyone is ever "cured" of being bi polar and I worry about his having an episode and not having immediate access to his psychiatrist who, surprise surprise, told us he was moving to a new position at the end of the month. Even is he decided to go back to see him, we would have to start over with someone new. Can anyone suggest signs to look for or suggestions of how to help him cope if he does have another episode? I can already hear him up late at night at 3 and 4 am making noise. I hope he is not hiding his manic episodes where he would stay awake for a few days.
I feel for you. It is not quite the same, but my nephew has schizophrenia. He hates his meds as it blunts his creativity. But everytime he goes off and has to get back on, there is more damage. Unfortunately, he is no longer a minor, so there are limits as to how we can help. Luckily, he recognizes "the voices" and seeks help.
As HeraTeleia said, the stigma of peers is a powerful barrier. I would try to impress upon your son that having another episode is worse than the stigma. Short of that, preparation for the next episode seems prudent.
I am sorry for this trial of you and your son.
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Tonya,
I hope today is better for you. We are here for you.
R
I hope today is better for you. We are here for you.
R
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What I have is a BMW 3 Series. What I would like if money was no object is a Tesla without limiters on the Lotus Elise chassis or an M2 or M5.
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Passengers
I liked it a lot. Interesting and original premise.
I liked it a lot. Interesting and original premise.
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I return to work today after being on medical leave for eight months now and really need the salary. I have had anxiety dreams about work for the last three nights, but still in look foreward to seeing my colleagues.
Please wish me luck.
My body is still immune supressed, so I will take precautions to avoid catching everything in the petrie dish we call the world. I bought new pants (trousers) as my old ones are still too big. My hair has grown out for a year and a half now, I wonder how people will react to that and my changed appearance.
Please wish me luck.
My body is still immune supressed, so I will take precautions to avoid catching everything in the petrie dish we call the world. I bought new pants (trousers) as my old ones are still too big. My hair has grown out for a year and a half now, I wonder how people will react to that and my changed appearance.