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birthdays are hard. i celebrated my 21 by getting the crap beat out of me by an ex, and then . they go hand in hand, tho i have done my best to seperate them over the years. the day of was hard. i was in a dark place, feeling unloved, lost, angry, sad, all that stuff, despite or because, take your pick, of everything that goes along with birthdays. i thought about ending it again, seriously thought about it...

there's a documentary on netflix - it started up thursday. Audrie and Daisy. i watched it at 3am, friday morning. it's hard, it's heartbreaking - Audrie and Daisy were both teens - 14 yo - when they were . 14yo. the aftermath was horrible. video and pictures passed around at school, labled sluts and liars and whores. there were death threats. Audrie took her own life. Daisy tried. eventually, another girl heard of her case and reached out to her - she'd gone through the same thing. Daisy is now 18. she graduated. she's helping to start up an outreach program. she does tattoos - more importantly, she does semi-colon tattoos among the other art she puts on skin. that really hit me. that's why i keep talking, why we keep talking, why we reach out - so we know we're not alone. it helps, i think. i hope so, at least i like to think it does. just a reminder. i know it pulled me back from the edge.

love you all,
peace, rachel